Its me , Its you

 Boyfriend is missed :(

Cross country is coming :< alaaaaaaa , pls hujan . Rain rain come again . Pls take over this day !

Febuary 2011 ,
Please be good to me . Please give me more patience . I donwan any bad times again .
Im tired okae . Give me time to rest more then January . I can say , January is SOOOOOO being bad to me . Sooo many homeworks , personal family problems , not enough rest , fights .... Fuck u ! Go die >:(
Fade from my mind pls , its sooo damn sour to recall back .
Yknow why im happy ?
This month has events going on .
1. Thursday - Sunday , working at Fajar Mac . Seeing my Brothers !
2. 4th Monthsary :)
3. First time celebrating Valentines Day
4. My ex birthday :P

" You're the one I want and I'ma continue lovin' "

Siti Muliani , together we're going through the same situation . You are not alone :)

Boy , You're my Addiction

Currently chatting with Suhaida and my boyfriend .
" Sorry ehk Helmi . Kau nak suhaida balek jgn harap ah . Kau belom sedar ape yg kau dah saketkan hati bestfriend aku ? Kau pikir aku suke tngok bestfriend aku merane ? Aku maybe bilang suhaida  ' sape2 kau nak pegy , aku tak kesah , tapy jgn sampai dorng pinjak kepale kau ' .
Kau nak katekan I Love You Suhaida ape2 pon aku tak kesah ah . Tapy do you really mean it ? Suhaida can be single skrng , tapy kau tak tawu ade orng laen die tngah tunggu ? think first ah Helmi , say anything u want . But dont make your second chance a wasteful one . "

Chatting with my boyfriend making me more ever SOT then now . Hahaha i like ! Kay i ask him one random question ; " If we break up someday , what will u do ? "

He says :
I will find u n patch back wid u

i say : 
But why me ?

He says :
u are the one i love the most n we have many great n swite memory
Aww soo swite . So his turn to ask me but he ask the same question to me back .

i say :

haha . hmmm , i wont find anyone else . Cause i told u before ur my first n the last . Whatever happens my door is always open for u to enter :) cause ur the best thing thats ever been mine n i cant forget the times we had together . its the sweetest n memorable ones . You're the one who always makes me happy and i wont ever regret having u as my boyfriend . My heart is only meant for you and theres no other person who has the same identity to replace u in this world n inside my heart :D

PANJANG KAN PANJANG KAN ?

haha . long rite ?? But to me i lot of things to say . Soo im extending it .

If we we're to break up , its okay . Its fine with me . Cause theres onli one person who only fits into my heart . He can be the one to ask for break or even me , but anything happens , the door inside me is always open for him . Theres always a chance to be given to the person who gave me a lot of memories and love to me  rite ?  He's the one who repairs my heart  when its broken . He's the one who accompanies me when im alone . He's the teddy bear i wanna hug tightly when im missing him .  And mostly , he's the star thats shines brightly in the night without fail . He's my everything , my joy , my luck , my life , my love . Anything happens , i dont have the heart to leave him alone and hurt him .  He blast my life like a firework show .  I can never regret him as my boyfriend cause he's worth my heart n love . Even truthfully , there's just no one else in this world the same identity as him to replace him in  this world n in my heart . If he does things makes me mad or sad  , still forgiving him is the best way to keep us going . Im never have the hard feelings  to give up on him . He's just the best thing in my entire life . He's that star shining brightly in the night missing me soo right :)

There i said it . From my whole heart .
Dear , if you're reading this , for what i said it above , thankyou soo much .  always make me smile . Thankyou . Love yaa soooooooo much <3 .Valentines day n our monthsary is coming , Looking forward the best day together :)

13January2011

You were there for me all along
Pls be right next to me tonight
All i can say is dont let go and hold on
Im asure everythings gonna be alright.
If there were to have a shooting star shooting across the night ,
take my hand and hold it tight .
How i strongly wish you'll always in my sight .
Nothings gonna make me breakdown as i were to cherish this moment with full of pride .

13January2011 <3

Happy 3months Anniversary Dear ! Hehe . Got soo many things to say just dont know where to start . Hmmm , first thing im gonna say is Thankyou . What i meant , Thankyou for your sacrifices , your care towards me , Your truthful to me , your faithfulness n lastly your Love . Thankyou for what you've done for me  Andand thankyou for the kisses n hugs :) i like ! Teehee . Just dont know how am i gonna repay you back accept for my heart . I nvr thought we could go through 3 months this far . Well , my first time relationship til this far without any fake promises . Hehe kae i kembang :D . Second thing , sorry for what i've made u down . I nvr meant to hurt u . i nvr meant to play your feelings . Especially sorry for what i said that made u change . All i said that just to let you know your mistake . Yknow i nvr before ask you to change . And im never expecting you to change cause I Love You Just the Way You Are . Kae whats past is past . Im never gonna repeat the past . Third thing , although we never go out celebrate this day 3 times already , but its okae . I dont mind . As long as youre with me , im gonna love our anniversary . It doesnt matter where we celebrate it , and how we plan it . The only matters for me is youre with me and why we're doing this cause we are meant to be together . Thats the only thing it matters . We have gone through ups n downs together and i hope we could go further more :) All the random questions i ask , it means im observing ur love towards me . Although its kinda fun . Im sorry we're not meeting on this day .
My last wish : I wish we're doing this further more . Nothings gonna block our way .Yeah , i'll be yours forever more :) cause you've always be in my heart . Even if i show attitude , sad or what towards you , keep this in mind .. i'll always love you no matter what happens . Even if we fight and never talk , still im always here waiting for your one text . Always . Nothings gonna change in me and nobody is gonna chnge my love to you . Im nvr letting other guys kidnap my heart cause you're the only key to my heart . Once again , Happy 3 months Anniversary ! :D Thankyou n Love ya alooooootz !! <3

Prince Charming of mine

True true . This one's for Efah . You know what i mean rite ? Hehehe .

WhatTheFuck , im scared & speechless . Its not about my family , friends , problems or stress . Its about Him . You noe what i mean rite dear ? u should really noe whats gonna happen . Just i cant believe what his lawyer just told em .

Dear , i dont noe what to say . Im scared ); Cant imagine my life would be if ur not around for the 2nd time . Even if ur in Hostel , still it aint enough for me to get through weeks without u . Even when ur gone , i dont have the heart to hurt ya . I cant give up waiting for u n i cant give it up on u . Every teardrops i cry , its u . I dont ever want to lose u again like i used to . i noe u dont like to see me sad rite like the one cry at the phone with u . Hoping soooo much u nvr go . I'll missed the days we spend time together . I'll never forget them . Although im in a free world , i noe i cant be free for certain things ; Boys . Youre the only one i earn . Youre the only one i love .

48 hours of ton . Wow i can say its my first time ton with friends . Didnt expect to be soo gerekk ! Mum didnt know with who i went or where i go when shes out of singapore with my little sister . When they went out , i went out meeting my Boifee . yeah , im world . I say that i sleepover at my friends house at Clementi . and then bring us to Marina to watch fireworks for New Year's Countdown ! haha im such a world .Talking about fireworks , those colours were greatly awesome ! Haha most funny part , all the bangladeshes record videos of the fireworkds like ' jakon ' . seriously irritating much .Then , Mum call me like 9 times  and all i did was ignore her calls  . Of course i know whats shes going to say , All i get from her is lecture lecture lecture . So the one night at Marina with Boifee , Shahrul , Boi , Khai n Raj . Really i had fun though it was damn tiring . We walk the whole Town  in rounds just to catch a 6/7 seater taxi . Walao ! 4 hours of catching taxis really boils my blood up . Fucking bastards those taxi drivers . And at 3+ am , atlast we caught a 6/7 seater taxi to Geylang . Okae , my eyes got steam already . Got sleepy n tired . Go rest for a while leaning on my boifee's body . About that Geylang place , it felt soo creepy walking infront of Hotel 101 n Hotel 81 . Got scared when a bangla stare me n watched me walk pass him .. n he follow behind me . Luckily boifee secure me :) Go one coffee shop and they drink accept for me n boifee .

Just wanna say Happy New Year to all . Hope i get along with 2011 life this year . I wished for that i wanna be with my one n only guy forever