Why i felt like this ? i cant explain alrite . Cause my feelings are mixed up . All i can is express my situation .. I kinda happy hanging out with my besties . Suhaida , Shariffah & Ierah spending their time with their love ones ; makes me happy to see them stucking together like double-sided tape .But why a long face dear Huda ? I just cant stop thinking they have the time to spend their time with them . But i ended up nothing :( . Yeah dear besties , im quite active infront of you girls , but inside im crying . Im not pretending or fake my actions , im just not letting my true feelings out . Its nice to see cute and relevant couples , but its hurting to see you all going romance , for me . I dont know why , maybe jealousy ? Hurt to see couples ? Tears are rolling down when see them romance-ing ? . I get the feeling that seeing them together it really hates me alot . Cause it reminds me of my past-time memories . Questions keep rounding in my brains , " Why is relationship is scary to me ? " , Is it about the Love ? Romance-ing ? Saying Goodbyes ? ... Well i never knew this could pass through my head . There is no sign of celebrating Valentines day with someone i loved . No body could ever be loyal to me . No one .
So what if nobody wants me ? So what ?! i dont care i have or not as long my heart is open for all to hurt me or love me . Jealousy is what im experiencing now , but that doesn't mean im desperate to have a boyfriend . Relationships are never gonna affect me . Either you enter my heart and stay or you hurt me and leave. Thats what im thinking . Love never ends . Thats why story books like Sleeping Beauty , Cinderella , always ends with a phrase " And they live happily ever after " . Which relationships doesnt have fights in these world ? There will always be challenges to face like conflicts , affairs , scandals ... Doesnt mean no fights or conflicts means you are loyalty to that person , but is the heart that decide not to fight with your love ones because your love is strong to held firmly .Love is all about Honest , Trust , Sacrifices , respect and loyalty .
If i can say all the things listed , why cant i ? Have i done my best as a good girlfriend ? .. Well its not all about being a good girlfriend , but its all about the love you gave stand together strongly & firmly to its place . Im saying this doesnt mean im desperate or obssesed , But to me , Solo life is better . Dont go through all the Love pains now eventhough one day you'll find your True love when you grow up . People are starting to change cause thats why i call them ' Young People ' . It might not be my time to have my feeling of Love now , but it could be my time when im reaching my dreams . What people say , " You can feel all the love , But True Love is only paired under the hands of Tuhan :)
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