Got nothing to do at home . Sooo sad i cant go out today
When i was 12 , i never knew what was Love meant . Didnt know how Love feels and how Love overcomes . To me , Love was suffer . All my 3 exs doesnt teach me what Love was . All was Bullshits and suck ass . But each year im going through a relationships , It tought me a bit by bit of it . Not from my exs i learn , but by the way i'm going through with them .
Since 13 October 2010 came ,
I met this one guy . I learn alot from him . All about Love . Yeah , most of me i gone through with him , was my First Time . But day by day , he teach me slowly 'til im fine with it . Sometimes im shy of him , but really months had past .. im really getting used to it slowly . He's the only one who knows my true attitude , true feelings my true heart :) He had been there for me for 4 months and everytime we met , is always a day to remember . Each day , he watch me does something he never saw before . Even if its just 4 months , alot of things we did together are soo memorable . Gone through all the pain & suffers , still we're just soo unbreakable . He knew alot about me and therefore still alot of things he doesnt know . Yknow , its really worth waiting for him for 7 weeks ,and what i most missed is ; met him and hug him like its out first time met . Almost cry infront of him but i hold on to it . I missed him spending our own time together side by side , missed seeing his laughters and smiles , missed the way we used to be , missed everything was fine . Now , Everything just went incredible . Day by day , it went stonger and deeper . But no one knows even us , how deep and strong it is . We can only tell , we love each other the same . The past was our History and it was a Legend . He told me things i would always wanna hear each day we met .He hugs me tight and close 'til im out of breath like his own teddy bear . Kiss me continuously made me full of fantasies . He tickles me 'til im going insane . Wrestle me like his own punching bag . Even if i does digusting things like burping loud , still he just love me the way i am .
Hehe Happy 4months Monthsary Dear . I'll always love u no matter what . Love sooooo much :D Meet ya soon ^^
Happy 4months Monthsary Dear ! Wishing us that we last 'til the end :D
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Friday, February 11, 2011
Punishment of Love
I didnt come to school today . Wake up late :(
Nvrmnd soo i meet up Shafiq .
Go lepak with shafiq , elly , wan n shahrul .
Wahhh ! soo the kekek nak mamps .. Laugh til my stomach hurts alot .
Raining VERY HEAVILY at Bukit Batok . Yahhh , and i started shivering when i saw lightinings .
Sooo seram :(
Then all cao except for me n Fiq .
then Sam come .
Haiyaaaaa go teman sam to police station .
Soo hungry , i blanje the boys Macdonalds .
Hehe 2 double cheeseburger each for me n Fiq and Milo for sam .
Got call from Mum , she went screaming in the phone .
In the bus , crying .. i don noe wht to do .
Got home call Fiq , and told him not to say a thing and hear what mum screams at me .
He heard everything mum says .
Got whacked by mum again . Twice .
Nvrmnd soo i meet up Shafiq .
Go lepak with shafiq , elly , wan n shahrul .
Wahhh ! soo the kekek nak mamps .. Laugh til my stomach hurts alot .
Raining VERY HEAVILY at Bukit Batok . Yahhh , and i started shivering when i saw lightinings .
Sooo seram :(
Then all cao except for me n Fiq .
then Sam come .
Haiyaaaaa go teman sam to police station .
Soo hungry , i blanje the boys Macdonalds .
Hehe 2 double cheeseburger each for me n Fiq and Milo for sam .
Got call from Mum , she went screaming in the phone .
In the bus , crying .. i don noe wht to do .
Got home call Fiq , and told him not to say a thing and hear what mum screams at me .
He heard everything mum says .
Got whacked by mum again . Twice .
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Romeo
Made this my own . Took like 45 minutes . Haha of course i did it from my heart . Nothing is this passage tell me fake stories . This i made by my own feelings and sayings :)
Romeo ,
This night is flawless , Dont you let it go .
Holding me close , watching the fireworks burst .
Kiss me under the sky , hold my hands tight , bring on the light ..
Let everything past go fading as it flies high .
Recapping back those days ,
Missed , tears , waiting , pain .
Waiting is the hardest part for me ,
asking my own heart ,
"Will he be there and still accompany me when he's release ?"
Cause all i ever felt was my world is breaking apart .
Im used to be shy ,
making everything go figured out if its alright
You made everything go strongerly
Everytime you laugh n smile , you gave me full fantasies
I missed you everynight and time
Thinking " would you always be mine ? "
Wishing every 11.11 pm
qouting somethings between u and me
You hug me like a teddy bear ,
wrestle me like your one punching bag
Saying sweet qoutes making me melts
calling me sweet cuddly names
Treat me like your only princess
and of course ,
Loving me like " you're the best thing thats ever been mine "
Nothings gonna change my love for You
Today got soo sleepy in Social Studies class . Sleepy much -.-
Meet Ierah at canteen cause ermmmm ...... ( cabot my History ASP )
Jun accompany me as she also waiting for the same person as me . Hear songs .. Did homeworks .
Meet ierah then got nothing to do we ..... KARAOKE !
We karaoke the One in a Million song by Neyo .
Ppl looking at us sia .. sooo malu malu .
Soo i got out of school meet my Boify .
IM BATHING MY OWN SWEAT -.-
then hehe meet Sam , Shahrul and Ierah .
OMG ! im having period same as her and the same day we started having it .
STOMACH CRAMPS all the way .
I just vomit soo not awesome .
Shahrul go , left me n boify .
Soooooooooo tired he ly onto me , im the one sleeping not him -.-
sooo change position . haha !
i sleep very the SHIOK . okae i lyke !
Sent him to wall and saw my EX .
Omg , soo the sombong maot .
kae got home . eat eat , dont stop ....
TIL I DROP . byebye ! :D
THATS ALL FOLKS .
Romeo ,
This night is flawless , Dont you let it go .
Holding me close , watching the fireworks burst .
Kiss me under the sky , hold my hands tight , bring on the light ..
Let everything past go fading as it flies high .
Recapping back those days ,
Missed , tears , waiting , pain .
Waiting is the hardest part for me ,
asking my own heart ,
"Will he be there and still accompany me when he's release ?"
Cause all i ever felt was my world is breaking apart .
Im used to be shy ,
making everything go figured out if its alright
You made everything go strongerly
Everytime you laugh n smile , you gave me full fantasies
I missed you everynight and time
Thinking " would you always be mine ? "
Wishing every 11.11 pm
qouting somethings between u and me
You hug me like a teddy bear ,
wrestle me like your one punching bag
Saying sweet qoutes making me melts
calling me sweet cuddly names
Treat me like your only princess
and of course ,
Loving me like " you're the best thing thats ever been mine "
Nothings gonna change my love for You
Today got soo sleepy in Social Studies class . Sleepy much -.-
Meet Ierah at canteen cause ermmmm ...... ( cabot my History ASP )
Jun accompany me as she also waiting for the same person as me . Hear songs .. Did homeworks .
Meet ierah then got nothing to do we ..... KARAOKE !
We karaoke the One in a Million song by Neyo .
Ppl looking at us sia .. sooo malu malu .
Soo i got out of school meet my Boify .
IM BATHING MY OWN SWEAT -.-
then hehe meet Sam , Shahrul and Ierah .
OMG ! im having period same as her and the same day we started having it .
STOMACH CRAMPS all the way .
I just vomit soo not awesome .
Shahrul go , left me n boify .
Soooooooooo tired he ly onto me , im the one sleeping not him -.-
sooo change position . haha !
i sleep very the SHIOK . okae i lyke !
Sent him to wall and saw my EX .
Omg , soo the sombong maot .
kae got home . eat eat , dont stop ....
TIL I DROP . byebye ! :D
THATS ALL FOLKS .
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Mum , stop threatening me by using violence towards me pls !
What ever happens to me , still you cant force me and no one can stop me .
Yeah , i noe his aunty say bad things abt him . He go Boys Home lahhh , what lahhh . But that doesnt mean he IS a bad person . So what ? Do i care ? Whats the past is already the past . That doesnt mean he's forever a Bad person . Everybody can change . So you mean that after boys home , they will still be doing bad things by now ? Sorry mum , you describe me the wrong person . Even if you told me that once you've got to noe that im still with him , i will still keep my relationship a long distance one . I wont ever give in my love . You've beaten me once , now you say you wanna beat me even more violence if you find out ? sorry mum , i rather be beaten up than be breaking my relationship . Dont you ever go through teenage life ? Mum , im just asking you to STOP USING YOUR VIOLENCE AGAINST ME . BEAT ME UP IF YOU WANT . BEAT ME UP 'TIL I DIE .
What ever happens to me , still you cant force me and no one can stop me .
Yeah , i noe his aunty say bad things abt him . He go Boys Home lahhh , what lahhh . But that doesnt mean he IS a bad person . So what ? Do i care ? Whats the past is already the past . That doesnt mean he's forever a Bad person . Everybody can change . So you mean that after boys home , they will still be doing bad things by now ? Sorry mum , you describe me the wrong person . Even if you told me that once you've got to noe that im still with him , i will still keep my relationship a long distance one . I wont ever give in my love . You've beaten me once , now you say you wanna beat me even more violence if you find out ? sorry mum , i rather be beaten up than be breaking my relationship . Dont you ever go through teenage life ? Mum , im just asking you to STOP USING YOUR VIOLENCE AGAINST ME . BEAT ME UP IF YOU WANT . BEAT ME UP 'TIL I DIE .
Monday, February 7, 2011
STOP CALLING ME NURUL );
i dont like seriously .
Pls dont call me NURUL . I'll cry cause it hurts too much );
Nurul is the name whom my late father used to call me last time . N now he's gone , ppl call me NURUL is like you guys are haunting my life as if my father is really calling me then .
IM SORRY . PPL CALL ME NURUL is my own personal Phobia . Only my family understands me , why certain ppl can call me nurul . Like my own family n cousins .
You guys out there call me NURUL , im sorry if i walk away . only CERTAIN PPL UNDERSTANDS ME .
Happy Belated Birthday my 4 years friendship buddy !
Sorry if i never attend your Private Birthday celebration on Saturday . Hehe
But still no matter what , you used to cheer me up when im down , you're always there if im in need , you tear away my tears when im down , you surprised me with anything you could n lastly , Thankyou for what you've done for me . Thankyou soo much buddy !
Anything happens , We're one buddy partners for 4 years . Once again Happy Birthday Buddy !
You ROCK ON !
Shopping Spree
All the CLOTHES at Bugis dont give me enough attention man ! Like seriously i dont even like one dress there . Except for the one i bought it just now . Woooow sooo pwettty ! the dress is like Marriage dress -.- But still i like it . Nevermind , still got some things to buy .
i dont like seriously .
Pls dont call me NURUL . I'll cry cause it hurts too much );
Nurul is the name whom my late father used to call me last time . N now he's gone , ppl call me NURUL is like you guys are haunting my life as if my father is really calling me then .
IM SORRY . PPL CALL ME NURUL is my own personal Phobia . Only my family understands me , why certain ppl can call me nurul . Like my own family n cousins .
You guys out there call me NURUL , im sorry if i walk away . only CERTAIN PPL UNDERSTANDS ME .
Happy Belated Birthday my 4 years friendship buddy !
Sorry if i never attend your Private Birthday celebration on Saturday . Hehe
But still no matter what , you used to cheer me up when im down , you're always there if im in need , you tear away my tears when im down , you surprised me with anything you could n lastly , Thankyou for what you've done for me . Thankyou soo much buddy !
Anything happens , We're one buddy partners for 4 years . Once again Happy Birthday Buddy !
You ROCK ON !
Shopping Spree
All the CLOTHES at Bugis dont give me enough attention man ! Like seriously i dont even like one dress there . Except for the one i bought it just now . Woooow sooo pwettty ! the dress is like Marriage dress -.- But still i like it . Nevermind , still got some things to buy .
Friday, February 4, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Nothing but my heart
2 pm to 9 pm ; WORKING MCM BUDAK SIALAN KAT MACDONALDS . BROTHER2 AKU SMUE BUAT AKU SOT SMCM SIA . MAKIN KECOH SIA MACDONALDS HAIYAAAA .
Qoutations for my belove brothers :) Sedih pe . Kene bully ngan brother sendiri seyyy . Ishhh takpe still i love them <3 Stories during kerje . Kecoh smcm takbole angs !
Hairi :
HAHA sejak bile kau panggil aku syg sia ? stakat mintak satu cawan plain water nak menggatal . Naughty ehk kau . Sorry kau gy gym mane nk naik badan , tetap aku tinggi dari kau . MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA >:D andand sorry aku ketawe kan kau tady rabak2. HAHAHAHA kekek sia ! aku suke !
Danial :
Sialan bodoh kau ! Stop it ehk . Asyik panggil aku LG . Haiyaaaa kau kene jugak ngan aku satu hari nanti . Biar aku ketawe kan kau one whole day nonstop . suke bully aku aye ? REVENGE TIME .
Yan :
Kau nak aku buat ape sia ngan budak tu ? Pikir aku ade mase nak layan die punyer flirts sngat sorry . NOT MY TYPE .
Sal :
Kau maseh leh tanyer aku ape aku akan buat ? Kimaaaaak . Fikir lahh dlm2 .
Fir :
HEHE yay ! kite dah okae . I tot u would never want to talk to me anymore . Still u hav the courage to come to me and say " huda amcm ? " . I blush when you said it . Okae . Still i miss having fun with ya . Fun talking with ya in the crew room when having break together unexpected .
Ade satu budak aku nak post , sound rabak2 ah . Tapy taknak lahh . Die bukan brother aku pon . Sialan punyer jantan keparat . Jgn smpai tngan aku melayang pat muke kau ehk . Takpe lahh bagy kasihan ehk .
At facebook , sam got link tis one song to fiq . OMG i miss hearing that song . I heard it , i cry soo rabak2 seyy . Dunnoe y but maybe i just feel i get hurt alot deeply inside everyday . Just no one knows . Yeah , forcing laughters n faking smiles is all i ever did just to prevent ppl asking me if im okae .
I get hurt alot everyday n everytime . My heart is fragile . Even abit of pain , kills me soo hard n deeply . Now , the pain is making me suffering 'til im crying rite now . I just dunnoe y . Im sorry , im used to doing this way .
kae aku lapar .. nak gy mkn :(
Qoutations for my belove brothers :) Sedih pe . Kene bully ngan brother sendiri seyyy . Ishhh takpe still i love them <3 Stories during kerje . Kecoh smcm takbole angs !
Hairi :
HAHA sejak bile kau panggil aku syg sia ? stakat mintak satu cawan plain water nak menggatal . Naughty ehk kau . Sorry kau gy gym mane nk naik badan , tetap aku tinggi dari kau . MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA >:D andand sorry aku ketawe kan kau tady rabak2. HAHAHAHA kekek sia ! aku suke !
Danial :
Sialan bodoh kau ! Stop it ehk . Asyik panggil aku LG . Haiyaaaa kau kene jugak ngan aku satu hari nanti . Biar aku ketawe kan kau one whole day nonstop . suke bully aku aye ? REVENGE TIME .
Yan :
Kau nak aku buat ape sia ngan budak tu ? Pikir aku ade mase nak layan die punyer flirts sngat sorry . NOT MY TYPE .
Sal :
Kau maseh leh tanyer aku ape aku akan buat ? Kimaaaaak . Fikir lahh dlm2 .
Fir :
HEHE yay ! kite dah okae . I tot u would never want to talk to me anymore . Still u hav the courage to come to me and say " huda amcm ? " . I blush when you said it . Okae . Still i miss having fun with ya . Fun talking with ya in the crew room when having break together unexpected .
Ade satu budak aku nak post , sound rabak2 ah . Tapy taknak lahh . Die bukan brother aku pon . Sialan punyer jantan keparat . Jgn smpai tngan aku melayang pat muke kau ehk . Takpe lahh bagy kasihan ehk .
At facebook , sam got link tis one song to fiq . OMG i miss hearing that song . I heard it , i cry soo rabak2 seyy . Dunnoe y but maybe i just feel i get hurt alot deeply inside everyday . Just no one knows . Yeah , forcing laughters n faking smiles is all i ever did just to prevent ppl asking me if im okae .
I get hurt alot everyday n everytime . My heart is fragile . Even abit of pain , kills me soo hard n deeply . Now , the pain is making me suffering 'til im crying rite now . I just dunnoe y . Im sorry , im used to doing this way .
kae aku lapar .. nak gy mkn :(
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
What did cha' say Playgirl ?
Who are you calling my bestfriend a SLUT ?
Tak terfikir ke kalau orng panggil kau pelacor murahan ? kau suke ?
OF COURSE U DONT !
So stop calling her a SLUT UNLESS u really want me to call u SLUT in school :) THANKYOU PLAYGIRL .
If you try to make one single movement onto her , dont stop us . Dont think she's alone . She still have us . N dont u ever think that YOUR GIRLFRIEND just stolen MY BESTFRIEND'S lover ?
GO DIE ! U n your girlfriends are all the same !
ATTENTION SEEKERS , FLIRTS n of course PERAMPAS :) thankyou very much playgirl . You really made my day a wonderful one . * roll eyes *
Yknow its the last time since i laugh hardly n continuously when im with my bestfriend , suhaida . I miss those times when she made me laugh like a clown n i made her go sot everywhere n anytime . Haha . Wish things never change from the starting . Wish our almost 2 years of friendship never ends . Although its just almost 2 years , but really we had alot of memories . And that memories is always written in my Diary :) She protects me but I protect her more . Even if we had big fights like we used to and those misunderstandings , i will definitely go on forgive n forget . If only she knew how joyfully my life was when she first came to my world .Although she made me miserable last time , but still shes most important to me . She make a big difference in me . For this , Thankyou for making me laugh when i'd almost forgotten how to . Thankyou Dearest <3
Daddy dearest ,
I miss you );
I miss having u around . I miss those times u cuddle me like a pillow .
Wish u were still around . Wish u were right next to me . Wish u were talking to me now . Wish u were still here to listen to my problems . Wish u were here to complete the family . Wish u were here to have fun with us before u go );
Today ;
Never go to school . Sorry 4N1 i let u down . I used to like running , but now its not my all time hobby anymore . CROSS COUNTRY n SPORTS DAY, U SUCK IT . Im not gonna run anymore , only if im doing joggings or work out .
Go meet Boify . n he's late for 35 mins . WOW so best waiting for him ayeee . But nevermind . I forgive him :)
He told me if he could , he would teach me how to play pool . Okae !
tady tu security guard punyer lahh bnyk colok ! haiyaaaa . security guad buat hal security guard lahhh . Maen pool pulak .. Gy buat kerje ! haha
Kae , abng on movie cerite " Charlie n what ?" i dunnoe . Tapy Zac Efron Hot ! okae dah cukop -.- cerite die sungguh sedih :(
Tak terfikir ke kalau orng panggil kau pelacor murahan ? kau suke ?
OF COURSE U DONT !
So stop calling her a SLUT UNLESS u really want me to call u SLUT in school :) THANKYOU PLAYGIRL .
If you try to make one single movement onto her , dont stop us . Dont think she's alone . She still have us . N dont u ever think that YOUR GIRLFRIEND just stolen MY BESTFRIEND'S lover ?
GO DIE ! U n your girlfriends are all the same !
ATTENTION SEEKERS , FLIRTS n of course PERAMPAS :) thankyou very much playgirl . You really made my day a wonderful one . * roll eyes *
Yknow its the last time since i laugh hardly n continuously when im with my bestfriend , suhaida . I miss those times when she made me laugh like a clown n i made her go sot everywhere n anytime . Haha . Wish things never change from the starting . Wish our almost 2 years of friendship never ends . Although its just almost 2 years , but really we had alot of memories . And that memories is always written in my Diary :) She protects me but I protect her more . Even if we had big fights like we used to and those misunderstandings , i will definitely go on forgive n forget . If only she knew how joyfully my life was when she first came to my world .Although she made me miserable last time , but still shes most important to me . She make a big difference in me . For this , Thankyou for making me laugh when i'd almost forgotten how to . Thankyou Dearest <3
Daddy dearest ,
I miss you );
I miss having u around . I miss those times u cuddle me like a pillow .
Wish u were still around . Wish u were right next to me . Wish u were talking to me now . Wish u were still here to listen to my problems . Wish u were here to complete the family . Wish u were here to have fun with us before u go );
Today ;
Never go to school . Sorry 4N1 i let u down . I used to like running , but now its not my all time hobby anymore . CROSS COUNTRY n SPORTS DAY, U SUCK IT . Im not gonna run anymore , only if im doing joggings or work out .
Go meet Boify . n he's late for 35 mins . WOW so best waiting for him ayeee . But nevermind . I forgive him :)
He told me if he could , he would teach me how to play pool . Okae !
tady tu security guard punyer lahh bnyk colok ! haiyaaaa . security guad buat hal security guard lahhh . Maen pool pulak .. Gy buat kerje ! haha
Kae , abng on movie cerite " Charlie n what ?" i dunnoe . Tapy Zac Efron Hot ! okae dah cukop -.- cerite die sungguh sedih :(
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