Teardrops

I never wanted this . I never want this in my life before .
Why is everyone treating me wrong ?
U guys wanna see my sad everyday is it ?
Haissssh , I just dont noe what to do . Im full of hurt and pain

Luckily , i have my buddy beside me :) Afiz . He gave me support in what ever i did , and he's the only one who can tell that my eyes is full of problems and questionsmarks . Thankyou soo much Buddy :)

♥

Weeeee ~
Happy :D today go out with my Boifyeeen to Queensway . Alaaaaaa atlast kluar same2 jugak . I had fun :)
Soo today he bought his favourite blue colour Zippo Lighter , Blue laces n Mp4 Cable .
Ohhh ohhh , n he tell me that he wanna buy me a neclace n wants me too wear it . Awwwwww , soo sweet ♥ . That necklace he showed me , was actually the necklace i wanna buy for him for our 3 monthsary gift .. But if i give step he pkai jek .. Tak pernah nmpak die necklace pon . Hmm Tkpe lahh . Atleast there's something for me that will last forever :) Hehe.
We were walking fer like 4-5 rounds around Queenstown just to see " That thing " . Okae i was SOOO DAMN PAISEY when he was telling me about his father and the thing he holds . He doesnt know he wants to buy ar not . HAHA soo kekek of him .. But still cute :)
Up to u lahh Hunney Bunny wanna buy or not .. I anything hehe .
Next time go out again ehk Hunney , I love spending my time with u ♥Love ya soo much lahhh :D

Love ,
Huda♥
Ur Shorty Bastard .

Something about ♥

OMG , i cant believe i just cried hard just because i miss my damn beloved cat , Kiko . I miss him soo much ;( Where could he be now ? Why did you run away kiko ?
I miss those times with you kiko . You hug me when im sleeping in my room alone , You meowed hard at me just because you want me to feed you , you manje2 at me when im bored , you revenge me when i disturb you nonstop , even if you come back home with bruises and scars ; you never failed to come to me and make me heal you even if the scars hurt you alot . Damn kiko , i miss those times .. I MISS YOU . You never failed to make me smile again when i had a hard time . Even if i shouted hard at you , you still look at me , give me that step cute face and meowed . I miss your soul when you were sleeping on my bed . You were once patience cat . Even if i cant understand your language , But you are telling me you wanted something from me . I miss you coming running to me when i come back home from school . You're one such ordinary cat :) AWWWW , soo swite of you kiko . You were my bestest pet cat kiko . Your my one fan bestfriend ;) where ever you might be now , i'd pray that you will be okay . Mostly , come back if you still remember your true home and your beloved owner . I miss you bestfriend . Come back to my arms ..pls ?

Hunney Bunney ; Go rest kay . Takecares bby ! Love ya ♥


Kay , Exams are just around the corner . And im attending the night study from nxt week onwards . Have to study more harder now . hehehe :)

♥

Im getting worried each day past by . Soo worried .
My chest is getting more hurtful than last week . Even more painful ;(
I dont know why . I did nothing to it .
Well i cried thinking that i need a operation . OMG i cried soo tak terhenti-henti .. It feels like as if i sitting down , laying or just standing , i can feel the hurt inside . Describe the pain ? Like , someone stab u with a knife through your heart . Thats the pain .
I just dont know how am i going to endure the pain everyday i go to school .
I feel soo abnormal . The pain makes me sooo weak . Haiisssh . I dont know what to say . Oh no .. im crying bcoz of the pain ! Sial lah what  telah happen to me ? Im soo scared . I feel like dying soon ;(


Ohh and anywaes ,
Happy 6 monthsary to my Dearest Prince Charming . I love him soooo much . Hehehe .

He's mine pls

Aku tawu lah mataey aku Handsome , Hot , Cute , Sapao , ... U noe lyke "WTF HES GORGEOUS!" kankankan?
Hehehe i think tat way too :D
Tapy asl ehk bnyk2 jantan pt dunia niy , korng pilih mataey aku ? Tak nampak ke kat Facebook " In a Relationship with NurulHuda Abdullah " ?
Potek ehk korng ? Lagy2 tu pompuan yg selalu kol die . Mintak kene sound ehk . Jgn sampai darah gua up ayee . Step takde lagy jantan kat luar lebih baik dari die jek ..  Eeeeeeee sedar sikit ye .
OKay Can . kekek sia . HAHAHAHAHA !
Fiq : U noe i noe what happen today ayee . Hahahaha perot sampai nk meletop !
Hahahaha . Kite nk balek then fiq hantar me at bus stop . Yelah cuace tngah hujan lebat tady . Soo we jln i saw 2 bangladesh tngah lari nk masok blok . Tibe2 one of the bangla jatoh keblakang . Kiwaaaak soo kekek . Conferm jatoh bergegar sia block . Hahaha ! dah tu kite ketawe ade satu budak naek skooter bih terslide kat luar lift . Then barang bdak kecik niy melayang kat hujan . Hahahaha !
One more , after i take bus fiq msg me say that die nmpak satu makcik niy slip tapy tak jatoh . Hahahaha i laugh sendiri kat dlm bus . Kay perot nk meletop soo saket ketawe from just now .
Haiish ape dah jady dah nyari . Sway nk mamps !
okay can ! haha

Kay i lOVE MY BOYFRIEND VBERY MUCH . I DONT WANNA REPLACE HIM PLS .
HE'S MINEY MINE ! :D

To a certain extent ..

Whats wrong wit u ?
So ur telling me that "that" rumour u heard is true ah ? WTF , have u EVER seen me going out with other guys ? What makes u think that I HAVE THE HEART TO PLAY UR FEELINGS BEHIND UR BACK ? This is what u say u trust me ? Sorry baby , for me i still think that u dont trust me 100% .
We have done this before . Dilah . She brainswash me just because of u . She want us to go our own separate ways right ? But atleast , I still have half of my heart to trust u that u didnt go with her . I STILL TRUST U . And now whereby another rumour is approacing , did u did the same as me ? Oups soo u called me last night , and ask whether its true i didnt go out with other guys . I can only say this SUMPAH DEMI ALLAH , DEPAN QURAN , SAKSI SELURUH DUNIA , DEPAN U , I BERSUMPAH I TAK KELUAR NGAN JANTAN LAEN . fair now ? puas hati ?
Seriously u get me to say that , it totally hurts me alot . DEEPLY . Totally im pushing u aside man ..
Im soo damn hurt just because of u . Do u noe what its like to be hurt and cry because u've been strong for too long ? Did u ?
Straight forward , did u realize ur the only one who made me cry ? yeah its true . dear , i've been patience for soo long . Dont make me lost hope of trusting anymore . Even now , u made my happiness fade away slowly ;((
Sorry to say this , even if i didnt see u like for 3 weeks or more , I dont have the heart to play such things behind ur back . but even if u said that " that " rumour is true , i cant do anything . Its ur choice u wanna believe or not . I'll just sit back and relax and study hard for my exams are coming . U've let me down .
U LET ME DOWN COMPLETELY . ;((

Ouhhya , sedihsedih gyny pon ... Well i love my bestfriend alot . POTASSIUM ! haha . Love ya as my bestfriend lahh . Thanks fer cheering me up . U nvr failed to make me smile again ;)
Thanku potassium , thanku for your concern towards me . Appreciate it alotz !
You were there when i needed u most and you made my day . Even if you hurt my feelings last time ,
i've forgiven you every bit . I shared my problems to you , so do you .. Well , ur one of my greatest bestfriend in the whole wide world . My feelings are true . Thankyou very much , Hope to see you happy again .. Stay strong always !
Love ,
Huda

Im away , but my heart is close to u

Currently doing malay composition .

Atlast i meet my Hunney Bunney ! hehehe . Misss him soo damn much lehhh .
Okae , txting with Eera . Alaaaa so sad for her .

Eera <3

Hey dear , cheer up kaes . Dont worry just maybe your true love isnt the time now to be found . Wait fer love kae ? Just stay positive . I wanna see u smile , enjoying life , make new memories , forget the past and laughing with your close friends . Next time , i ajak u keluar kae ??  We have fun together . Just keep txting me whenever u are down , am always there for u . See ya nxt time ,, cheer up .. ITS NOT THE END OF LIFE BABE , EVEN ITS NOT THE END OF YOUR LOVE LIFE :)

To : Ierah Tinee , Shariffah n Eiida <3

Im soo sorry to my Girlfriends . I cant be with you girls for this time . Im rushing my studies . Hope u understand kae .. Alot of work to be done . After school straight i cant meet ya .. Im staying back alittle while . Being with u girls is the best ! Just maybe its not the right time now for me to have fun .. Dont worry i wont leave from u girls . Im just catching up with my studies even more harder this time . After exams we have fun okae ?? I LOVE BEING WITH U GIRLS .. IM GONNA MISS THE FUN . Starting from now , im going school early like i used to , and sit alone at the canteen waiting for u girls . I wont fade away .. Im just having a time out . See ya in school .. ouh n i wont be onlining until exams finish . See ya around in school !

HudaAbdullah .Love ,

Be with you

Omg i was hearing this song when i was texting with my boyfriend .
Got caught up the lyrics really make me awake . The lyrics is the same as our situation .
Okae wow wow wow ! i love this song sooo much .

Really nobody wanna see us together even my uncle wanna break us apart , but no matter what .. we're still in one piece .
I just love my prince charming soooo much ! <3


"And no one knows why I'm into you
'Cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in our shoes"
Cause you people out there doesnt know how it feels to be in our situation . You'd never know true love . If you people understands us , then why is there a fuss about it ? Scared of losing me because i go with him ?

fml

Alaaaaaaa i miss my boyfriend soo much laa . Why his computer rosaak ?
Sooo bored die tkde . Haaaaissh .
Nak msg sape seyyy ? Hmmm sungguuuuuuuuuh mendaak .
Asl aku rase rimas niyy ? Malas nk buat kerje rumahh , malas nk buat kerje skolahh . mcm nk tidoooo jek .
FML .

Ahh diam ah kau diam ahhh . BISING SIA . MULOT TAKTAWU TUTOP KE SKALI SKALE .
dah tk bagy aku duet untk madrasah . Kebulor aku .
Isssssh , Aku nak MIA lahhh . sudahh lahh kau .
Pusing aku kau dibuatnye . TAK TENTERAM HIDOP AKU MCM NIYY >:(

I wanna love somebody like you

" What am i suppose to do when the best part of me is always you ? " - The Script

just one question ..

What happens when one girl who really loves her boyfriend soo much is in a relationship , suddenly there's this ONE BOY who that girl cant get rid of her life even abit ? Even now she is in a relationship ?
Like her ex is still stuck in her heart when she is still in a relationship ?

Wow this question is soo damn curious ...
i wanna found out lehhh .
Better ask some experienced girls .

Whats YOUR problem ?

Ehk , kau nak ape lagy dari aku ah ? kau nak brainwash aku lagy ? LOL sorry i dont give a damn shit about wat ur going to say . Ape hypnotize aku then aku percaye , blahh lah ! Ape lagy smpai kau nk mintak nombor aku bih nak step " i really need to talk to u " . WTF ? kau nak ckp bkan2 psl shafiq ? Ckp sebnyk2 kaau nak kae , aku cume nak dengar n nak tawu brape besar kau peyy world park kau . Kau maybe tua dari aku , lawa dari aku .. tapy dont take advantage of me . Takde jantan laen pe sial kau nak rampas ? Mataey aku jugak kau nak kebas ? Aku tawu lahh die hot , cute , handsome  . Tapy tak tawu pikir ke die dah ade mataey ? Saje mulot kau berjalan stakat nak buat aku tinggalkan shafiq ? UNTOK KAU ? sorry ah babe sedar sikit ye . Kau dah kwn ngan shafiq buat hal kawan ah sial . Kau siape nak panggil mataey aku SAYANG ? Kau nak jumpe aku , silekan ah . Gua tak heran ah ape lu mau bobal . Jgn smpai tangan aku melayang kat muke kau . Klau kau nak bobal psl shafiq , slow talk ngan gua . klau tangan kau melayang , tngan gua pon melayang ehk . Tengok sape yg bersalah , kau atao Shafiq . Tapy pendapat aku , hati aku lagy percaye shafiq dari kau .

Sayaaaaang , sorry i tk msg atao kol tao . Pp8 maseh low . I tngah btol2 cube untk tepi kan mase i untk u . Tapy this week tak bole . Maybe i tkleh jumpe u for 3 weeks . Sorry kae . Kan i dah ckp , i mmg tknak lepaskan u tapy i terpakse . I taknak u risau pasal i bile i dah lame tak jumpe u . N i taknak pikir bkan2 bile kite tak jumpe . But sbbkan u btol2 taknak , then jgn mrh i klao i tak kol atao msg .

Asl ehk kau peyy bodoh sngat ahh ?? Kesian aku tngok TIMER kau tuu . Psl kau , Riyaaah menanges kerane kau . N psl kau jugak , die snggop slash tngah die dngan name kau . Walaopon die timer kau , Pikir aku suke tngok pompuan innocent mcm riyahh diperbodohkan oleh kau ? Pikir aku suke tngok pompuan kene bodoh oleh jantan sendiri ? Ape jantan keparat sia kau ? CB  die sanggop dtng dari pasir ris ke bukit batok , abih kite tnggu kau dtng mcm orng cb dudok kt rc , cari kau satu bb check2 kau paitao . sialan peyy jantan keparat . Kecot pe sial bobal ngan timer sendiri face 2 face ? Bih kau maseh leyyy tnyer siape suhaida dngan ... CB msg mcm tak puas hati face 2 face ape peyy kecot sia kau ? Mmg suhaida ngan riyahh , aku , ierah , indra ngan dibo . Abih kau nak buat ape ? rembat kite satu2 ? Sundal tngan ngan kaki kau gerak aku make sure kaki aku melayang pat konek kecot kau . Pikir aku tk brani ngan lelaki sundal mcm kau ? silekan kau gerak dulu . Skrng niy aku 100% tak puas hati ngan kau . Riyaahh mintak break kau tknk accept bih apesal gy maen timer kan bodoh . Kau mmg sundal nbcb SWEET TALKER MOTHER FCUKER .  Brambos kau dari hidop suhaida . Aku tknk pandang muke kau lagy . Jgn smpai aku masok campor hal kau ngan suhaida .

Tady Sports day , tak buat ape . Stakat jerit sane jerit sini . Dudok diam2 kat tempat dudok , dngar lagu , minom , jln sane jln sini . Haaaish mcm tkde life gytu . Bih aku dudok diam hawa diri tunggu suhaida , ierah ngan efah dtng . dorng gy support kat dpan2 seyy . BIH PSL AIMAN KIPAS ANGIN AKU HILANG . soyyal tu bdak . DAH BAGOS AKU BAWAK DUE KIPAS UNTOK AKU NGAN KWN SHARE . BKAN PASS2 KAT ORNG BIH HILANG TIBE2 .BIH KIPAS ANGIN YG AKU BAGY IERAH SATU SIDE DAH PECAH . Puki tiang .
Bih gy Vivo lepas tu sbb takde pape nak buat . Gy mcm2 kedai baju tngok harge . Then lepak kat stadium kejap baring2 . Bobal psl mataey . Tngah bobal , tibe2 dpt msg dari Fiq . Awwwww he really brings a wide smile to my face .talking psl Shafiq , Parvhen n Shah . Hmmmmmmm lagy nothing to do then balek . Tido dlm bus . Haha penaaaaaaaaat sheeey :<
Then jln2 pat Lot 1 ngan ierah n hawa . HAWA AKU SERIOUSLY TAK KENAL KAU . KAU MALUKAN AKU DPN PUBLIC SIAL . KAU KENE JUGAK DARI AKU . SATU HARI AKU KENE BULLY DARI KAU . MAKE SURE AKU BUAT YG SAME KAT KAU . KAU JAGE JE HAWA . GILE PEYY ORNG . HAHA

Okae , i miss my boyfriend alot . atlast dpt kol die jugak :) hehe happy !
One thing missing , I NEED A HUG :<
Can i pweeeeeeaaaaaash ?
*sobsob