Since You've Been Gone ,

Whats wrong with my Life ? am i in wrong ? .. people like to get mad for no reason . Yes , there ARE alot of reasons , but you must also understand other peoples situation : especially my mum. Everything i do it affects her madness .im having mestruation , she went mad . im doing homework , she went mad .Pls , no more misery in my life ! You've never given me any support . Whatever i do , YOU ALWAYS GONE MAD ! if you dont want me to be successful in anything i do , then why sent me to school ?! Why ask me to study if you doesnt want me to ? im trying my best to prove to that i can study while working . IM TRYING ! But instead you blame my work all time ! after school , i go home straight . Yes i went to sleep bacause i want my eyes to be freshed after school so that i can do my homework at night without getting sleepy , But when i wake up .. you nag all the way , AND BLAME MY WORK ! What's wrong with you ? Now you dont want to be responsible of me anymore right ? Then , dont try to stop me in everything i do . Yeah im working , because i want to help you all so that we wont be tooo poor . But in the end what , i gave half of my salary to you .. and you went blaming my work ??! Is that what you call APPRECIATE MUM ?! isn't it ? Dont ever tell me that im too young too worry , But sorry mum , YOU ARE MAKING ME WORRY . If dad was still here by my side , he would just support me . He would never stop me ! But you are stopping me . Stopping me from school , Stopping me from work and Stopping me from SUCCESS! If you dont love me anymore , i can just leave the house and stay where ever i want . Whatever it is , i have to be responsible of myself . Money , Food and school items , i have to search with my own eyes .  I have to study more harder .Oh and mum , I skip my work just to study hard . Dont think im getting more slacking cause im also trying to prove to my subject teachers too . Not only you , mum . Pls try to understand my situation . You look at me as if im still ok and fine , But try to look the opposite side . I have to wake up early like 4.30 am just to cook for myself to bring to school and eat ; only if i had no money . And i had no money all the time . I had to wait until school was dismissed , go home all the way and eat at home .AND SOMETIMES MUM , YOU NEVER COOK ?! SEE DONT TRY TO BLAME ME ... IM VERY POOR FROM YOU ALL . POORER THEN YOU AND MY SIBLINGS . Dad , i want you back . I want your live to be filled with happiness again . If only you were here , we could already have a complete family and thats a happy one . But since you've been gone , Family has broken to pieces . IM SCARED DADDY . IM TOO SCARED TO LIVE A BROKEN FAMILY.
If only you were still alive , we could already plan to go on a family outing together . Happily ever after .