Teardrops

I never wanted this . I never want this in my life before .
Why is everyone treating me wrong ?
U guys wanna see my sad everyday is it ?
Haissssh , I just dont noe what to do . Im full of hurt and pain

Luckily , i have my buddy beside me :) Afiz . He gave me support in what ever i did , and he's the only one who can tell that my eyes is full of problems and questionsmarks . Thankyou soo much Buddy :)

♥

Weeeee ~
Happy :D today go out with my Boifyeeen to Queensway . Alaaaaaa atlast kluar same2 jugak . I had fun :)
Soo today he bought his favourite blue colour Zippo Lighter , Blue laces n Mp4 Cable .
Ohhh ohhh , n he tell me that he wanna buy me a neclace n wants me too wear it . Awwwwww , soo sweet ♥ . That necklace he showed me , was actually the necklace i wanna buy for him for our 3 monthsary gift .. But if i give step he pkai jek .. Tak pernah nmpak die necklace pon . Hmm Tkpe lahh . Atleast there's something for me that will last forever :) Hehe.
We were walking fer like 4-5 rounds around Queenstown just to see " That thing " . Okae i was SOOO DAMN PAISEY when he was telling me about his father and the thing he holds . He doesnt know he wants to buy ar not . HAHA soo kekek of him .. But still cute :)
Up to u lahh Hunney Bunny wanna buy or not .. I anything hehe .
Next time go out again ehk Hunney , I love spending my time with u ♥Love ya soo much lahhh :D

Love ,
Huda♥
Ur Shorty Bastard .

Something about ♥

OMG , i cant believe i just cried hard just because i miss my damn beloved cat , Kiko . I miss him soo much ;( Where could he be now ? Why did you run away kiko ?
I miss those times with you kiko . You hug me when im sleeping in my room alone , You meowed hard at me just because you want me to feed you , you manje2 at me when im bored , you revenge me when i disturb you nonstop , even if you come back home with bruises and scars ; you never failed to come to me and make me heal you even if the scars hurt you alot . Damn kiko , i miss those times .. I MISS YOU . You never failed to make me smile again when i had a hard time . Even if i shouted hard at you , you still look at me , give me that step cute face and meowed . I miss your soul when you were sleeping on my bed . You were once patience cat . Even if i cant understand your language , But you are telling me you wanted something from me . I miss you coming running to me when i come back home from school . You're one such ordinary cat :) AWWWW , soo swite of you kiko . You were my bestest pet cat kiko . Your my one fan bestfriend ;) where ever you might be now , i'd pray that you will be okay . Mostly , come back if you still remember your true home and your beloved owner . I miss you bestfriend . Come back to my arms ..pls ?

Hunney Bunney ; Go rest kay . Takecares bby ! Love ya ♥


Kay , Exams are just around the corner . And im attending the night study from nxt week onwards . Have to study more harder now . hehehe :)

♥

Im getting worried each day past by . Soo worried .
My chest is getting more hurtful than last week . Even more painful ;(
I dont know why . I did nothing to it .
Well i cried thinking that i need a operation . OMG i cried soo tak terhenti-henti .. It feels like as if i sitting down , laying or just standing , i can feel the hurt inside . Describe the pain ? Like , someone stab u with a knife through your heart . Thats the pain .
I just dont know how am i going to endure the pain everyday i go to school .
I feel soo abnormal . The pain makes me sooo weak . Haiisssh . I dont know what to say . Oh no .. im crying bcoz of the pain ! Sial lah what  telah happen to me ? Im soo scared . I feel like dying soon ;(


Ohh and anywaes ,
Happy 6 monthsary to my Dearest Prince Charming . I love him soooo much . Hehehe .

He's mine pls

Aku tawu lah mataey aku Handsome , Hot , Cute , Sapao , ... U noe lyke "WTF HES GORGEOUS!" kankankan?
Hehehe i think tat way too :D
Tapy asl ehk bnyk2 jantan pt dunia niy , korng pilih mataey aku ? Tak nampak ke kat Facebook " In a Relationship with NurulHuda Abdullah " ?
Potek ehk korng ? Lagy2 tu pompuan yg selalu kol die . Mintak kene sound ehk . Jgn sampai darah gua up ayee . Step takde lagy jantan kat luar lebih baik dari die jek ..  Eeeeeeee sedar sikit ye .
OKay Can . kekek sia . HAHAHAHAHA !
Fiq : U noe i noe what happen today ayee . Hahahaha perot sampai nk meletop !
Hahahaha . Kite nk balek then fiq hantar me at bus stop . Yelah cuace tngah hujan lebat tady . Soo we jln i saw 2 bangladesh tngah lari nk masok blok . Tibe2 one of the bangla jatoh keblakang . Kiwaaaak soo kekek . Conferm jatoh bergegar sia block . Hahaha ! dah tu kite ketawe ade satu budak naek skooter bih terslide kat luar lift . Then barang bdak kecik niy melayang kat hujan . Hahahaha !
One more , after i take bus fiq msg me say that die nmpak satu makcik niy slip tapy tak jatoh . Hahahaha i laugh sendiri kat dlm bus . Kay perot nk meletop soo saket ketawe from just now .
Haiish ape dah jady dah nyari . Sway nk mamps !
okay can ! haha

Kay i lOVE MY BOYFRIEND VBERY MUCH . I DONT WANNA REPLACE HIM PLS .
HE'S MINEY MINE ! :D

To a certain extent ..

Whats wrong wit u ?
So ur telling me that "that" rumour u heard is true ah ? WTF , have u EVER seen me going out with other guys ? What makes u think that I HAVE THE HEART TO PLAY UR FEELINGS BEHIND UR BACK ? This is what u say u trust me ? Sorry baby , for me i still think that u dont trust me 100% .
We have done this before . Dilah . She brainswash me just because of u . She want us to go our own separate ways right ? But atleast , I still have half of my heart to trust u that u didnt go with her . I STILL TRUST U . And now whereby another rumour is approacing , did u did the same as me ? Oups soo u called me last night , and ask whether its true i didnt go out with other guys . I can only say this SUMPAH DEMI ALLAH , DEPAN QURAN , SAKSI SELURUH DUNIA , DEPAN U , I BERSUMPAH I TAK KELUAR NGAN JANTAN LAEN . fair now ? puas hati ?
Seriously u get me to say that , it totally hurts me alot . DEEPLY . Totally im pushing u aside man ..
Im soo damn hurt just because of u . Do u noe what its like to be hurt and cry because u've been strong for too long ? Did u ?
Straight forward , did u realize ur the only one who made me cry ? yeah its true . dear , i've been patience for soo long . Dont make me lost hope of trusting anymore . Even now , u made my happiness fade away slowly ;((
Sorry to say this , even if i didnt see u like for 3 weeks or more , I dont have the heart to play such things behind ur back . but even if u said that " that " rumour is true , i cant do anything . Its ur choice u wanna believe or not . I'll just sit back and relax and study hard for my exams are coming . U've let me down .
U LET ME DOWN COMPLETELY . ;((

Ouhhya , sedihsedih gyny pon ... Well i love my bestfriend alot . POTASSIUM ! haha . Love ya as my bestfriend lahh . Thanks fer cheering me up . U nvr failed to make me smile again ;)
Thanku potassium , thanku for your concern towards me . Appreciate it alotz !
You were there when i needed u most and you made my day . Even if you hurt my feelings last time ,
i've forgiven you every bit . I shared my problems to you , so do you .. Well , ur one of my greatest bestfriend in the whole wide world . My feelings are true . Thankyou very much , Hope to see you happy again .. Stay strong always !
Love ,
Huda

Im away , but my heart is close to u

Currently doing malay composition .

Atlast i meet my Hunney Bunney ! hehehe . Misss him soo damn much lehhh .
Okae , txting with Eera . Alaaaa so sad for her .

Eera <3

Hey dear , cheer up kaes . Dont worry just maybe your true love isnt the time now to be found . Wait fer love kae ? Just stay positive . I wanna see u smile , enjoying life , make new memories , forget the past and laughing with your close friends . Next time , i ajak u keluar kae ??  We have fun together . Just keep txting me whenever u are down , am always there for u . See ya nxt time ,, cheer up .. ITS NOT THE END OF LIFE BABE , EVEN ITS NOT THE END OF YOUR LOVE LIFE :)

To : Ierah Tinee , Shariffah n Eiida <3

Im soo sorry to my Girlfriends . I cant be with you girls for this time . Im rushing my studies . Hope u understand kae .. Alot of work to be done . After school straight i cant meet ya .. Im staying back alittle while . Being with u girls is the best ! Just maybe its not the right time now for me to have fun .. Dont worry i wont leave from u girls . Im just catching up with my studies even more harder this time . After exams we have fun okae ?? I LOVE BEING WITH U GIRLS .. IM GONNA MISS THE FUN . Starting from now , im going school early like i used to , and sit alone at the canteen waiting for u girls . I wont fade away .. Im just having a time out . See ya in school .. ouh n i wont be onlining until exams finish . See ya around in school !

HudaAbdullah .Love ,