Dodol did it again !

HeyyyyyyyHoooo ! i am miserable . Totally miserable . Kalau kau nk step manenye BIG FUCK , JGN PANDANG PAT AKU LAH SIAL . Hey , kalau kau tk puas hati ngan aku , teros terang aje lah asl ? tk nk kecewe kan hati aku ? takot aku NANGIS pe ?! muke kau aku nk takot ?! sorry lah eh , aku tk kn bagy chance dengan muke kau yg kotor tu ! Aku tk perlu dikasihan oleh kau . Fikir kau manenye EXPERT nak STEP BAIK depan aku . check-check belakang aku kau mengumpat . ISH ISH ISH ... cermin diri kau sendiri dulu lah . PERGI KOREK AIR MANI KAU PT BAWAH LETAK PAT MUKE KAU SEBELOM KAU BERBUAL DENGAN AKU . Kalau nk lepas geram tu , jgn lepas pt " kawan " orng laen ah .  Ape ? kau fikir kau akan buat aku jealous stakat panggil "Baby" pt crush aku . Sudah lah , cukop lah nonsense kau . Tak perlu nk step baik step cool DEPAN SMUE LAKI LAH . Kau bad mood stakat nak attention dorang kan ?! BETOL KAN ! ape ? Perfect sangat ke hidop kau smpai kau deserve dpat attension dorang ?! STOP IT EHK ! Kalau kau tak happy , kluar dari hidop aku BUANG KERJE KAU AH ! tk menyusahkan hidop aku lagy dodol ! ehk , kwn kau lebih baik daripade kau ahk . Badan dh FISHBALL n step manenye sexy body pulak . Kau mmg dasar case SHIOKSENDIRI . Laki yg kerje same kite tk kn selut atau beg kaki kau ehk . APE ? FIKIR BOSS KITE PERH?! . aku cume bole bilang kau , ular kepale due tidak diterime oleh orng ye , dan cuci muke kau pakai chlorox sbelom cari pcl ngan aku .

Love is in the world for us to search ..

Yo!
Im happy for yer efah! you got him back .. except fer me :( Well i don noe how i feel now , hate? love? scared ? unlucky ? .. hmm , it all depends on my heart . Sometimes , he makes me melt like Heaven sometimes he irritates me like Hell . So i don noe what to say . Efah got his Prince back n i ? i felt like im the Pauper . you noe "The Princess and the Pauper" .Efah's the princess and im like the pauper . Efah alwaes achieve what she gets . If she want her Prince back , someday it will come and get together . But me ............... what i've alwaes wanted is Love . Although nobody's perfect in this world . But i can only say "he can only make my world perfect , the way i alwaes wanted it to be" . it alwaes happens . When i turn around at my friends direction , i alwaes notice him starring at me . When im doing something , he notice me n joins .When im talking with someone , he interupts me , make my sentence fade and make me wanna scold him . Everytime , it happens . Still , my bestfriend told me . He is still ATTATCH , but he's trying to say something to me . its like he wanna say something behind me , but when i turn around .. he change his mind and change his sentence . Efah got what she wanted already . She already got everything . But remember Efah , once you got Him , dont ever forget about us . I don wanna see ur relationship affects our friendship .Efah , Lastlong wit him . If you're happy with him , i should also happy . But im happy the way i am . See , you got ur happiness back . Left me n Ierah . Its up to us , whether Love is this there in the world for us to search .

Im love him deeply but he's just a friend of mine :D

Hey peeps !

This is where i wanna express my whole feelings to .Cause this situation is all abt my EX .

3 days Spec course ,
First Day .
I'm in the same group as him . " WTH ? SAME GROUP ? HAIISS ."
First day , we talk .. but not much .
he says to me "Aku tak tawu kenape tapy aku suke kacau si huda "
So he bully me .. called me "Minah Container" .I know why he calls me that ..
its just that its too embarassing to share *paisey ..
Then i got irritated by him . All the way he irritates me nonstop ..well ,  IGNORANCE is the best way ^^
until he tell Nicholas my ATOK EVERYTHING ! yalorh .. paisey all the way .
Then one time , Nic falls in beside me .. and ask "if he ask you for patch , would you accept ?"
"I donnoe" ..
The next test taking TRAINFIRE.. still have time to cool down .
Suhaida seats beside me and ask " kaw maseh sayang khair ? "
"Tak tahu"
Then still got irritated by him AGAIN !



Second day.
Went to the Singapore Discovery Centre with the whole ncc company .
first , we didnt talk but we're like communicate with our own EYES .
Then i forget already , he starts to irritates me again and again .
i was like the whole day i was beside him ..*melts
Then , when it comes to playing a game , ME .. SUHAIDA..AISYEEK ..KHAIR N SYARIFF were in a team.
the Suhaida n Aisyeek went to the toilet .. left me , khair n syariff. Syariff was with his friends left we both.
I took out all the accesories for the games.. then khair was a busybody .
i wanna take the money then he stole from me."KHAIR BAGY BALEK LAHH ! AKU PUNYE DUET!"
"KAW FIKIR DUET NI KAW SORANG PERH"
"A'Ah LAHH ASL? JEALOUS AKU ADE DEUT BANYAK DARI KAW?"
then he stole all my money.
then me n khair fight the whole afternoon just abt that stupid GAME !
Suhaida and Aisyeek played first then i start to join them except khair.
looking at me n them played after a while he joins me .
WE WAS WITH ME !
When the games starts to have suspension , me  khair can work together ..
that was when i didnt realise ..every moment , he gets closer to me.
closer , closer and even more closer ..
sooo when the time is out , me and khair wins and both aida n aisyeek surrender the game.
"Kite bole buat team ahk huda !"
Before we are released , we were in a fall in position .
khair was beside me again .
the i tear a paper and my a heart shaped paper.
He saw me doing it n say "Ehk huda , macam ane kaw buat ahk ? ajar aku .."
then i teach him .so when he gets that shape , he gives me and say " nah ! kaw bagy Mat Container kaw"
*paisey

haha , but still he even gives me the stuff he achieve by me ^^

Last day .

"LAST DAY?!! AWW MAN !:("

hmmm, i bully him when we're doing the GSK test . Writing "MYRA" behind his body .

The , we're suppose to go to the auditorium . "AIR CONDITION?! JYEAH COOL!"

But when the instructor says we're doing the practice outside , its raining .And we're DAMN COLD!

so , khair seats behind me . and start to play . He use his hands and touch my cheeks "SEJOK?"

"a'ah lahh"...........................................................................*melts

when the presentation finished , he slap me .. nt hard . 

But i slap him WAY HARD ^^

then when assembling in the hall , he slap me with his two hands at my two cheeks ..

"SAKET LAHH!"

"haha! tu lahh balasan kaw . ..minah container !"

*melts*melts*melts*melts*melts*melts*melts*melts*melts*melts

hehehe , from that onwards , we never talk .

But he still stare at me .^^

hmm , thats what i experience . But im still asking myself .. , 

" should i accept him back ? "

if YES , im glad we're happy again but im scared of losing you again

if NO , its awaste of time waiting for you ..

Jyeah , i know you're trying to say something .

Coz my hearts says .... I WILL BE WAITING FOR YOU

but that doesnt mean i'm truly .. im still havent decide to make my choice yet 

whether to love you back or nt :(

Syahierah Ahmad Samsudin :D

IerahTinee Dear ,
         Im sorry i didn't make through your anger . I failed to make you smile again . Im very sorry !!
Your anger was still boiling at 100 degrees and i failed to cooled it down . I failed to finish your sewing . Sorry i didnt make it for you . Sorry i didnt be there for you ... you waste your energy just to come to my house and get things done . But ... one more problem , its really not done at all .You lose Hope because of her , you lose strength because of her . Even , you lose Confidence in you . Im so sorry for what i hoped for coz what i want , i will never achieve it . You lose your dreams ahead ..that's what i dont wanna hear form you . All i've known Syahierah bte Ahmad Samsudin ,she's unbeatable . No one ever beat you .You never lose hope when ppl cause problems . You revenge them . Ierah , get this in mind , "Dont lose hope cause once you lose it  , you never get what you want and that is the biggest mistake in your life . You have friends to turn to when you need help .. Dont say " support from friends isnt enough " .. what is isnt enough ? ..
You have alot of friends who loved you sooo much , but why take it for granted ? ... LOVE , CARE , SUPPORT , UNDERSTANDING ..isnt enough ? Ierah ... Think again before decide . You made decide any harmful things just because of revenge .. But never decide to left all your hopes and dreams . :(

Im too young to worry

STRESS ! stress all the way..

(quite sleepy actually , bt i wanna post so that i feel much better)

Jyeah ..im stress about holidaes ..

"ASAL NCC KEBAS JUNE HOLIDAYS KITE?!"

Im tired of NCC ya know :(

BUUUTTT , i cant wait for Lombok !!!

hehehe^^ first time taking aeroplane .

well , soo much to buy before Lombok trip ..

I miss im gonna miss all my beloved friends..

IM GONNA MISS YOU ALL (;

Too Pain for me to handle

Life is pain . Totally pain . im stressed all about life .

Boys , family , money , work n studies.

Too pain for me to handle .

I cry all night just to think and ask myself

"Can i handle Life ?"

My brain is full of Regrets and Mistakes

"What have i done to my world??!"

I cry every seconds ,

every minutes ,

every hours ..

EVERYDAY .

Now , ppl dont understand how i feel . Everytime i try to explain , they went to different story . I wish i had a friend who can understand me well enough .. I just wanna take a long knife and strike through my heart ..);

Butterflies

                                            
                                                 Efah Eiida Ierah ... i loved them ALOTZ :D

                                                            
                                                                 Huda ft . IerahTinee

                                            
                                               Efah n IerahTinee .. They ROCK my world :D

                                              
                                                Hanis Syaziani Yuri Mahirah n Li Ping ;
                                                     My 3N1 Laughing Pills

                                                           Cteaa ... I Miss You ..

See those a girls above ..They rock !
I wont forget them all my life .. when im sad ,
 they were there to make me smile again .
When i need help , they were there to help me .
When i went through tough challenges , they were there to guide me n support .
Im lucky to have a special friend like them .
They maybe Irritating , noisy and more , but when you look through all the memories you had with them , 
They are IRRESISTABLE .
They are my whole Heart , Soul n Life .

                                                 Not forgetting you Feezana , 4years of Friendship , 
                                           LETS NT FORGET EACH OTHER :DD

My world is all about YOU .

U see those shoes ?
Jyeah .. what i wanna do in my whole life is skate .. skate on thin ice .
hmm , ppl keep telling me " that sport is dangerous " .. i've know a very long time
I went home early just to watch all the stunts and moves that the ice skaters made .. gorgeous
i played rollerblades just to pretend that im wearing those shoes .
i recommend my friends to go ice skating .. but its too expensive to pay
soo , too bad . But some day i will try to get those shoes and skate ..
Whatever it is , no one can stop me from skating .. well what ppl say most 
" what we wanna do , is what we gotta do " 
Haha ! nxt time , if im loaded .. i can go skating with my friends 
I wanna try all the activites if i could .. 
So Huda , what are you waiting for?! ...Save money and skate !
Yippie ! :DDD


Dont Worry .. i'll post later on :D

Syahied gives me the struggling !

YO !

Haha , such an average day 2dae .

I have a NCC thingy for SPEC COURSE nxt tuesday .

WOAH ! scary lehh . i seriously dont know what to say ..... speechless ......

Btw , nxt Friday still have NCC training for Exphedition Trip to LOMBOK !!

hehehe , cant wait ! but seriously .. my legs are gonna break apart leh ..

Haisshh , what to do ..

2day , i dont know why .. im in the 985 bus , suddenly my legs are damn loose .

CANT CONTROL :(

well , Ierah Tinee ask me to walk home ..

"KAW TNGAH LAWAH :)"

i went "maksod kaw?"

SYAHIED N ----- WANNA MEET US ..

....speechless........

" kaw serious ? aku tkde semangat nk jmpe die oi ! "

"aku tngah nervous huda ! "

okae , while walking , step kluarkan hp n randomly text ..

I DON KNOW WHAT TO DO

I saw HYM .. he SMILE N WAVE at me , n i only went hi n wave

then i was lyke , no way "AKU TK SALAM DIE !! "

PAISEY LEHH nk salam die ..

well dont know what to do , we already met ^^

hehehehehehehe :D

Thats all fer 2dae .. Nothing much . BYEBYE ! Takecares ..

N fer Hym : sorry tk salam ... paisey ahk :P Laen kali jmpe lagy yerh ^^

BYEBYE . TAKECARES :DD

My First post of all times :D

Hey hey hey ^^

Assalammua'laikum .. (step alim jek) , hehe . Hi lahh , this is my First Post ! n my first blog of all times .. Credits to EFAH♥ . She help me edit ^^ . i have to get used of using blog again , EFAH♥ ! TOLONG AKU LEH :( haha ! gune nie blog banyak susah lorhh .

Credits : Efah SA

Haiisshh , hidop maken COMPLICATED . i don understand my mum , boys and I CANT EVEN UNDERSTAND MY LIFE . My mum's case ; dia tudoh aku 8 kali sebab i go out not reminding her n she say '' kaw pandai2 ehk kluar tk bilang mama , siape kaw kluar JANTAN ? '' ape nk buat .. nk lawan balek ; i don wan to be Anak Derhake , kalao tk ckp , nanti dia ingat i have a boyfriend . HAAIIISSS ! Thanks to Efah's mum , sejak mak kaw tawu kaw ade mataer , habes hidop aku ditudoh jantan oleh mak aku . Thanks for getting me into trouble :(

N for the Boy's case , we contact for weeks and tibe2 tak msg . lyke this is nt hym at all ? you already proven me that you seriously like me , then why a sudden change ? Thanks you almost break my heart into half again ! soo , i have to wait for your msg until you still miss me . Miss me ? Txt ah ! what are you wanting for ?!

jyeah , i'll also wait for you ♥.