Aku Tak Mampu Menyakiti Mu

Im Sorry , I Love You );

My heart hurts alot when i gave excuses to hym . 
Was eating while surfing internet . Suddenly Dear wants to on the phone .
If only u knew how hard im trying to have a free time to on the phone with you when my family is around .. then while eating i stop and the feeling of no appetite came across me . Now , still i never touch my food and it is still full . Haaaaish . Felt guilty muchhh .. After a few minutes , got cool down . Hmmmmm , if u knew how painfully i had scoldings from my family just bcoz i on the phone with u . I have a family who over concerns me too much .. Im going through these tough challenges just for u . Everyday , got scolded from morning to night . If only u knew how i felt everyday. Stress up ! Erghhhhhh ! Even after i got home after meeting u , all my siblings gave me a strange look . Yeaaah , they knew im in a relationship  .. but they never knew who u really are deep down . Its tough having parents who disagrees their child having relationships at this age . But yknow what , im going through these cause im preventing my parents to force me breakup with u . I dont wanna that to happen to me and i'll regret my whole life . Im not letting it happen . I felt guilty cause i know you wanna spent time with me . And all i ever do , is give u excuses . Im sorry , i spent time shedding my tears . Whatever i do , i never lied . It all happens to me , n im facing reality really hard . If only the end of December came , pls ? After N level , dont worry .. i can spend time with u everyday if u want to . Nobody can stop me . Just wait , im proving my family i can do better in the future . Once i pass , sure they have to give me what i want . And that is by asking 100% freedom just for me .... im sorry dear , im facing this alone . If only u understand me 100% , then u'll noe hw i felt suffering in pain . Once again im sorry  , cause i love you . Byebye . Takecares . Love you sooo much :((