If only you're here ;

Another week without him again .. Hmmm

If only he's here ;
~ he would online now
~ text me now starts with IMUSM !
~ disturb me now
~ meet me somewhere now
~ hug me tight 'til he wont let me go
~ give me kisses
~ on the phone with me
~ sing songs with me
~ says IMUSM everyday
~ ask if i've eaten already
~ give morning & nights messages
~ ask him random questions
~ sing Fifteen on the phone and keep repeating
~ massage my bruises
~ dare each other
~ holds my hand not letting go
~ rubs my cheek everytime i lean on him
~ tickles me 'til i gone mad

ERRGGGHHH how long already ? Pls be over ... PFFFT such a bored life without him around .
Well , while he's gone , did a little upgrading ^^ . Haha he will see my difference . See ya soon Dear ..

when you're gone

Another week without him by my side :(

Hmmm , such a bored day . Not even one message , one call . Nothing . Errrhhh , How long is this going to continue ? Just how many days to go Huda .. Just wait .. One day he will get that hell out of there .. PFFFT

If only you werent in ~

Dear ,

 I miss you sooo much ); why must you go ? why ? ..........
Today i went home early at 9+ .
~If only you werent in , you would alwaes please me to meet you somewhere with your friends today
~If only you werent in , you would have looked at my report book and comment today .
~If only you werent in , i would have been a happy girl everyday .
~If only you werent in , i dont have to go guilin and cry and remember those days .
~If only you werent in , i dont need to feel that feeling of being left by you .
~If only you werent in , i dont have to cry and knock out before bed .
~If only you werent in , i dont have to give fake smiles to my friends everyday .
~If only you werent in , we would already on the phone now and talk random stuff .
~If only you werent in , we would already meet somewhere now.
~If only you werent in , you would have msg me and tell me ILUSM !
~If only you werent in , you would already sing songs on the phone with me .
~If only you werent in , you would already post romantic things about me at Facebook .
~If only you werent in , i would already ask to take pictures together of one of these days .
~If only you werent in , i dont have to miss all those huggings and ticklings .
~If only you werent in , you would already by my side now .
~If only you werent in , you would already reading all my post in Blog .
~If only you werent in , you would already disturbed me until im mad .
~If only you werent in , i wouldnt worry about our 1st anniversary .
~If only you werent in , i would not have slept today cause we on the phone for hours .

If only you werent in , I wouldnt have been alone for a long time to wait for you to get out of that hell shit place .

Pls get the hell shit out of there quick ~
ImMissingYouSooDamnMuchToTheMax :(

Im not waiting , im racing .

Such an interesting event today , but inside im dying ... real bad :(

Wake up from bed , my eyes are damn swollen cause everytime i wanna go to sleep .. keep having that missing feeling from someone i love . Its sooo strong i can feel its really rite . I wanna go to bed but my heart is sooo sad crying nonstop . ohhh my , i does know who's missing me badly . i really do :( .Go to school , Diana is in the scool toilet 2nd floor .. salam her . She says that my face is really sad feeling like wants to cry . OMG . yeah , im almost crying but im not . Cause making myself strong is enough for me to fight for this tears inside . Does the school' activities , still sad . After school , me n ierah dont know where to go . But i know we are going somewhere peace n quiet to let out feelings out in the air . So Guilin is the rite place . We did our own things , as usual hear songs . I heard this song Perfect by Hedley . I cried nonstop . Staring in the water reminds me of the times we spent time together .

Dear , im really missing you soo badly . I cant help crying coz is tooo sad for me . reminds me of the days we spends time . Huggings , ticklings , laughings .. i cant forget . What my bestfriend told me , " this is a test from God to test you if you're capable of waiting for him even if it takes a long time " . Yeah , im willing to wait . I can wait forever . No one can ever replace you . If this is a test , i shall do it . This is to prove even if my love is far further , loyal  to one love is more important . All i can say , im ready to face any test just to prove my love to him . Im ready . Through thick&thins , ups&downs , easy&tough , smooth&roughs .. im prepared with all my heart . Im facing this alone just for you . Even if it takes a long time , but time is traveling fast now .Dear , im not waiting ,  Im racing to the fullest for you . Racing to you is the best i can do . If only i can get you free ; i wont cry those tears for you , i wont have the feeling of loneliness .. Please let it a fast game , a fast test .. please end quick .. you're the only guy inside my heart .. and i can do anything just to reach to you as long as you're free . Im fighting my best . Pls let it be quick . Love you soooooo damn much my dear . Takecares :)

Hold on tight

I cant stop crying since yesterday );

Oh God , today's the day . Please let it be true . Let it be real . Please dont let him go away . Pleeeeeeeeeaaaaasssssssssseeee ?!! ); 

If he's going , cant imagine what my life would be . Im nt even giving a smile to anybody . Waiting for you is like waiting for years .

" When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you "As if a blade cuts rite through me .. I cant hold on alone . Everything that i do reminds me of you .
     Pls Dont Let Him GO !

what i said , i would do from the start .

Yo yo Check it out Yaw ! ~ haha :D

Today's school soo DAMN bored .Come to school watch movie n go to sleep 2 times . Menyesal aku dtng -.- But kinda fun jugak lahh .. Take Pictures with Hanis , Ierah & Feezana . Haha during ECP survey thingy . Tkde kerje ape lagy Facebook ! Tapy pukimak ah perangai classmate aku . So what aku masok Facebook , tk menyusahkan kau pe . Slame ni aku pernah tk paitou kau ? Tkde kan ?! Beh asl tibe2 kau mcm gyny ? Sial punye perangai . Mulot tktawu tutop pe . NBCB. Ni lahh orang tkde life langsong . Soo many pictures we take together . Yelah tkde kerje konon ^^

After school , Call him . Talk to him like wth -.- . I was in the canteen . mcm aku nk dngar die btol2 . Haiisshh , Ierah have detention with her bf's n friends . Punishment dorang kene jump the whole parade square . Alaaaaaah , kecian Ierah :( Wish i can save her life from her miseries . Hmmm , NI SMUE KAU PUNYE PSL NO LIFE ! ERHH , sebab kau bestfriend aku kene tau . Ishhhhh ! >.<

Haha ! im happy for Suhaida :) now she very happy already . Yeepeee ! Im happy for yer girl :D

After school , meet him at Shop&Save Keming . Then meet his friends n go to Condominium . Wahhh , perspiring like hell . Go inside the condo , Air condition here i come ! haha . Relax at the condo for hours . The 3 boys gy tido mcm gy rollin' pulak . Eeeeew . haha ape lagy ^^ . 

Damn i really love you soo much . Hope you dont get inside dear :( Just hoping really hard . Pleeassse , dont go . Hmmm , i just cant forget the times we spent time together even if we just going through 2 weeks n  more . If you're in , i cant imagine what my life would be n how i would feel without you . Oh God , pleasseee dont separate us . please , dont ever tear us apart :( I may not be perfect for anyone , but im trying my best to be one for him . What if he's the one for me ? hmmm , life only has one chance to cherish it . And this time , i will cherish n treasure what's happening now . What the future holds , i cant guranteed . I wont let time travel soo fast and slows down our love . No i wont let it happen again . I dont wanna run away . I dont wanna hide . I dont wanna have our love fade away . I dont wanna go through life full of loneliness anymore . What happens now , i'll not letting it rot easily . and i dont wanna ever say goodbye . what ever i can , i'll do my very best to make true . Just for my love ones , Efah , Eiida , Ierah . Especially my one & only guy i love the most ; Shafiq :)

Tomorrow , not going to school . Too lazy to hear Mr Adams speeches . Bluueeek :P . Haha  but its my bestfriends birthday :( aww , Efah , Happy Advance Birthday ! may your wishes come true . Smile always kae ? But i'll promise you , when one day i get to see you , i'll prepare a special birthday present kaes . Even if im only the one making it , but its full of memories my dear . Im sorry for your birthday , but your present  will cherish everything we did all this while :) Im sooo sorry dear , Happy Birthday ! Stay pweety alwaes :)

Stays with my heart now

Yay ! Happy all the way ... Weeeeee ~ haha

Bad news :
~ Suhaida sooo sad when everybody have to go . I have to go out straight after school coz im meeting him . Efah , nvr come to schoool . Ierah , go out with Efah . Afyqah , go home take taxi bcoz she very sleepy -.-
Ya know suhaida , not only you who is going through all tis , slame niy .. ni lahh ape aku rase bile semue ade mataey accept aku . Aku pergy skolah sorng , balek sorng .. Bkan kao je . Skrng baru kao nk rase ape aku rase slame half of tis year ? Bkan aku sengaje tknk teman kao , semue orng ade orng die cinte dlm hidop pe . You have yours , i have mine . Tapy do you realise you're not taking care of them well ? everyday i heard the word "fight" . Aku tk suke tao . kao asyik fight fight fight bile nk kekal .
~ Efah got problems with her mataey . Pls lahh , asl lelaki mcm nie ah ? Nk pompuan , dpt jugak . Tknk pompuan , carik yg laen . Ishhhh ! Bole tk just stick to one couple ?! pegy mati ah sial !


Good news :
~ Yay ! he fetch me at school ! haha , i was hoping he would really wake up n fetch me . Coz he promise he wont do it again :)
~ Yay ! cancel Paranormal Activity movie today . Watch Takers with him . The story very like some parts really make senses and some donts . Haha but i like . ( i can still sleep in the cinema )
~ The whole spent time with him <3
~ Tomorrow meet again . But this time we watch Mantra at myra's condo . Scared .


22 october 2010 ; morning.
~ M e & him On the Phone like hours . We talks randomly like talking about my cats , my family , problems and such more . But morally , i have fun :D From 7+ pm to 2.25 am , we talked all the way . hehe long huh ^^

Dear , where ever you go , weeks , months .. dont worry i wont break your heart . I wont leave you . I wont have the heart to go and flirt with other guys okaes . You're my one and only . And no one could ever replace you . Pls , dont make any more troubles . I love you damn much . hehe . Love ya .

A heart shape of You

Yo yo yo ! Morning got bored already . Yay ! no school :) can do anything i want . Well , to get rid of my boredom this morning  n start to cheer myself up , i did a little ... quite ... errrhhh not exactly a big surprise for him . Just a random surprise to cheer me up :D

20.10.10

~ Yesterday slept at 4 am . walao ! i bet him i sleep at 2 but in the end  at 4 -.- . Wake up at 10+ . haha .

~ Yesterday , FUN ! never go out or msg anyone . The whole day sitting in front of the comp chatting with him :) haha , ask him random questions ! very fun .. we chat until my sick go away . Yay ! laughing all day . hehe i like :) Thanks to him :D My sick go away . haha seriously i love him :D . Nxt time if im sick again , ask him even more randomly questions .  haha :P

                                

I did this . A heart shape of his favourite colour , blue n his name on it . Hehe i like making heart shapes . 

See , i told ya its nothing big . Just a random stuff done by me just to cheer me up :) I cant always n everyday count on you to make my boredom go away . sometimes its myself that has to end my boredom here n go on . Hehe . sorry kinda bored stuff . Nothing big just for you :)

My Days

Today is a Happy Day for me  !!! weeeeee ~

Bad news :

~ kena marah by my mum . Seriuosly my stomach feels very complicated . This happens since Friday . OhMyGosh , i feel like i wanna eat , sometimes dont want . Haaisshhh , Pls get well my stomach . Actually i eat Spirulina/Saplement tooooo much . I ate 15 tablets -.-" Walaowei ! now n today fireworks in the toilet . BLUEEEKKK :P

~ I wait for his msg like waiting for rain to come . Soo many days never get to see him , like a year without rain .  Ishhh , agaknye bile masenye :( 

~ I failed many subjects . Harap dapat naek sec4 

~ Bile nk kerje ?! blom resign dh mcm2 .. sial lah ! aku benci tu manager tao .Bebual WORLD . 

Good news :

~ Yay ! he msg me .. i like ! i miss him damn much tao :( Wish only i can wake up nxt to him so that i no need to miss him everytime i wake up -.- 

~ Yay ! tk dtng skolah ! but i miss my classmates .. for wht come school , dh amek results buat hal amek je lahh . Tkpayah go through . Lagypon gy skolah , tido ! haha tapy tknk nnti balek rumah steam aku -.- 

~ haha ! i ask him random questions RANDOMLY . Very fun !  tbole angkat lahhh . nxt time do it again ^^

Me want Kitkat :( very hungry . andand also i perm my hair all by myself . Very nice :) wish i can perm my hair permanently . Aku happy . Like what my ex say ;

 Im ma Happy Go Lucky Girl :)

But now , i even more love my boyfriend now .  

What ever it is , handsome or not .. Its okae with me . As long you're rite beside me :) And i will never ever let you go no matter what .TODAY YOU MAKE ME REALLY SHINE .and if i ever miss you , i can only look at the sky during the nites wondering if the moon holds you back soo i can see you . Just 1 thing i want 2 say that is 3 words just 4 you .

" I Love You " . hehe :D Cause you're the best thing thats ever been mine . And im sorry , i cant be perfect for you .

The first thing that you read is , IlOVEyOU

Iloveyou . hehe

Sedapnye lepas mandi ! WOOHOO :) haha . Just come back home from lepak . Yay! eat pizza with my bf n fwens .
*Sedap Gila ehk , Tkbole Angs ! *
Haha ! still gt time to merajok with suhaida .
Alamak ! ish .. But its okae , im not even mad at her .
Today , i feel like i act like a retarded infront of him -.-
All my retarded nonsense came out of sudden . Thanks to Suhaida , Efah & ketot .
 Btw , i failed many subjects -.-
OMG Mummy ! , im sooo sorry :(
i failed , Physics , Chemistry , Maths & CoreGeography . i only passed English & MT
this time i havent know my marks for Humanities . Omg , i promise Ms Mages i will get A1 for combined .
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm , * sadsadsadsadsad . im scared i cant give what ms mages hopes for .

P.s I lOve My Boyfriend :D

its black & white

Sooooooo sad :( I didnt even get any msg or calls from someone . Haissshhh , i hear music also like can cry -.-  But its okae , i can wait forever .

Dear , where u go ? hmmm , i whole day sad ya know . But nevermind , i not even mad . Damn i miss u sooo much :( If only u txt me , i will be smiling at my phone like orng shiok sendiri -.- but i like hehe :) i told u yesterday , i went jemputan . The whole day at my aunts house . I wanna go home quick just to chat wit u n suhaida :( Seriously i sad . Pls txt me , i top up my pp8 already . hmmm , don worry i wil be waiting even if i didnt get enough sleep bcoz i wan to be wit u . Although slame niy i cant go to sleep coz ,,, i DAMN MISS YOU . Harap kite leh jmpe lagy :( klao lah nyari tkde jemputan .. ISHHHHHHHHHH! ALAMAK SPOILER LAHHH . NCBC >:( 

lOVE
HUDA :(

You're my Man :)

                                                      ILoveMyBoyFriendSooMuch

Walaowei ! i go see him like he go West i go East -.-   But nevermind , i didnt know have Raj , Malik , Myra , Sharul nn my bf of course and some others . We go lepak at my bf's friend's condo at Palm Gardens just near my house . Yeah awesome !such a nice view ^^ well , of course me n my bf dating like as if we are in a cinema watching scary movie , But advance technology ^^ haha ! wth ? kena paisey siak jalan dngan kwn .. I have a great tyme :D Nxt tyme , i wanna join :)

 Dear , You made my day a memorable one :)

A Day to Remember .

Went out at 11.45 to meet suhaida coz i lend her my trackpants . Dhen we go jalan-jalan westmall :)
At 1.40+ he my bf msg me if i want go Jurong Point . Walaowei . Jurong Point... Such a busy mall . Go meet Wan Sakai andand my Bf ^^ Ape lagy , go jalan- jalan ah . haha . Irritating bastard lah si Wan ni . Nampak kedai baju laki , Masok ah . Mcm pompuan -.- but boy version .. my leg penat tao jalan-jalan . Then go sit at Boon Lay  park .. lepak ! for awhile only . Go home sooo sleepy n tired . well , my bf sent me to bus stop . * Blushing .. hehe i like !

Moral : Is and Average day , But a day to remember :) Thanks to my Bf . hehe Love You !!

My Superman

                                                               13 October 2010

He's my Hero . He's my superman . He's my everything :) . I keep giving him excuses when he wants to loiter with me arnd him . i wan . But im sorry . I keep saying " im sorry " .. but it felt like im hurting him . I don know what to do . "Im sorry " is all i can afford . I need time to show my love to him . And all he ever say was he trust in me deeply . And this is what he gets .. Im sorry dear . If only i have time to spent time with you , i'll be much more happier :) . Here im posting a song for you dear . Its for you :) .

Simple Plan - I can Wait Forever 

Love You :D

Tomorrow , pick my bestfriend from school . Suhaida cannot :( so sad .. dhen i have to fetch shariffah myself . kwangkwangkwang .. Physics paper 1 was VERY DAMN EASY . paper 2 , i nvr do many quesions . Mayb i failed .. or not :D . Oral , OMG i freak out seating infront of the teacher . I cant eye contact .. i don know why :( lagipon , saket perot .. ( bcoz i nvr eat from yesterday ) i don wan him to noe . Go home , went to sleep for 4 hours .. i wake up , FEVER ! walaowei ! bad day .. 

Dont noe what im feeling rite now ..

                                              I Think Im In Love :D

I love you guys :)

We're back again . Bestfriends , i don wanna lose you again just bcoz of small things n misunderstandinsg . Im sorry :)

Got sooooo angry when he didnt reply my msg from morning n afternoon . But when i online fb , he's online -.- Seriuosly im sad but im not mad , hehehe sorry lah ..

When he chat wit me , he ask me why i nvr reply his msg .. " Now you want to reply my msg ?! Alamaaaak ! "

( But i went jumping in Efah's house :D )

But the reason why he reply is bcoz ; he sleep at 4 morning n wake up at 4+ pm , wow ! ( he's in LALA LAND ^^)

Hahaha Happy to the Max ! 

this is all i can afford to post , See ya ! :)

Song that Efah n Suhaida , made me cry ; Nurain :

Aww , such a sweet song , but i don noe what makes me cry .. nvrmd . But i will still love this ong no matter what :)

You're my Zero Gravity

How can i forget all our Memories Together ..

We met in a special way that i can never forget . Remember the time , we waited and waited for Efah n Suhaida during their PDS , we act like bitches , Laugh like bitches .. And yeah , WE ARE BITCHES. Our Friendship is like a bow tied tightly that no one can release its shape . Ya know , you can only made my freedom free as possible . Its impossible how you made me change my life completely . You made me believe in everything . You even made my days more cheerful and smilin' much more . But day by day , more challenges that we must face together .

Remember , no matter what happens between us and the rest .. i wont have any hard feelings in you all .Im doing my job as a good bestfriends to you all .Even what i say that hurt your feelings , i didnt mean to but what i said is im advicing you for your own good . You are my concerns and i cant stop worrying about you .I want all to understand each other . You guys are precious to me like a fragile glass .Especially , Syahierah Ahmad Samsudin .You guide me through all this while . You treat me right . But there are always obstacles that we must overthrew . What i said about Suhaida , I seriously didnt meant to hurt you . But its the fact . Dont you remember what i said and we promise together ? I maybe nagging at you guys or the opposite , thats bcoz i love you guys like my own family and you all are my concerns . If anything happens to you  badly , Ya know .. i'll regret hurtfully of not taking care of you carely . Whatever happens to you , we are all responsible of taking care of you together . Sometimes i feel like im just used . thats bcoz im sad . But that doesnt mean i hate you and i have hard feelings to hate . No . There will never be hard feelings in me even if you gusy hurt me badly till the end .

             You are the One Who made me smile & You'll always Be Part of Me :)

Somethin' Bout Love

Although its not that sense , but the lyrics of this song is what the same in what im experiencing it now . i dont know . I need time to show my love , prove my love is pure and my love is only for you . But how am i going to do that when you hide from me last time . now what i realize is that im hiding from you . All this while i treat you rite , and you made me believe i can only have one love to live long .You treat me rite , but your sense isn't the same .So , what i wish is only meant for you . I want you back , cause what i wish is what i want to be . You're the only one i count on . It's you who made my life better . Its you who made me believe . Its you who i can rely on those times . Its you who i can only share my love to you . And its you who i want most .

Relationships = Friendships

Relationships starts with friendships first rite ? .. Yeah , Im totally sad . Im on the phone with my bestfriend. we cried all the way until we stops talking .. for sometime , we didnt say a word . We kept on crying and crying because of our own miserable life . Well , its killing us rite now and till now . we were one the phone and she told me ;

" Huda dont worry , you still have me . I'm alone now because i wanna go with my friend that is you . Because i wanna change to the old me and make our friendship even closer than before . They may go with their love ones . And we maybe together . Now , the only i wanna be with is you . Even my friends in my class wouldnt want to talk to me  and also one of my teachers suspected of them not closing with me anymore . Pls huda , you still have me . i wanna go with you and you are the only one i can count on "

I cried nonstop when she told me that . As if i make her change to her old self back . Im just soo lucky to have her by my side . If not , i will always be lonely . My heart is aching now . Crying and kept on crying .
"Why would her do this to me ? All i did was to give her my concerns as a true friend . Cause i really love all my true friends . You guys can relax anytime you want cause they can make you more relaxing in any way . All i can say , I dont know whats gonna happens next .

"My dearest friend , whatever you say to have me back , remember this in your mind ; My heart is always opens for people to change . Even if you change from bad to worse , or worse to good .. no matter what , the book in my heart is marked . now , everybody left me alone . Even some of my bestfriends wouldn't care about me .. So why should i ? Even they never seem to care that until when we have that feeling of loneliness together . I may not be the best , But im the best of you ".

Someone's watching over me

                   Random Posting XD



OMG .. i love this song & also the show ; Raise your Voice .
Yeah , That guy is soooo HAWT ! arrrhhh  -.-

And also this song , Someone's watching over me ..
Im dedicating this song to me Belovered Father .. Rest in Peace daddy (;

Love just is ... Whatever it maybe

                                                        Dont mind me cause ;

                                                                   IM IN LOVE :D                                

                                   Nothing less & nothing more ; i dont know why i love you for