Long time never update my bloggy Teehee ..
Haisssh IDK why but im full of complicated things rite now in my life .
What should i do now ? Where should i go ? Whats my decision nest ? WHAT IF ? ;(
But thansk to Shariffah , Suhaida , Syahierah & Hawa .. Thanks to them . They are leading me to the right path back . They're willing to help me and sacrifice they efforts for me . Thankyou Girls !
U girls are the BEST AMAZING GIRLFRIENDS I EVER HAD . & Thank you for accepting me for who i am :)
And as for Shafiq , I have something to say . ALOT .
Sorry Dear , i didnt speak up the truth . Somethings are just not meant to be say from own mouth . It may hurt alot . Dear , i dont know wat to say . Its not been fair for us .. & for me especially . First , about my Fb Password . I trust u , i gave my password to u . To prove that i didnt go flirting arnd and go inboxing with other guys behind ur back . I did , i trust u . But what did u say to me whenever i ask fer ur password ? .. U gave me excuse lahh ..
Yknow i trust you 100 % but now since ur not being fair , my trust is decreasing . And as also fer handphones n messages , u didnt EVEN LET ME hold ur phone . Rememeber sunday , we meet ? u contct that pearline wat . Dont think i didnt see u smiling at her msg .. u didnt even know im hurt inside . Thats why i sit other place alone cause it seems that she is more important that me ;( & ur telling me that u are happy with other girls compared to me ..
Second , where did your sweet words go to ? to other girls ? What happened ?
I told u before that i miss seeing u posting sweet phrases on both our walls , yeah u did post .. but why a sudden stop ?
So ur telling me that ur words HANYA SEMENTARE SAJE ? Ur giving me that signal of ur words are nothing and why did i believe in it ?
Oh my , whats happening to u dear ? u've change alot ;( pls , im losing trust on u ..
Third , Y do u always beat me up ? i know ur just playing arnd .. punch me here n there . But ur ways of doing it hurts me ALOT TIMES HARDER .
i admit dear , sometimes in front of my friends u did it . yeah i took it as if ur playing .. but the truth my friends told me this " Huda , asl kau yg merane niyy ? asl lelaki kau pukol kau gytu .. yknow its not nice a boy even a boyfriend beat u even if hes just joking arnd . If he cares for u and loves u soo much , he wouldnt have done tat . He would try his very best to takecare of you even if u hurt abit . aku tknk tngok kwn aku merane mcm niyy , aku yg lagy sedih n kesian kat kau .. "
u tawu i ckp ape ? " biarlahh , aku tk kesahh .. biar aku merane krane die sbb aku btol2 cinte kan die . aku kuat .. walaoupon it hurts me a thousand times .. " ....
Dear , we may have made it through till almost 7 months of our relationship . But ... what for going through a long distance relationship if one of us is not even happy inside our own heart and one of us is suffering inside ? Dear , i dont care how long we made through , but as long as we spent and cherish our moments truely is the best memories i can keep :) if only we look closer at our mistakes , we can spent more time together . But whats there i can get ? Im losing trust on you dear .. IM SOO SORRY ;( But no matter how deep im hurt and how long im being hurt is , I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU .Dear , i feel like im losing u . Everytime i close my eyes now , i can see you happy with other girls . I just cant help it .. Dear , there's still other ppl who mostly care for me . Idk , they're the ones who made me smile endlessly . Made me cry for joy . Gave me happiness bit by bit . Show me the meaning of sister love .
I still love u no matter what .. i just dont wanna lose my love ones again & all is left with me is just memories .. Im sorry ;(
I MISS U ;(
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