Its that one guy

 

Thats what my heart says.

I met this guy , soo hot and handsome . He gave me blushes i couldnt deny . He cared for me that no one has ever did to me . He gave me Love to live long . And that for i return , i gave my heart to him as a sign i appreciate what you've given to me .You had no idea how my life change soo much since the day i met you . All i want is you tomorrow , next week , next month and if i could , i want you for the rest of my life .

Stayclose,dontgo

Yknow Dear , today its the first time i've seen u smile all day . Truely ,

haha no joke :D


Wish only i could wake up nxt to u so that i dont need to miss u when im awake from bed . Wish i could stay by your side and never leave . Wish i could hug u forever and never let u go . Wish u could stay beside me so that u dont have to miss me when im away . Wish i had full freedom so that i have no doubt to meet u everyday . Wish we stayed just opposite each other so that we can be together anytime . 

 Even if im mad or disappointed in u , i'll always need ur attention to make me better . You never fail to make me smile again . Yeah , u never knew i could laugh even if its just a kiss . Your kiss really makes me better alot but the most important thing to me is , seeing u smile is already enough for me to cheer up . Your just an irritating boyfriend , but no matter what i dont like your irritating-ness , still i love u ! cause nobody's perfect :D

Okae , my shirt has my bf's perfume scent . hehe i like :D

And that i say is u , dear :)

To Ierah , 

Ierah ! Wish only u never migrate . Pls dont go far . Im just quiet without your crazyness here in Singapore . Dont worry dear , even if you stayed far now , im never gonna leave ya alone . Going to school alone . Remember we always go school together , yeah i miss that since you're with ur ex . Now , even if u stayed far from me , i never gonna give up on meeting ya .I'll still be the old me who semangats alot and sacrifices for u . I'll do anything to see ya again Bestfriend . Cause even when your far away , im never gonna say goodbye . Its okae , i still have suhaida n efah . I'll take care of them truely :) Gonna miss ya alotz .

Takecare Bestfriend (; Selamat jalan sahabat ku .

Still my Tumblr like WTF ??! i still dont ever understand Tumblr . I go there just to look n save cool pictures but not post . hehe PEACE .

You're the one for me

Spend the whole day with Efah <3
Talk about how bossy our mum is . Nagging at home nonstop , talking about our mums knowing we are in a relationship , freedom , understanding love & relationships n erhhhh , ..... i dunnoe . hehe . Well , we plan to cabot from our mum , i mean me.. soo i gave excuse to my mum i wanna meet my friend at BB . She let me but i must come back to Taman Jurong . Alaaaamak , troublesome . Takyah sua , buat penat aje . Then family cao , my aunty suddenly fetch like about 7-8 NS men at BoonLay . Wahhh , soo semangat ! Sent them to their base camp at jln sungai road .
Good Luck Abng Hot nerd ku , i mean Abng Hazrul ! Serve the country well . Hehe Botak :)
Then taktawu my Aunty drive where until masok town . Nmpak  Flyer . N Helix bridge the one my bf told me . Omg soo beautiful admiring it during the night time . Go Expo ! Donnoe FOR WHAT we go there . Haha just bought some food n shopping ! i like .. then go straight homey ! :D

Dear , u never really know how big my Love to u is n how deep is it . Wish only u knew .. Haha . You're just the hotest n full of sweetness boy i ever love it my whole life . Please dont go .. Wanna know something ?
~You're the best i ever had
~You're the sweetest i ever met
~You're the faithful one i ever catch
~You're the one i ever grab .

Hehe <3 thats what i felt . See ya real soon :)

I Forgive u but never forgetting u .

I Miss You ));
Im sorry . Im guilty . Im down . i've tried .
Not one signal from u makes me felt like im dying already . I called u , never answer . I wait u online , dunnoe where u disappear . i wait for ur msg , not even one msg . Where have u gone to ?? I know i'd show attitude at  u . Pls dont make me hang on to my tears . I know im guilty of what i'd did . Even if im angry , sad or attitude , still i cared for u . Im never a heartless girl . Yknow , i try my best to delete every post that shows im really sad , to show that i wanna forgive u n forget everything . But the time u disappear , its like u left me undone . Undone by not saying anthing . Atleast i make the effort to call u . i waited n waited 'til i fell asleep .
Dear , i just wanna say im sorry . I never meant to hurt u . Really i meant what i say . Im  truly sorry . its not that i purposely show attitude or what , things are complicated the way i never expect . Im sorry i let out my anger n attitude . You never deserve those from me . I promise those ill never happen again . You always make my days brighten up n thats the reason why you dont deserve every little bit of my attitude . I Love u n i'll never ever let you go . You're the reason why im faithful . An im never a murderer to let you down  . Im sorry .. Everything will be alrite , if you stay by myside :) Jealousy is just a disease that a relationship get sick of . And im never let that disese stop us . Cause you know , You're the only Key to my Heart :D

Heart of a devil

Red eyes , feeling down ,  tears , broken hearted . You .

Im sorry . You let me down too hard . It striked through me deeply . Cried in my room all alone . Tears rolling down .

Even if you think that my ignorance is bothering you , why did ya say im " like sombong "  when you're the one who ignores me just for other person ? What is your point anyway ? i quiet myself cause i know ur concern is not within you when you're chatting with me . i know . You're always the reason why im sad or heartboken when im on9 . You caused my feelings to hurt and down every night . Im sorry . It aint worth when you're hard to be faithful with a heart of a devil . Hope you change the better you .

I miss Efah soo much ); Hope we can meet up on day .

Cabot = Gereeek !

Todaaaaay ! 
I cabot my NCC Training .. okae kinda seram coz i saw Gabriel inside bus 985 . Walao conferm he tell sia ... Alaaaaamak ! Okae i admit its my fault that i cabot NCC just to meet my Syg . I wasnt suppose to do that . I got stressd up over tis mistake i made coz its getting bigger n worser . Gt sad all the way while my Syg try to confront me . Then i got 2 msges from my mum and she ask me to call her immediately or else mum wont let me stay inside house . Sooo we go search a nearby public phone n call my mum . Omg , i couldnt take her words .. just tooooo hurtful . I didnt say a word after that call . I wanna explain to Syg also soooo damn hard n speechless . Got quite n stressed up 'til i cry . Sooo try to chill down abit n slowly . Then Elly came n lepak , nothing really cheers me up abit . Well , still thinking that when i got home , what would my mum's reaction be ? .. Kept thinking n thinking 'til im tired of being tension . Soo Syg fetch Samuel at Botak Jones . Between me n Elly , nothing to talk about . Then they came back , im still sad . I dont know whats got into the boy who sits the opposite side alone buying 5+ Beyblades . Haha ! Samuel tkde life gy kacao budak tu ..Tak baeek ! 
Samuel mmg Tkde Lifeeee !
Seriously when theres Samuel around , he makes our surrounding more fun n Kecoooh !haha ! He's seriously fun to be with :) Even Samuel n Shafiq sajak lahhh korang gay partner. Same`same suke prasaan jubohh ! Taylor swift lahh , Second serenade , Eminem .. siape lagy korang nak berangan .. Haiyaaaaaaa ~ . Then pindah tmpat laen lepas beli "pill" kat 7 Eleven .
Awwwwww , i just Love my Syg hugs me :) hehehe . Got home at 7.4+ . Baeeeek ahhh , mum tak mrh aku pon . Gereeek paah ! n i call suhaida mintak ampun maaf due to my liar . and yay! suhaidah forgive me ..and now aku haos . Jumpe this susu carton inside dapur cabinet . Minum sikit je , BLUUUUUEK !  mcm dah basi .... Eeeeeww !

Aku Tak Mampu Menyakiti Mu

Im Sorry , I Love You );

My heart hurts alot when i gave excuses to hym . 
Was eating while surfing internet . Suddenly Dear wants to on the phone .
If only u knew how hard im trying to have a free time to on the phone with you when my family is around .. then while eating i stop and the feeling of no appetite came across me . Now , still i never touch my food and it is still full . Haaaaish . Felt guilty muchhh .. After a few minutes , got cool down . Hmmmmm , if u knew how painfully i had scoldings from my family just bcoz i on the phone with u . I have a family who over concerns me too much .. Im going through these tough challenges just for u . Everyday , got scolded from morning to night . If only u knew how i felt everyday. Stress up ! Erghhhhhh ! Even after i got home after meeting u , all my siblings gave me a strange look . Yeaaah , they knew im in a relationship  .. but they never knew who u really are deep down . Its tough having parents who disagrees their child having relationships at this age . But yknow what , im going through these cause im preventing my parents to force me breakup with u . I dont wanna that to happen to me and i'll regret my whole life . Im not letting it happen . I felt guilty cause i know you wanna spent time with me . And all i ever do , is give u excuses . Im sorry , i spent time shedding my tears . Whatever i do , i never lied . It all happens to me , n im facing reality really hard . If only the end of December came , pls ? After N level , dont worry .. i can spend time with u everyday if u want to . Nobody can stop me . Just wait , im proving my family i can do better in the future . Once i pass , sure they have to give me what i want . And that is by asking 100% freedom just for me .... im sorry dear , im facing this alone . If only u understand me 100% , then u'll noe hw i felt suffering in pain . Once again im sorry  , cause i love you . Byebye . Takecares . Love you sooo much :((

Faint tak awesome buat aku

Okae today i REALLY had a great day with Syg n Adan . Totally Laughing out LOUDS !!! haha . But lets start from the starting . 
Pagy tady pengsan kat meja computer .. After mummy kejot me , tak sadar pukol 6 pagy . OMG computer shut down sendiri n check my phone ade 6 msges from Ierah n syg aku . After reading their msges ,  alaaaaaaamak ! rase bersalah seyyy . Klau lahhh aku tak pengsan smlm , aku takkan rase bersalah mcm gyny seyy . Then from 6 pagy , go kol syg aku tk angkat .okae , my mind fikirkan die masih tido laaah . Haiiiish , then go on9 Facebook , die tk on9 . Baek , rase bersalah makin menakotkan aku siot . Tibe`tibe my otak fikirkan " okay , i think die marah kat aku psl tady pagy ". Then at 11+ go kol hym lagy after mandi.. harap2 die angkat seyyy . JYEEEAH die angkat . I thought die masih marah at me sampai taknak bebual . YAY ! 
Plan nak jumpe syg aku YAY ! Dah kol syg aku , kol mummy aku kat kerje nak mintak permitss . Dhen mummy suroh jemor baju  kt luar rumah dulu sbelom kluar . ALAAAAAMAK spoilerz lahhh . Ape lagy fast game ahhh . Bagy half my kerje tu adk . heeeeh :)
Dahhh kluar gy bus stop depan skolah CCKPS .. okae i saw someone familiar there tapy tak clear sngat sape. Go closer .. rupenyer Efah ! Alaaaaaamak , gua rindu sama lu ahhh , abeh kite jiwe pkai baju same . haha aku suke !! 
Jumpe syg aku kat busstop depan masjid Al-Raudhah . Okae syg lambat siket . Sooooo takde pape nak buat , bukak lagu kuat`kuat n lepak kat pondok . SEEEEE ! I told u , i nyanyi jek hujan stop , Cooool kan ... Biase ahhh ( tak kembang ehhk ) haha . Then go wait fer hym at 236 n proceeed to Adan's house . Lepak ngan die kejap . HAHA ! Adan buat lawak sajak jady part time org cacat . muahaha jahat aku .. at 6.58 lincah balek umahhh . Dah smpai kol my syg , FUUUUUYOOOOH ! dapat $2 dari mak aku sbb aku tolong jemor baju . Heeeeeeh biase ahhh , happy dohhh , first time mummy aku baik hati . 

Eminem ~  "Hot and dangerous" 
hah . FAKE . He IS hot but not exactly dangerous though :P

Dear Shafiq ,
i btol`btol had fun today :) thankyou sooo much laaahs .  hehe miss ya sooo much . Once again thankyou :) harap leyyy leak lagy tapy lagy ramai kaesss . Love ya sooooo much <3

Once i see u again , things really calm me down .

ERRRGH !!
Datang lambat for NCC training beh kene punishment . sedih pe . But luckily aku saket on tyme .. jantung aku sesak nafas lagy ! tapy lagy RABAAK .okaee sooo , aku dudok satu corner. Dah pukol 11.00 n aku teringat untok kejotkan mataer aku ... hehe dngan pantas aku msg die . Soo , this training , kena leftout again . Takpe dah biase eh suhaidah .

Just wanna say Goodluck for the NCC selected cadets who are going Night Cycling . Dudok lame`lame yek kat basikal tu sampai cramp . haha ! Enjoy ur ride :)

Ape kene seyy ngan ustad skrng ? Suke hati ahh nak pelok`pelok pe , tak menyusahkan kau siol . Aku tawu ahh jage diri . aku tawu jage marwah aku okae . MCM KAU TAK PERNAH PEGANG MATAER KAU SBELOM KAHWIN . PFFFFT . PKAI OTAK SIKET AHH .

Computer aku saket jugak . Tibe`tibe shut down sendiri .. haissssh . Get well soon aites :)

YAY !! ~ We met like its my first time seeing u :D
 Lepas NCC , gy meet syg aku . OMDFG ! rindu die rabaak seyy . Jumpe die teros huggy :D
Alhamdullilah ! Syg aku pass N level ! Yippie! .. Okae i akan belajar pandai`pandai horr nxt year :)

Rindu same Mac Fajar crewzzzz ..

YAY !!!
Jumpe ngan Ierah then jln2 around CCK stakat nak suroh orng belikan rokok . Atlast Ierah kol Alfiyan n tanyer ade rokok tak . Bile Ierah ckp yg aku rindu Yan , YAN KEMBANG SEMCM SIOL . Issssh , tkleh angkat pe . Then jumpe Yan kat BP Garden cmplex . Wahhhhh! tak perasaaan ade Swimming pool , Karaoke Lounge , Dance studio .. BEST PE .. haha abeh tengok dorang skate . KLAKAR PE DORANG SKATE ! haha . Takleh angkat dohhhhh . Then gy Fajar wit Ierah n Hairi . ALAAAAMAK , jumpe ngan manager world aku siot . Issssh , taktawu ape kene ngan die tibe`tibe bebual baik ngan aku . Tngah lapaaaaaar ! Ierah beli mknan kat Mac Fajar . Leeeeerh , siket orng kerje jek .. SODEHH PE . Baru nak jumpe kwn`kwn rapats ku . Beh dorang tk kerje . Haaaish , takpe atleast dapat jumpe ngan Yan n Hairi , Alaaaamak rindu gua sama dorang . Paling`paling aku nak jumpe is Yida , Firdaus , Salihin , Daniel , Hafiz , Wei jie , erhhhhh ,.... well kebanyakan lelaki ahhh . Lagy`lagy Wei Jie , haiyaaaaa .. masih ingat die hutang aku kiss for my birthday n aku hutang die untok belanje die makan Macdonalds . Haha ! sampai skrng tk jumpe seyyy . Well , yelah Afiqah usyik kite due yg Wei jie suke akuhhh . Btol seyy , haisssh . CERITE LAME EHK .

"Abng Sal ! Laen kali kluar ehk . Ape tady korang ajak aku , Saturday gy Bowling n Tuesday gy WWW ????? GEREK PE ! Ehk nak seyy .. tapy aku segan horrr . Takpe , laen kali aje lahhh ... we go as FAJAR MAC CREW . haha conferm fun siot ! Miss ya alotz lahhh bro ! kate nak ajak aku lepak , tapy tak ajak pn ...  takpe , nnti aku kacau korang kerje yekk . hehe :D

HAHA !! Ierah was sooo generous to me to use her line n let me msg my dear . Awwww , sooo sweet of u laah ierah . syg kau <3 .  Hehe ape lagy kacao syg aku . HAHA . Takleh angkat sia . Alaaamak , dah la aku tak pandai gune itouch ierah abeh sampai tersend 3 blank msg . EEEE  ! GERAM SIA ... perangai seyy itouch ierah .

okae now penat pe type pkai on-screen keyboard .. Haiyaaaaa , lu computer banyak susah lohhh !! sampai di sini aje ... okae wait aku tak sabaar nak gy skolah esk . Jgn SIR ALIFF N CICAK dtng sua .. Harap formation tak tukar . okae seriously penat tanganku .Hmmmm , miss mages ajak aku gy cycling seyy tis friday petang .. taktawu nak pegy ke tak . Takyah gy sudah , klao aku gy pon , step suhaida nak layan aku bile aku ikot . Paling`paling kene leftout . Yelah , bile syamierah ade , conferm kau tinggal kan aku pe.Haissssh ,
"sorie suhaida , bukan aku nak tinggalkn kaw sorang . aku dah kenal kau lame bile kau dngan ramai kwn sbelah kau . Aku taknak gadoh mcm dulu lagy n aku taknak just small matter diambil besar . Sorry , aku taknak balas dendam . Ape yang kau dah bebual burok kat ex aku , aku terime . Its not ur fault . Its mine , aku tak sepatotnye rmpas ex aku dari kakak angkat aku , just bcoz aku maseh syg kan die rabak`rabak . so whats past is past alrite .. aku dh maafkan segale dosa kau ke aku , i told u before , ' i'll forgive u no matter what even if it hurts alot to me ' ". Byebye ! .. :D

" Dear , sowie tak turon lepak .. laen kali i turon . I takkan lari tao bile u botak . haha takkan :) . Jgn jealous lagy tao , i maen`maen jek tady . Alaaaaa , klao jmpe ngan budak tu pon ape salahnye kan . i skrng anggap die abng seyyy . Takde pape lebih . Cerite lame i dah lepaskan kae . Dah tak ingt yg dulu . heeeh :D cute seey bile lelaki jealous .. haha cute smcm ! .. "

Got nothing to do . Soo im posting some REALLY random . Dont mind me . Hehe :D

Somethings im dreamin' right now :
- Having a Canon camera ^^
- Go to the beach with bf (haha ! berangan)
- going lepak with all my sister lurps ku and my bf
- a sleepover at Efahs house ^^ (if only her mother let me)
- having an outing with all my girlfriends
- anybody ton ( ??! )
- Can i have supper with my bf for once ?
- Random dancing ( hiphop ?? ) with my girlfriends 
- Double dates ? Triple or MORE ??
- Going school with all my 3 girlfriends together :)
- SOMEMORE ?!

Mepek Much ?? ~ MM

Dear Shafiq ,

Happy 2 months Anniversary :) I know you're not here with me , but its okae . Just wanna left you something behind . Dear , when the day you come out came , i hope you never change . What i meant change is , change in a way you dont remember me who i am to you . Dont ever think im gonna go find another guy . I wont . I know i did jerks stuffs like chatting with other boys , exchange numbers , msg them . Yknow , what i meant was that im being friendly . Thats all not more . Youre more than you belong to my heart . Not because i wanna flirt , get to know them more , Get in Love together , But they are my friends . Yeah , friends ae friends not TTM or Scandal . Hope once you come out , you remembered me for who i am . The one you used to love and now your still loving that person . Once again , Happy 2 months anniversary ! Wish i could keep you much longer :))) .

Aku tak paham adik aku siol . Okay ahh , die takde matair , tapy bebual kat talipon ngan kwn mcm mataey pulak . Issh , mmg lah kau talipon kwn pompuan kau , tapy takyah lahh gy tempat lain then bebual bile aku masok bilik stakat nak amek hp jekk -.- Soo perasaan nak step bebual ngan kawan mcm mataey . Ishhh , menyampah orng mcm gyny ! Okay ah adik , aku mengaku yang aku bebual ngan mataey kat talipon DEPAN KAU  , tapy jgn lahh ikot ape aku buat bile KAU TNGAH BEBUAL NGAN KWN POMPUAN KAU . perasaan juboh ! Atleast aku berteros terang OBVIOUSLY bebual kat talipon ngan mataey depan kau lagy , tapy buat ape nak malu sampai gy tempat laen beh bebual . Like wtf ?! WHATS WRONG WITH YOU ?

Nyari Freestyle punyer lahh sway nak mampuss . Lepas break , teros ade RFA abeh maen Ice man . Sial lahh ! Nazirah betol`betol nak kene kan me seyy . she wanna tag me but then i fall then she terselioh then jatoh just on top of my body . Sway sia ! takpe tapy FUN . Then maen lagy , lepas tu smue kejar me . Lepas i wanna tag arifah , but then i fall and she tumbok my perot and then my head hit her stomach and together jatoh . But she jatoh atas my badan . soo she safe ah but kaki die saket . But me ??! Haiyaaa , jatoh badan lemah then kaki tkleh gerak . Nak bangon punye lahh saket . Skarang both my knees bengkak . Haaaish , naseb badan .....

Asl SIR ALIFF dtng training sial ? pukimak ! Tengok ahh , skrng smue Part C's kene marah sbb tak tnujok Discipline ? WTF ?! Hey training tak semestinye tkde fun okaes . I also wanna have fun this training . Kau tegor Lukman ape ? die buat freestyle tak sharp and properly . GY mati sial ! Skarang , suhaida n arifah nanges sbb kedatangan kau . sial !

D-Formation Saaaaps

Today went to Novena with Eiida n Ierah . We watch Teens Supreme , seeing my childhood friends dancing on stage . Woohoo ! Best lahh . D-Formation is the name of my friends group . I didnt know have Syakirin and Raifanah , my ex-bestfriends in Concord . Wow ! never thought i would meet them back . Of course when i sit beside eiida , Syakirin stills remember me . I know my face has no difference rite ? Teehee :D They dance soo cute ! but they never won . Sorry guys we never support you guys enough , but you did your best lahh ! Nice performance btw . Ohh , eiida sent the video tat i took at eiida's hp . Someday i upload :)
After performance , go home at 7.15 pm and then change cloths and ready to meet me cousins :) Treaty Dinner from my Mak Anjang . Today is her birthday . Happy Birthday ! .. Got home soo damn tired .

Dear , tomorrow Anniversary kite seyyy , Bile u nak keluar ?? 1st Anniversary kite pon , i sorang . Sedih pee . Isshh , u keluar lahhhh ! I really miss ya nak mampusss !

Weeeee ~

 

" Stop flirting wit me boy ! i wont fall into your trap alrite .. remember that . Even you tried hard enough to capture my heart with your flirting skills , yknow wat , i dont care . Go get someone else alrite , whats the past , its already the past . Dont try to bring it back and ask y . Cos u know wat are my reasons PFFFT . Get a life . My heart is only own by some1 special . Sorry my heart has no spacing for u to fit in . "

Can i extend it ?

You are never good for me boy ! remember you ask me for stead ? ohh my , you were in a relationship with my friend ! If you'd never played timer before , i guess i would never said this in mind and in heart . Your flirtatious skills are never gonna brainwash me . I never like you ! I was just giving sympathy to you . Dont you realize ? Dont you ever text me again , if not im gonna tell my bf about it  , OR dont make me sound you MYSELF . remember that , im never a coward towards relationships . Even if im not experiencing LOve much , but i've learnt alot from my girlfriends . Dont you ever steal my heart , its already locked to someone else , and that person is someone special who only has the key to my heart . Sorry , he locked my heart already before you try to open it . Damn your such a girlfriend stealer !

Thats why i said at Facebook . Efah , Ierah n Eiida should know who i meant . Rite guys ? Such a flirtatious guy . Sorry boy , Im already attach . Cant you see my profile relationship status is " In a Relationship with Fiq Ksiao " ?? he maybe away for a long time , but sorry you WILL NEVER FIT IN MY HEART . GET A LIFE !

Samuel chat with me at Facebook , he ask me if i want to hear good news or bad news . So i ask him , " y? both ? " . Then he said that the good news is maybe Shafiq is in Hostel he's not sure . But bad news is the father said something to the jugde but that judge disagrees what fiq's father said and then put fiq insie boys home . Pukimak kau lahh judge ! Bapak die dh side die sudah lahh , yg judge tak nak mengalah kenape ? cerite lame perh shafiq buat bende salah . CERITE LAME SIA ! Pukitiang ! Shafiq sekarang dh tak bersalah pe , DH TAK BERSALAH ! Perangai sia jugde . 

Today felt very happy ! Weee~ i dont know why . I was hoping the good news that samuel was about to tell me is " Shafiq come home already " BUT IN THE END , ITS NOT . its okae , i'll still wait for good news from Adan n Samuel . They both are soo concern about me . Teehee :) They are soo damn .... HELPFUL . i dont know why suddenly they started to talk nice to me . Now , samuel said that he will find more info on shafiq JUST FOR ME . Omg ! soo sweet of him ! Should i cry tears of joy or shout the whole house ? if i cry later family tinks i cry because i breakup -.- if i shout later they tink im crazier -.- NEVERMIND . just keep it to my heart :) cANT WAIT FOR NEXT INFO FROM SAMUEL ! TEHEEE I WILL BE WAITING !

ThankYou !

I was soo damn shocked ! Saw Samuel online Facebook just now , i go chat with him . Suddenly he ask me " you worried about him ? " .. i reply " yah . very worried . y ? " then he said that things gonna be alrite if i try to chill . I was like OMG he said that ??! i didnt even know that his friends are soo concern about me . It makes me feel loved by them . Aww , To Samuel , Shahboi , Mira , Adan , Thankyou soo much . You guys really are the best , giving me support so that i can still continue waiting for him . Soo sweet of you guys ♥ Really , i felt half cured by them . Almost heal me when im cannot breathe properly . Bring me a wide smile to my face :D haha ! Thankyou lahh korangx , tak begitu sangke korangx mintak kisah psal aku . Seriously i appreciate your support ! Aku tak akan lupe kan korang . Wish you were only here , kite lepak together satu hari yaw ! Tak sabar shafiq nk keluar ! cepat keluar taw ! miss you ♥!

I got nothing to do . MENDAK . Go edit his pictures ! haha , lagypon blom amek gambar same`same pon . Tkpe , atleast bole edit . tk kisah pon . Harap u keluar cepat tawu . Semue dah start rindu u . Jiayou !!!

Shafiq&Huda  

Full House

I LOVE THIS KOREAN DRAMA SOO MUCH LAHH ! soo sweet , daring .. awwww , caer hati gua . Like i watched this 30 disc drama for 2 days . Soo long sia the drama , but very funny and sweet . Teehee , still keeping this drama in my televisyen cabinet . Haha ! gonna watch it someday . The guy is SOOO DAMN HOT NAK MAMPUSSH ! Just love this drama soo much lahhs !


Yay ! Abng salihin dah balek ! baru jek chat ngan die , and die ckap smlm baru balek singapore but tak txt sape2 sbb nantok . Haha ! tkpe tkpe . As long abng sal balek singapore selamat sudah , then its very fine with me . Salihin ! bile nk jumpe ? Huda kat sini tunggu kau ngan Yan ajak aku lepak , tk ajak pon . Haisssh , bile mahu jumpe brother kus ? Aku rindu sama Mac crew kawan ku sial ! isssh , bile seyy korang free ... Aku rindu bile kite kerje then korang asyik kacau aku ngan ierah .. Best times ! HAHA . Next time jumpe okaes ? Me cant wait to meet you ! Atao i visit you during korang tengah kerje ? heehee , spy time !


Yay ! Freestyle drills semue dah blajar , cume kene ingat steps die jek . I only ingat sampai domino . Must be a strong hafalan . Must keep on learning . Jyeah !

Shafiq :

Cintaku takkan ku lepas
Berikan kesempatan untuk membuktikan
Ku mampu jadi yang terbaik
Dan masih jadi yang terbaik

Ku akan menanti
Meski harus penantian panjang
Ku akan tetap setia menunggumu
Ku tahu kau hanya untukku
Biarkan waktuku
Habis oleh penantian ini
Hingga kau percaya betapa besar
Cintaku padamu ku tetap menanti

Ku tetap menanti walau penantian panjang .

namun hatiku tetap untukmu

Today , really Fido cheer me up .. chat with him at MSN . Talk about Love Life , childhoods .. more lahh . I was crying nonstop when Fido talks about Love life . He said this " When your Love between him is soo strong , doesnt mean its true love . It can be just a stead . Feelings are feelings , it gets stronger , it fades . Thats why i dont believe true love at this age . Dont regret when your bf come out and things doesnt work out the same like it used to . Dont regret your whole life . Life is once only . There are million guys out there . " so i told him this " jyeah , he told me before that he wont ever leave me and i trust his words . And soo , i told him i wont ever leave or find other guys and i'm willing to wait no matter how long it takes , what i said to him im proving it right now . i know there are million guys out there , its just that something about him really i cant get us separated . He's the only one i have . he's the only one who can heal me . im sorry i just cant help myself . " ..
On that morning , watching televisyen , i sense that hes missing me again . Its soo uncontrolable . I remember what my girlfriends told me , pray for him hard , so that god will hear your prays and keep him in touch with you . Soo i pray , pray hardly til every word im prasing every tear it rolls down my cheek . ... i cant help it , im soo sad reminding of him .

Well , a special day for us is coming near this Monday . Suhaida told me , atleast i can celebrate it alone , but theirs ....... haissssh , whats the use of celebrating it alone without someone special next to me ? its our day  , our celebration . soo , no use celebrating alone . I still havent figure out what to buy for him ..

Love Test

 

Seriously im aiming to get one of the Nikon Camera . Im soo obsessed with it . I ask my mum about my late father's camera . she said its lost .  Okae , its time for me to get one . Hehe . When i told my mom that i wanna buy that camera , all have to say is " Kau niyy , jgn nak berangan nak ade camera . Entah kau bole jage betol`betol ke tak . Belajar pandai`pandai dulu , baru boleh ade camera ." But this time , she said this " Kau gune lah bakat melukis kau lepas tu jual . Dapat duet jugak . Nnti bile kau nk beli , nnti mama pandai`pandai tambahkan siket duet klao tk cukop . "

OMG ! she said that ? Shocking much .

Cant help crying all night lahh . I can control :'( I feel being missed badly by you . I just can stop ! Everynight im breathless dear . I cant breathe properly ! Felt as if im dying rite now . Pls dear , Come back quickly . I need you rite now !  Pls heal me , i cant help having this feeling everyday .. I cant eat , i cant sleep , i cant breathe properly , i cant do things right , tears running down my cheeks , heartpain . Dear , reading through your messages helps me smiles abit , but abit is not enough for me to regained my happiness back . My only happiness is only you . Thats why i need you now . I want my happiness back in this world ! I want back what we used to . I want back the US . Without you , im only a girl left in a deserted island . Hpw long are you going to be in there ? I still remember the day before you went in court . you told me not to leave you or find another guy . Whatever it is , im still waiting for you , But , i dunnoe if i can hold on much longer . It KILLS ME BADLY :'(

Photography Loved

Daddy can i use your Camera ? PRETTY PLS ?!! i saw your old bag inside contains Camera's zoom tools all inside . I suspect you have camera daddy . CAN I CAN I CAN I ? PLS ?!! i want to use it . I mean , of course , use of keeping memories of family and others . Pls ? where did you keep it ? i search the whole house dont have . PLS ?!! Everything you did , i always have the same interest as you . Duhhh  i inherit MOSTLY from you . Pls ?! i seriously love photography . 

11:11

Omg Omg Omg ! last night lying on my bed with my headphone on , i looked at my hp wallpaper ( if you know who i meant ) and accidentally looked at my watch in my phone . It shows 11:11 . Omg ! and i went smiling sia . Maybe today , what something special gonna happen ayeee ? Very mysterious yknow . Heehe . Hmm , again i dreamt of Shafiq . Like duhhh , i met my boyfriend in my Lala Land everyday .  i suddenly feel weird today . After i bathe , i usually feel sad and lonely , but today , im cheerful as i never be before . Why ehk ? strangey me .

Okae , today me n my little sister watched Shark Boy & Lava Girl on Video Demand Channel at Astro . That show talks about dreams rite ? soo , that show really learned me a lesson about dreams . They said , " when we dream of something that is powerful , it'll come true to reality " . True or fake much ? Hmm , sometimes , i dreamt something nonsense also come true . Dont care lahhh . Haisssh , if only what i dreamt all this while comes true , i would be smiling all day . Watching that show , sial lahh ! Taylor lautner cute sia bile kecik ... huuuuhooooo !

 I told ierah the other day that i wanna buy a chain that puts " i love you " & " i love u too " . This is how it looks like .

Found this picture at Tumblr . Soo naist ! i want this i want this ! hehe , i'll bought it for my 2 months anniversary this 13 December . Hmm , of course , i'll have to wait until he comes back . This is what i told Ierah . Haiiish , if only he's here , i would already gave him this on the spot on 13 December . I just LOVES hes reaction . OMG , when will he ever come back ? Theres alot of gifts i wanna give him seyy . Most of em are Anniversary gifts . When will he come back ?? I miss those days , even I MISS YOU . Pls dont leave me hurting and suffering . You took my heart away and leave me suffer . 

Hope you'll like what im gonna give you later . Since you never gave me anything on our Anniversary , then i'll give you one . Memories :) . I don mind you didnt give me anything . 

My little sister and my cuzzy bought a cake for my mum . Cause 8 december is her birthday and cuzzy wanna celebrate it today . Haaaishh , i forgot . 7 December is my late father's birthday .
" Happy Birthday mummy and daddy :) I know , both birthdays are just next door . soo Happy Birthday :) Harap mummy and daddy panjang umur ye . Love ya lahh :D "

This Dude = SHAFIQ !

 

Look alike sia ! alaaamak ! caer gua ..

OMG ! HES SOO DAMN HOOOOT MAOT SIOL ! 

Efah found this picture at Tumblr and post it at my Facebook wall sia .

Seriously , looks like shafiq dohh ! Alaaaamaaak ! *meltingmeltingmeltingmelting* Just cant stop looking at this dude . Sooo Hot and white , just like Shafiq . OMG , i cried when i saw this picture efah post it . I though he IS shafiq , but he's not . But why not treat him like shafiq rite ? atleast i have a great quality picture of Shafiq's twin . Haiiish ,

Thankyou soo much Efah ! I appreciate what she did . Omg , i can die melting of this dude . Sooo daring and adorable , Hot and white , Handsome and charming , Just like my Prince Charming , Shafiq . Awww , i miss him . If only shafiq is here , i would already tagged this pic to Shafiq . Duhhh , of course he will comment this , " Hott ke ? pade i , i lagy hott dari die " . WTH ? soo sngat puji sendiri , Dear , i know you're HOTT , but yknow , some ppl are just more hotter than you in this world . But atleast , i admit i seriously thinks my boyfriend is hot and THIS DUDE , IS MORE HOTTER THAN MY BOYFRIEND . haha ! Dont get jealous .. i said what i have to say in mind alrites . its better to let it out to you dear , than to lie to you rites ?! soo just accept it . DEAR IS HOTT , BUT THIS DUDE IS MORE WAY HOTTER . i love it . PEACE .

Craving of You

               I dont wanna fall out and we're all out of time .

Am i gonna do things alone all by myself , without you ? spending my time , emo-ing at home , hear songs and played it over and over again , onlining Facebook everyday and every second as if you have come back , waiting for your calls or messages , thinking back what we've been through , moodswings everyday  , ton all by myself , waiting to give you my gifts , shedding tears everytime , craving of you everyday , hard to breathe when im missing you badly .....

I seriously missed those times , dear . Why must you go in ? if you're not in ;
- Go out and meet up every single day .
- on the phone everytime im free at home for hours
- laughing ridiculously on the phone
- sing songs together
- give you gifts
- Surprise !
- online Facebook together and write on each others walls
- you LOVES to read my blog everytime i post new things or before go to bed
- give me morning and night messages
- everyday , you made me BLUSH
- falls asleep together while on the phone
- seek out in the morning to meet you
- ask random and funny questions together
- you LOVES to disturb me 
- take pictures together
- spent our anniversary together
- you told me " WHAT IFS "

In order to gain my happiness back , all i need is you . You're the only one . 
Please come back quickly dear , im suffereing like im dying . Well , facing this soo damn challenging . 

Ierah told me she missed this . Hahaha ! Jyeah , i miss those times when we went to sembawang park . Soo Shiook ! Alaaaaaamak ! ierah cerite kan part me n K sia . isssh , BLUSHING NAK MAMPUSSH .  haha ! cannot stop laughing about that part .

Im Lovin' It

                              YaY !
No more misunderstanding between Efah . Jgn terase lagy hor UNLESS i write your name . Hehehe .
Got nothing to do yesterday night . So i go cut my long straight hair . Now , i seriously love my new hairstyle . From long straight hair , turns to layered concave bob that is wavy . Wow ! big difference to my hair figurings . Im Lovin' it ! Take some pictures of it .

 

Teheee , thats me with my new hairstyle . Nice figure right ? of course , who's the one cutting it all by herself . I know , im not a pro . hehehe . 

Sorry tired of doing posting for now . Gotta do some proposal for ms ong . 

Byebye .

What did you just said?

For Efah ;

Asl kau terase niyy ? I post something mean at blog , im referring to my primary school friend . Aku ajak die keluar but die tunjok prangai . What makes you think im posting about you ? Does it relates to ya ? If it does , im sorry . Next time i'll write her name big `big . Kalao kau tunjok perangai pon , aku tetap terime seyy . Bcoz your my Bestfriend & a cousin to me and i dont wanna ever fight with ya . But niyy kawan lame skolah aku seyyy, aku mane suke sia . Chill ah Efah , Bukan aku maksodkan kau dohhh . Did it really relates to ya ? Im seriously referring to my kwn lame skolah . Me and the other group plan to go somewhere , but die tunjok perangai . Bile me n group dpt tawu die tunjok perangai just bcoz of her bf , Tu yg aku tkleh terime . Im sorry if you terase dohhh . Your my bestfriend , for what i wanna cari masalah tk tentu pasal kan ? Once again , im sorry if you terase , but im seriously not reffering to you .

    Get the fuck off my Life , Bitch . You dont need me , SO DO I .

I dont know whats happening to you . Did somebody Brainwashed you ? Hypnotized you ? .. or is it YOURSELF who changed  ? Get a fuck doctor to change your attitude problem alrite . Imma tired of your attitude . If you're not in mood , dont let it out to me .I can never put you aside alrite . Ohhh , OOOPS i forgot , If you're not already interested in something already , SPEAK UP AND TELL THE TRUTH . Dont need to give reasons or an excuse .  What im sayin' ,  DONT NEED TO GIVE ANY EXCUSE SINCE YOU'RE SPENDING YOUR SPECIAL TIME WITH SOMEONE ELSE . I MAY NOT KNOW WHAT YOU'RE UP TO , BUT YOUR WORDS ARE GIVING ME COMMON SENSE.

From the bottom of my heart

" I can never get tired thinking of you , & i can never given up on you .. No matter what happens . "

I gave my whole strength , my efforts to get him off my mind . Well , not exactly permanent . I tried . But not hard enough . I dont know how long you're gonna be in there , months , years . Still , i wanna go somewhere , soooo peaceful and relaxing and, Shout to the world from the bottom of my heart .. just feeling like letting my whole feelings out . I can never be peacefully , with all my complicated feelings get tangled . can i ??

I admit , IM JEALOUS SEEING COUPLES OUT THERE HOLDING HANDS , HUGS , SUPRISING KISSES ,WEARING SAME CLOTHES . im seriously jealous . I can crying admiring those couples .When i saw cute couples and romantic ones , my mind think back of Shafiq , not forgetting " I am having in a relationship with him , soo why should i be jealous ? He can be amazing in different ways thats why i love him damn much . We are doing what other relationships does right ? soo no point getting jealous " .. but still forgetting one more sentence that always made me gone crying continuously ; " Ohhh yeah , i forgot , he's gone for a while ... " thats when my mood starts to swing . Moodswings are dangerous for me . I can be smilling like hell outside , laughing out loud by not giving a fake one , but appreciating ones then on one moment , my smile and laughters all fade replaced by my sad frown . I can never be happy again , `till he proves me he is still gonna be by myside even if it hurts alot to me and standing beside me without fading any identity . I can never regain my happiness back . I can never :'(

Everything would be fine , if only you stayed longer . Longer and never letting me go .
While i was praying in the evening , i cried .

" Ya Allah , berikanlah aku kekuatan dan semangat yg kuat untuk aku mengalami ini semua  cabaran . Tanpa itu , aku lemah manghadapi ini . Aku terlalu lemah . Aku tidak mahu menangis semua hidupku setakat menunggu dia . Berikanlah aku semangat untuk melanjutkan hidupku yang bahagia ini . Berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk kuat and ceria selalu . ceria di hatiku . Ya Allah , aku tidak meminta lebih dari itu . Aku cuma hanya ingin kuat untk mengalami semua cabaran yg ditakdirkan tidak mengira seberapa beratnya merana aku menghadapinya . Ya Allah , tolonglahh aku ya Allah . Aku cuma ingin Bahagia di dalam dunia ini , walaopun hanya sementara . Amin . "

This is only a test . Test whether i have the ability to wait for someone special to us even if it takes a long time . Yeah , im ready to face it . I cried doesnt mean i failed or i lose this test , but its bcos this is the consequences of loving someone whether crying is the feeling of being left , or being missed badly . Soo , i wont ever lose . If i ever had another guy , means i gave up on this . But im saying this ; I CAN NEVER REPLACE SHAFIQ FOR SOMEONE ELSE IN MY HEART . cause i gave him something he had stolen before , my heart .

Sorry for the emotional post today , i told you before , this is where i express my feelings whether its happy or sad . Soo dont complaint , cause WHO ASK YOU TO READ MY BLOG AT THE FIRST PLACE AYEE ?

Enchanted

" Im wonderstruck , Blushing all the way home " - Taylor swift ; Enchanted .

Hmm , today what to do aye ?? Clean n Throw my sec3 books ? Do my revision ? Go out ? .. nothing to do . I only wish i have my Chicken Soup Relationships book back from Suhaida . I wanna read it ! ..Feeling the same thing all over and over agin . Miss him . Haiiishh , bile mahu game niyyy ? ... I really miss the time he sent me to the busstop at Hillgrove and all i do is blushh all the way home . Haha ! dlm bus pon seyy . Isssh , miss those times i blush really hard . Haha ! okae stop -.- . Seriously i miss you lahhh . I have somethign to say btw ;

" Please , dont be in Love with someone else . Please , dont have somebody waiting on you "


I Love my Boyfriend because ;

You're the first thing i think of , 
Each morning when i rise .
You're the last thing i think of,
Each night when i close my eyes .
You're in each thought i have 
and every breath i take.
With every move i make ,
i want to prove you I Love You .
But thats the hardest part
So im giving all i have to give to you ,
I give you my Heart ..

Kenangan Indah buat Anda ; IerahTinee .

 

Remember him ? OF COURSE U DO ! haha ! sorry babe , bukan sengaje nk buat kau sedih , but remember this time ? We cabot skolah dohh ! haha . I found this photo when im browsing my current property files  inside " Ierah ft Midon " files . For you Ierah .Dont be sad okaes ? Take it as a sweet memories of you and him . Cheer up , remember what i told you before , When you need a shoulder to cry on , i'll always lend you one . If you need a hug , just ask , I'll give one for you . Dont let your feelings kept inside forever , It'll crush your happiness inside . Just remeber , you still have your Girlfriends . Whatever it is , we're on your side . If you need help , we are here to help . Dont ever let those Bitches get in your way of getting happiness . Show and prove to them you're worth anything without him beside you . They are just a road blocking your route . actually i have something about boys to tell you . But not here . Anything just picit yaw .

Honesty is what i cant hide from .

[<3] There goes me , forcing laughters , faking smiles .

Its not been the same since youve gone . Used to love those days . Every morning wake up with a new message from you . Awww , i smile like crazy . But now , wake up not even a smile i can afford . Yknow , when you're gone for a while , i noe did something that im not suppose too . I admit , im a jerk . I chat with other boys , i exchange numbers wit them . I really did that . But yknow , you're the only one who i can give my heart too but nobody else does . i chat and exchange numbers with boys coz they really cheer me up when im sad or not in a good mood . They are the ones who i can express my feelings and they can understand what im feeling when you're gone . Coz some of my friends wont just understand my situation . It really is painful to wait for you . I did this not becoz i wanna replace you , but replace my feelings to right mood . And that right mood is to be happy as always. And thats becoz you're just too irreplacable for me and for that i love you damn much . Im sooo sorry , i am a jerk . I may text with other boys , but the one who i belong is you , not them . Once agin , im sorry . i said this cause i dont want to hide things from you and i wanna be honest with you .If i didnt told you this , i wouldnt know how would you feel , seeing me hid things from you . All is want is to cheer myself up . I cant bear hiding secrets . Thats why im posting it now , im being honest to you and to myself . Im sorry & I love you .

 Yknow what , I was Enchanted to meet you <3

Just a dream

I love this duet ! Better than the original song by Nelly . Haha ! too bad Nelly , you Lose .. They won ! Nenenipupu >:P But still your song  is the best nelly :) .

Today , nothing to do mummy ajak us watch Jangan Pandang Belakang , ahahaha ! mummy and hidayah makingfun of that show . Ahahaha ! i like , now then i don feel scared to watch that again bcoz some hidden parts of the show is damn funny ! ahaha nxt time watch again hor ^^

Bersamamu akan ku Jalani Hidup.

Sorry imma in not a good mood now to post . But post some of my images from Tumblr really cheer up me abit :')

Nice aye ? Fuyoooooooo , my All Time Fav Fruity ; Kiwi !!!

Fuuuuuh Lermaaaaaak ! Takbole Angkat lahh siaaaaal !

Isssshh , Soodaap niy !

Sedaaaaaaaap Gilaaaaaaa Ehhhhhk !

Okaaaaae udaaaaah cukop ! Alaaaaaamak , tengok niy dh mengidam pulaaaaak doooh . Haha takpe . Toooo sweet but delicious !

Pizza ! :'(

Hmmmm , pizza . Awwww , looking at this photo reminds me of the time that me , Fiq , Efah , Suhaida , Ierah , Adan and more more go eat pizza at the void deck :'( Such a memory . Cant help thinking of him laaaaaaaaa .

Dear Shafiq ,

Plss , waiting for you kills me badly ! i cant take it ! i told my friend this " Biar aku merane skrng , sbb bile Fiq klua nnti .. aku tentu okae nye . Tkpe , demi die , aku sanggop tnggu walao aku merane seberatnye bcoz wht Fiq rase skrng , is double the times to what im feeling . so i cant tink diri aku sendiri jek , i must also tink his feelings too :) " . Yeah , im gonna endure to wait for you . Even if i have to give fake smiles everyday , im gonna endure . I know its gonna be a very looooooong time to do tis , does it over and over again , but for you , Im willing to wait . Dont noe how long this is gonna end . Let me shed tears while waiting for you cause this pain seriously kills me and i do really miss ya alotz . Im sorry i regret of not spending the whole day with ya the day before you go in court . im sooo sorry dear :'( if not i would really spend the whole day with ya and face the consequences from my mum . Im sorry ! I think of myself too much than you .

Im very Sorry Dear :'(

I think of myself too much but not him . I really love you . But end up i cared only for myself . This time , i wont ever let anyone get in my way to meet him or go home late . Wont ever happen again . and if i ever want to go home late , i have to meet him early rite ? sooooo , i have change my plans ! teheeeeeeee~

Bersamamu akan ku Jalani Hidup.

Being with you is the only thing i can move on with my Life . Without you , im only just an ordinary girl who loves to emo at the corner of the room and hearing songs and cry . I dont ever want to do that again for my whole life !

 " I feel like i wanna go a beach and shout your name out loud "

Hawri Powter

Yoyoyo ! Just had a great date with IerahTinee . Haaha ! very shiok ! we watch Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows . very funny sia ... Huhuhu . But also very sad . I cried when Harry's friends the Elf , Dolby , got strike by a knife . Alaaaaaaamak ! very sad til i cry . Actually ierah wanna watch Rapunzel , but 25 november seyyy , .. But nevermind .

Hyperactive = Clumsy ??

Why am i getting clumsier and even clumsier when im in a hyperactive mood ?? Can anyone tell me whyyyy ? 

 Clumsy Actions ?

~Even when im ready to get out of my house i usually spray my Mulan's perfume correctly , but then i keep grabbing my Lucidoll hairspray and spray at my body .-.-

~Keep eating nonstop during the night even if im not hungry .

~alwaes take the wrong things at the right time . N take the right things at the wrong time .

.. Still have more . But i forget . Seee ! everything i forget alaaaaaammmmak otak ! Bole function betol`betol tak ? Benci tao . You sayang me , you function betol`betol . Haiiiya !

Dear , i keep having nightmares of us . Why ehk ? is there something wrong with us ?

" Sometimes we are meant to be in Love , but not meant to be together . Sometimes its the other way round . " ... Just hope what i dreamt bad about us wont come true .

Yesterday . Very damn Funny ehk Efah ! Take picture , dont noe got something very special to laugh out loud ! haha ! i don wanna tell her lahh , later she very embarressed . haha ! cannot forget aye efah ! the picture still with me hor ....

Girls Aloud & 8 images

Girls Aloud!

 Ka Ba Booooooooooooooom !

Know them ? Omg they are soooo GORGEOUS ! . They are The Saturdays . Meet them , I love them :D Especially the one wearing pink socks . Sooo cute and short ! I love their songs , i love their Bitches :)



" So when I speak listen , This is my decision . And you keep on messing up the words (oh oh) .
So when I speak listen cause you keep on pushing like I need permission to be heard.
Im gonna lift to lift it higher, Im gonna lift to lift it higher.
So when I speak listen this is my decision . And you keep on messing up the words. "




                 My feelings in 8 images
Heyhoooooooooo ... thats what im gonna do . expressing my feelings in just 5 images . Gorgeous aye ??

These are what im feeling ;

 

~ Sleepless !

I cant .. why ayeee ? Maybe im missing him . Hehe . Awww , i always ended up sleeping at 4 to 5+ am in the morning . Pffft , mind as well dont sleep wait until morning at 6 rite ? But while got some sleep at that time , I keep dreaming of Him . Of course dreaming of him soooo sweet . After i dream ended up waking with a wide smile . Haha aku shiok sendiri dngan mimpi aku ! Well of course , whos not blushing dreaming of with him with sweet moments ??! seriously i miss him soo much !

~ I Miss You !

I miss you i miss you i miss you ! Pls come back fast and quick or should i say , Visit you there ?! Tehee ! cant wait to visit him lahh , if i can get through that security .. Hmm , seriously darling , im gonna visit yaahh ! Here i come Queenstown Remand Prison ! Wooohooo ...

~ Piss Off Girl !

" I noe you're related to HIM , but please HES MINE . Reliazed That . I dont noe , maybe your one of his EX . and i get that . Everytime theres a post about Him , i dont mind you liking it . So what , you noe him before i noes . But really , everytime i saw you 0n9 , You piss me off . I dont noe what ur up to , But im putting my eyes on you . I not gonna do anything to ya , do whatever you wan , i dont give a damn . You may look you're prettier than me , seeing your tagged pics he's hugging you .. omg damn pissed off ! Whats past is past alrite , i dont wanna find fights and wars , but to preventing that , dont ever let me find out somethings went wrong between you n him . "

~ I Love You !

Teehee , of course i Love Ya ! Everyday , thinking of you boy , makes me blushes out of nowhere . Tahaha !

~ Hug Pls ?

I miss hugging ya ! , When you came back .. i wont hesitate .. just ran to you , and hug . Dont matter where , cause its a looooong time we never see each other .

~ Tired of loneliness !

Yeah , im tired of being alone . I want you back !

 
~ Close my eyes , all i can see is You .

Yeah , everytime i close my eyes , he's there . I thought it was really a reality  , but i came to a wake up . Just a dream . Well , if only he's here with me , i wouldnt have to wake up with my eyes filled with tears . Sometimes i close my eyes , i dreamt that we walk across each other , but we never knew each other but there was Love between us . Strange aye , but scary .. Cause loving some really deep but dreamt you never met him , is seriously the saddest things i ever dream . Cause it means that we are meant to be in Love , but not meant to be together . I hope we are not that kind . I hope we are not stuck . And i hope we are going on further smoothly .

~  My Cravings of You

I miss those times lahhh , the times i sleep with you , you rubs my cheeks when i lean on you , you give me No-Reason Kisses and hugs , when i test you if you knows hold to hold hands , you sing me songs like Fifteen cause its my first time kisses , I told you to wait one month bcoz ................ , you told me not to leave you even if you're gone for a long time , you treat me like a princess , you told me you want to propose me , we challenge playing games , you disturb me until im mad , you made my day brighten when im sad , you always wanted me by your side , you want to meet me cause you miss me , you love biting my tongue ... and soooo much ..

 And thats what im feeling missed missed missed . Dont noe how long is this gonna end .