Its been 1year and a half of living in a miserable life ..Cant you see people ? everyday , i just kept staring and thinking . Why cant i have peace ??? all i can think is my life is full of pain and loneliness .
Is it time to say Goodbye ? Must i have no friends...
Cause im all left alone in the dark .
Asal dngn aku ? Salah ke aku ? .. it's killing me inside . People out there who thinks what i pose it all seems emo , you dont noe what im going through rite now . you'll never noe . My heart is going through all the pain , strugglings , kilings , cryings , abandons , alone . I cant let my whole feelings to you , even my bestfriends . I felt i no longer had friends nor bestfriends . I felt it all day . No one to understand my feelings deeply , everyone making me more stresser , went home alone everyday , everyone left me alone . What happened to my happiness ? all i do is going through the tears and loneliness . I nvr get to feel how extremely happy this term . People are making my life difficult . Why cant i have the happiness back ? Why am i having all the tears ? Why cant i live in peace ? Why cant i enjoy life eventhough life is only once to feel ? All those bad times , makes me stuck in life . I cant go on like this . Im starting to lose my friends , the love i gave , the effort i put in , the help i gave ... its like as if it just a dream . why ? why is it happening to me ? i cant go on . i cant go on giving a fake smile , a fake laugh , a fake life , a fake happiness , fake actions , and a fake feelings . No one is to takecare of me , take concern of ... everytime i share my feelings to one of my bestfriends .. they will just answer me "LOL" i do want to do this everyone . i don wanna . Its not worth it . The only question a ask to myself , " Should i say goodbye ? to all my friends and bestfriends .. should i ? " . Now , my life has no one to gave me the support to stand and live . im too weak to stand , to breathe , to live . tears kept rolling down my cheeks . Im left all alone . No one to love . and No one to enjoy . Could this be my end of happiness .......
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