Mom , pleaseeee just ONCE SUPPORT me in whatever i do . Yknow it seriously hurts whatever i do , you always complain alot . I really wanna buy that Sony NEX Camera .. But you say dont waste my money . Mum , dont you understand about these things .. I wanna buy that camera yknow why ? Cause i wanna keep ALOOOT of memories . If you dont want that camera ... fine . BUT i need it . You dont need pictures , BUT everyone need memories . Everything i do , YOU ALWAYS COMPLAIN . I know my myself , i know how to keep my future in line . Its just that i need your help , BUT you always werent there for me . Todaaay i just bought a new dress cost $15 . I showed to you .. and all you could say is " mmmm .. dont waste your money can ? " WTF ... mom , whatever you wanna buy , you always get it . Whatever i wanna buy , you complain . ERRRRRGH ! YOU NEVER UNDERSTAND ME !!!! NEVER BEFORE !!! >;(((

Because of YOU

This used to be one of my favourites song cause its damn meaning .
Im force to fake smiles , laughters and life . With my girlfreidns around , i have to cause i noe im strong to let everything hold on to where it belongs . But holding on to something or someone who would never do the same .. Its worthless my time and life . And its worthless my love to someone when that person goes with other person .. Its true , because of you ..  I just dont noe how to let anyone else in my heart . I dont noe . U were there when we're still functioning .. U are always there when i told u i tattooed u there . U we're always there when i needed u most ..
But time change and people change .. Promises are meant to be broken . Words are never meant to be said and kept . Feelings are to fade or stay more stronger . But whatever the world still spinning , Life has to go on .Because of you , i find it hard to trust anybody around me .. You were there when i said im lacking of trust to you . But the things that you do , it doesnt proves me anything that you're worth my time , my heart , my trust , my everything ... my soul . U didnt .
Because of you , im afraid . Im afraid to move on . Im afraid cause when i've forgotten you , you came crossing my mind all of a sudden . Im afraid to love someone again . IM TOO AFRAID .

Broken Hearted Girl .

How i wish .
How i wish i could explain everything , make you look me in the eyes and visualise through how much pain im going through without you .
How i wish you could observe my actions everyday watching me enduring this pain ..
Cause im starting to miss u . I miss everything all about us .
I wait and waited for this just one message from you .. once it did , My frown fades away and curves up widely. Well , it didnt .
I cry memorising back our memories . I cry when you said you let me go . I cry when i watch you fade and with someone else . I cry observing you spend your life with someone better happily . I cry you spent the whole day with her . Most importantly , I cry watching our strongest love fades away easily ;(
I may seem so strong on the outside . But in my heart , Its super duper pain . Feels like my heart shattered into a million pieces .
Everytime we fight , we always have our ways to settle it in a nice way . Like as if we fight over a small thing but we end it like a sudden .
I miss those times . I miss US . I miss the things we told each other and didnt realize we have sooo much in common . But what happens now , tells me that we're meant to be together but not mean to fall in Love .

Well what can i say ..
Im not gorgeous , pretty , beautiful , good enough and perfectly perfect for someone like you .
You deserve a better ME .

How i wish SHE is ME

I wish I made YOU laugh like she did . I wish I made YOU love me like she did .
I wish I made YOU smile like she did . I wish I made YOU mine like she did .
How i wish I could steal YOU away from her . I wish I could steal YOUR heart & Your love away .
That should be ME , holding your hands . That should be ME , making you laugh . That should be ME , feeling your kiss . That should be ME , getting your huggys . That should be ME , being by yourside when you need me .
How i wish I was HER .

Not that im being soo Emo or what , But yeah this is where i let out my feelings . True feelings where ppl wont understand mostly .

9May2011 > Best Day Ever

Beeeeeest Day yaaaaaaw !

The only day i get to smile the whole day and hangout with my girlfriends .
Suhaida , Shariffah , Syahierah , Hawa , Fateen , Salihin & Hairi . Thankyou all ;)
You made me smile endlessly . Not a single frown on that day . Teeehee . LOVE YA ALL .
Went Woodlands Waterfront with my girlfriends .. we took ALOT of pics and ALOT of fun together .
HELL YEAH ! Panas semacam ! 3 hari cuace bahang . Switch on 2 kipas kt depan muke pon tak cukop yaaaw ! Haha kae aku gyler -.-"
After that went to JP together , meet my two BROTHERLURPS TERINDUUU ! Salihin n Hairi ! Alaaaa kalao lah ade firdaus ( Flourine ) n Alfiyan .. Lagy bertambah gerekx yawww ..
Kae brotherlurp baru dtng dh ajak nk tngok wayang . Chyeeeaah ! mmg nk tngok Fast & Furious 5 pon .. tapy tk jady yawww . Semua tngah pokai sia ! Hahaha kae then gy lepak kat satu blok blakang JP .
Then Fiq txt me , suroh cao dari sane nk jmpe die . Haiiish malu nye aku :> dngan dress aku yg lagy bertambah sexy  . Woaaaah ! Smpai senget !
Then take 174 gy jmpe Fiq kat BB blok 249 lepaaaak ! kae kite due je .
Then die asyiik make me jealous tao .
TKNK MENGAKU YG U DAH ADE SCANDAL . TKYAH NK TUTOP2 KAN CERITE U NGAN DIE KAY .
Kae smbil lepaaaaak , Otp wit Afiz . Kiwaaaaak !
Suare die HOT SMCM SIA . aku otp pon bole cair dngar suare die HAHA sorry afiz !
But im telling u the fact ! ur suare hot n laen . I LIKE !
Kae my time with Fiq dh over , tkde pape interesting -.-" Jmpe stakat rindu each other yawww.
Balek hp mati tk dpt dngar lagu dlm bus 985 :(
Balek rumah , gy charge hp msg Fiq yg i dh smpai umah . Dhen tibe2 my hp berlambak ngan new messages dari Afiz , Eera n mama :\ Woaaah nk reply smue pon tngah pening rabak dhen afiz back up . Alaaaa bih merajok . Haha ! Eera txt me cause she feels very down . Chillax eera ! if u wan meet up then tell me .. anything just story telling yaw .. Dhen i give u hug kae .
Fiq suroh on9 .. Alaaamak , kaki dh lengoh dari woodlands waterfront .. malas nk bngon dari katil yawww . Just otp with hym lahh . Alaaaaa i love the part we say byebye tk abes2 punye case . Haiyoooo i miss tat .. Sooo cute of hym :>
then dh letak . APE LAGY ! GY TIDO MCM BABI AHH HAHA .
kae , just now in 985 bus terserempak ngan huda n zahwa . lupe nk wish  huda :(
Happy Birthday Huda & Fazeera ! Sweet 16 ke pe
. But dont worry my wan tk lame lagy dh 16 yawww ! Haha check2 apiz nk bwk me gy mane ehk .. Hmmmm
Kae tats all .. Byebye yawww !

Love ya peeps . Muaaaaaahcksxz !

Well i have soemthing to say to Fiq , my Handsome bunny :)
You made me see whats love's fillings is .
Never thought that US will be like this
U made me learn what relationships are formed
Like the sun in the sky and the ocean in the horizone.
You dried my cheeks away by my tears
You hugged me and say u'll never leave me in fear
i'd ensure u'll never make me live in heartbrokens
Until when i open my eyes and im suffering of YOU endurance .
I ly in bed with my lips curves up
Never will i forget this day of my entire life
from my frown to a lovely smile ,
Thankyou and i love you :)

Kae niy i sumpah from the bottom of my heart , i buat niyy sendiri . Bkan dari internet -.-"
Kaekae byebye :)

Im sorry

IDK IDK IDK IDK IDK IDK IDK !
Im sorry fiq , IDK . We otp n u said sweet things .. it didnt really touched my heart .
As if all my trust to u are really fading away completely .
I know deeeeeeeep down my heart , i still want u and i really love u soo much .. But everything turned out wrong .
I tried finding my way in my heart to still bring back the love i use to love u , but end up im lost . Im lost in my own heart fiq . After we break up , my love for u change completely and all my trust fade slowly . As if since u left me , my heart was replace from love to heartbroken and from trust to WHATEVER . Im soo sorry fiq , i still love u , i still want u , i still need u , i just cant find a way to express my Love . I need time . I need my time to be alone .
I may be moving on rite now , but my heart cant accept the fact . I know u promise me ALOT that u will come back someday .. I believe that . My heart is full of Heartbroken and i cant fight it .. Its ........ SOO STRONG ;( i cant help crying when im too quiet .
When we otp also , im not like i used too be . I usually happy when we get to talk otp and spent each time fighting about small matter but now , whatever u said .. my heart is pushing all ur words away n im like " yeah , okae , hmm , okae can " .
If u really love me , capture my heart again like u used to . Im losing u and im lost .
Pls , dont go breaking my heart slowly . IM TOO WEAK TO FACE IT .

Whatever it is Fiq , dont leave me undone . I'll find my way to love u again like i used to. Remember i always look in your eyes every minute , i was too scared that someday i will never see u again . And it did happen . Whatever happens , memories are the only ones i can recall back n mind .
Thanku for being there for me in this 7 months of our relationship . Thanku ! i appreciate what u had done for me all this while . Thanku fer the memories we made together each time . 13102010 ♥
You'll always be in my heart . Thanku Hunney Bunney :)

- Huda , Your shorty Busted :)

Yeah Baby ! Im Moving ON :D

I cant breathe w/o U

Hey !
Long time never update my bloggy Teehee ..
Haisssh IDK why but im full of complicated things rite now in my life .
What should i do now ? Where should i go ? Whats my decision nest ? WHAT IF ? ;(
But thansk to Shariffah , Suhaida , Syahierah & Hawa .. Thanks to them . They are leading me to the right path back . They're willing to help me and sacrifice they efforts for me . Thankyou Girls !
U girls are the BEST AMAZING GIRLFRIENDS I EVER HAD . & Thank you for accepting me for who i am :)

And as for Shafiq , I have something to say . ALOT .
Sorry Dear , i didnt speak up the truth . Somethings are just not meant to be say from own mouth .  It may hurt alot . Dear , i dont know wat to say . Its not been fair for us .. & for me especially . First , about my Fb Password . I trust u , i gave my password to u . To prove that i didnt go flirting arnd and go inboxing with other guys behind ur back . I did , i trust u . But what did u say to me whenever i ask fer ur password ? .. U gave me excuse lahh ..
Yknow i trust you 100 % but now since ur not being fair , my trust is decreasing . And as also fer handphones n messages , u didnt EVEN LET ME hold ur phone . Rememeber sunday , we meet ? u contct that pearline wat . Dont think i didnt see u smiling at her msg .. u didnt even know im hurt inside . Thats why i sit other place alone cause it seems that she is more important that me ;( & ur telling me that u are happy with other girls compared to me ..
Second , where did your sweet words go to ? to other girls ? What happened ?
I told u before that i miss seeing u posting sweet phrases on both our walls , yeah u did post .. but why a sudden stop ?
So ur telling me that ur words HANYA SEMENTARE SAJE ? Ur giving me that signal of ur words are nothing and why did i believe in it ?
Oh my , whats happening to u dear ? u've change alot ;( pls , im losing trust on u ..
Third , Y do u always beat me up ? i know ur just playing arnd .. punch me here n there . But ur ways of doing it hurts me ALOT TIMES HARDER .
i admit dear , sometimes in front of my friends u did it . yeah i took it as if ur playing .. but the truth my friends told me this " Huda , asl kau yg merane niyy ? asl lelaki kau pukol kau gytu .. yknow its not nice a boy even a boyfriend beat u even if hes just joking arnd . If he cares for u and loves u soo much , he wouldnt have done tat . He would try his very best to takecare of you even if u hurt abit . aku tknk tngok kwn aku merane mcm niyy , aku yg lagy sedih n kesian kat kau .. "
u tawu i ckp ape ? " biarlahh , aku tk kesahh .. biar aku merane krane die sbb aku btol2 cinte kan die . aku kuat .. walaoupon it hurts me a thousand times .. " ....

Dear , we may have made it through till almost 7 months of our relationship . But ... what for going through a long distance relationship if one of us is not even happy inside our own heart and one of us is suffering inside ? Dear , i dont care how long we made through , but as long as we spent and cherish our moments truely is the best memories i can keep :) if only we look closer at our mistakes , we can spent more time together . But whats there i can get ? Im losing trust on you dear .. IM SOO SORRY ;( But no matter how deep im hurt and how long im being hurt is , I'LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU .

Dear , i feel like im losing u .  Everytime i close my eyes now , i can see you happy with other girls . I just cant help it .. Dear , there's still other ppl who mostly care for me . Idk , they're the ones who made me smile endlessly . Made me cry for joy . Gave me happiness bit by bit . Show me the meaning of sister love .
I still love u no matter what .. i just dont wanna lose my love ones again & all is left with me is just memories  .. Im sorry ;(
I MISS U ;(

Teardrops

I never wanted this . I never want this in my life before .
Why is everyone treating me wrong ?
U guys wanna see my sad everyday is it ?
Haissssh , I just dont noe what to do . Im full of hurt and pain

Luckily , i have my buddy beside me :) Afiz . He gave me support in what ever i did , and he's the only one who can tell that my eyes is full of problems and questionsmarks . Thankyou soo much Buddy :)

♥

Weeeee ~
Happy :D today go out with my Boifyeeen to Queensway . Alaaaaaa atlast kluar same2 jugak . I had fun :)
Soo today he bought his favourite blue colour Zippo Lighter , Blue laces n Mp4 Cable .
Ohhh ohhh , n he tell me that he wanna buy me a neclace n wants me too wear it . Awwwwww , soo sweet ♥ . That necklace he showed me , was actually the necklace i wanna buy for him for our 3 monthsary gift .. But if i give step he pkai jek .. Tak pernah nmpak die necklace pon . Hmm Tkpe lahh . Atleast there's something for me that will last forever :) Hehe.
We were walking fer like 4-5 rounds around Queenstown just to see " That thing " . Okae i was SOOO DAMN PAISEY when he was telling me about his father and the thing he holds . He doesnt know he wants to buy ar not . HAHA soo kekek of him .. But still cute :)
Up to u lahh Hunney Bunny wanna buy or not .. I anything hehe .
Next time go out again ehk Hunney , I love spending my time with u ♥Love ya soo much lahhh :D

Love ,
Huda♥
Ur Shorty Bastard .

Something about ♥

OMG , i cant believe i just cried hard just because i miss my damn beloved cat , Kiko . I miss him soo much ;( Where could he be now ? Why did you run away kiko ?
I miss those times with you kiko . You hug me when im sleeping in my room alone , You meowed hard at me just because you want me to feed you , you manje2 at me when im bored , you revenge me when i disturb you nonstop , even if you come back home with bruises and scars ; you never failed to come to me and make me heal you even if the scars hurt you alot . Damn kiko , i miss those times .. I MISS YOU . You never failed to make me smile again when i had a hard time . Even if i shouted hard at you , you still look at me , give me that step cute face and meowed . I miss your soul when you were sleeping on my bed . You were once patience cat . Even if i cant understand your language , But you are telling me you wanted something from me . I miss you coming running to me when i come back home from school . You're one such ordinary cat :) AWWWW , soo swite of you kiko . You were my bestest pet cat kiko . Your my one fan bestfriend ;) where ever you might be now , i'd pray that you will be okay . Mostly , come back if you still remember your true home and your beloved owner . I miss you bestfriend . Come back to my arms ..pls ?

Hunney Bunney ; Go rest kay . Takecares bby ! Love ya ♥


Kay , Exams are just around the corner . And im attending the night study from nxt week onwards . Have to study more harder now . hehehe :)

♥

Im getting worried each day past by . Soo worried .
My chest is getting more hurtful than last week . Even more painful ;(
I dont know why . I did nothing to it .
Well i cried thinking that i need a operation . OMG i cried soo tak terhenti-henti .. It feels like as if i sitting down , laying or just standing , i can feel the hurt inside . Describe the pain ? Like , someone stab u with a knife through your heart . Thats the pain .
I just dont know how am i going to endure the pain everyday i go to school .
I feel soo abnormal . The pain makes me sooo weak . Haiisssh . I dont know what to say . Oh no .. im crying bcoz of the pain ! Sial lah what  telah happen to me ? Im soo scared . I feel like dying soon ;(


Ohh and anywaes ,
Happy 6 monthsary to my Dearest Prince Charming . I love him soooo much . Hehehe .

He's mine pls

Aku tawu lah mataey aku Handsome , Hot , Cute , Sapao , ... U noe lyke "WTF HES GORGEOUS!" kankankan?
Hehehe i think tat way too :D
Tapy asl ehk bnyk2 jantan pt dunia niy , korng pilih mataey aku ? Tak nampak ke kat Facebook " In a Relationship with NurulHuda Abdullah " ?
Potek ehk korng ? Lagy2 tu pompuan yg selalu kol die . Mintak kene sound ehk . Jgn sampai darah gua up ayee . Step takde lagy jantan kat luar lebih baik dari die jek ..  Eeeeeeee sedar sikit ye .
OKay Can . kekek sia . HAHAHAHAHA !
Fiq : U noe i noe what happen today ayee . Hahahaha perot sampai nk meletop !
Hahahaha . Kite nk balek then fiq hantar me at bus stop . Yelah cuace tngah hujan lebat tady . Soo we jln i saw 2 bangladesh tngah lari nk masok blok . Tibe2 one of the bangla jatoh keblakang . Kiwaaaak soo kekek . Conferm jatoh bergegar sia block . Hahaha ! dah tu kite ketawe ade satu budak naek skooter bih terslide kat luar lift . Then barang bdak kecik niy melayang kat hujan . Hahahaha !
One more , after i take bus fiq msg me say that die nmpak satu makcik niy slip tapy tak jatoh . Hahahaha i laugh sendiri kat dlm bus . Kay perot nk meletop soo saket ketawe from just now .
Haiish ape dah jady dah nyari . Sway nk mamps !
okay can ! haha

Kay i lOVE MY BOYFRIEND VBERY MUCH . I DONT WANNA REPLACE HIM PLS .
HE'S MINEY MINE ! :D

To a certain extent ..

Whats wrong wit u ?
So ur telling me that "that" rumour u heard is true ah ? WTF , have u EVER seen me going out with other guys ? What makes u think that I HAVE THE HEART TO PLAY UR FEELINGS BEHIND UR BACK ? This is what u say u trust me ? Sorry baby , for me i still think that u dont trust me 100% .
We have done this before . Dilah . She brainswash me just because of u . She want us to go our own separate ways right ? But atleast , I still have half of my heart to trust u that u didnt go with her . I STILL TRUST U . And now whereby another rumour is approacing , did u did the same as me ? Oups soo u called me last night , and ask whether its true i didnt go out with other guys . I can only say this SUMPAH DEMI ALLAH , DEPAN QURAN , SAKSI SELURUH DUNIA , DEPAN U , I BERSUMPAH I TAK KELUAR NGAN JANTAN LAEN . fair now ? puas hati ?
Seriously u get me to say that , it totally hurts me alot . DEEPLY . Totally im pushing u aside man ..
Im soo damn hurt just because of u . Do u noe what its like to be hurt and cry because u've been strong for too long ? Did u ?
Straight forward , did u realize ur the only one who made me cry ? yeah its true . dear , i've been patience for soo long . Dont make me lost hope of trusting anymore . Even now , u made my happiness fade away slowly ;((
Sorry to say this , even if i didnt see u like for 3 weeks or more , I dont have the heart to play such things behind ur back . but even if u said that " that " rumour is true , i cant do anything . Its ur choice u wanna believe or not . I'll just sit back and relax and study hard for my exams are coming . U've let me down .
U LET ME DOWN COMPLETELY . ;((

Ouhhya , sedihsedih gyny pon ... Well i love my bestfriend alot . POTASSIUM ! haha . Love ya as my bestfriend lahh . Thanks fer cheering me up . U nvr failed to make me smile again ;)
Thanku potassium , thanku for your concern towards me . Appreciate it alotz !
You were there when i needed u most and you made my day . Even if you hurt my feelings last time ,
i've forgiven you every bit . I shared my problems to you , so do you .. Well , ur one of my greatest bestfriend in the whole wide world . My feelings are true . Thankyou very much , Hope to see you happy again .. Stay strong always !
Love ,
Huda

Im away , but my heart is close to u

Currently doing malay composition .

Atlast i meet my Hunney Bunney ! hehehe . Misss him soo damn much lehhh .
Okae , txting with Eera . Alaaaa so sad for her .

Eera <3

Hey dear , cheer up kaes . Dont worry just maybe your true love isnt the time now to be found . Wait fer love kae ? Just stay positive . I wanna see u smile , enjoying life , make new memories , forget the past and laughing with your close friends . Next time , i ajak u keluar kae ??  We have fun together . Just keep txting me whenever u are down , am always there for u . See ya nxt time ,, cheer up .. ITS NOT THE END OF LIFE BABE , EVEN ITS NOT THE END OF YOUR LOVE LIFE :)

To : Ierah Tinee , Shariffah n Eiida <3

Im soo sorry to my Girlfriends . I cant be with you girls for this time . Im rushing my studies . Hope u understand kae .. Alot of work to be done . After school straight i cant meet ya .. Im staying back alittle while . Being with u girls is the best ! Just maybe its not the right time now for me to have fun .. Dont worry i wont leave from u girls . Im just catching up with my studies even more harder this time . After exams we have fun okae ?? I LOVE BEING WITH U GIRLS .. IM GONNA MISS THE FUN . Starting from now , im going school early like i used to , and sit alone at the canteen waiting for u girls . I wont fade away .. Im just having a time out . See ya in school .. ouh n i wont be onlining until exams finish . See ya around in school !

HudaAbdullah .Love ,

Be with you

Omg i was hearing this song when i was texting with my boyfriend .
Got caught up the lyrics really make me awake . The lyrics is the same as our situation .
Okae wow wow wow ! i love this song sooo much .

Really nobody wanna see us together even my uncle wanna break us apart , but no matter what .. we're still in one piece .
I just love my prince charming soooo much ! <3


"And no one knows why I'm into you
'Cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in our shoes"
Cause you people out there doesnt know how it feels to be in our situation . You'd never know true love . If you people understands us , then why is there a fuss about it ? Scared of losing me because i go with him ?

fml

Alaaaaaaa i miss my boyfriend soo much laa . Why his computer rosaak ?
Sooo bored die tkde . Haaaaissh .
Nak msg sape seyyy ? Hmmm sungguuuuuuuuuh mendaak .
Asl aku rase rimas niyy ? Malas nk buat kerje rumahh , malas nk buat kerje skolahh . mcm nk tidoooo jek .
FML .

Ahh diam ah kau diam ahhh . BISING SIA . MULOT TAKTAWU TUTOP KE SKALI SKALE .
dah tk bagy aku duet untk madrasah . Kebulor aku .
Isssssh , Aku nak MIA lahhh . sudahh lahh kau .
Pusing aku kau dibuatnye . TAK TENTERAM HIDOP AKU MCM NIYY >:(

I wanna love somebody like you

" What am i suppose to do when the best part of me is always you ? " - The Script

just one question ..

What happens when one girl who really loves her boyfriend soo much is in a relationship , suddenly there's this ONE BOY who that girl cant get rid of her life even abit ? Even now she is in a relationship ?
Like her ex is still stuck in her heart when she is still in a relationship ?

Wow this question is soo damn curious ...
i wanna found out lehhh .
Better ask some experienced girls .

Whats YOUR problem ?

Ehk , kau nak ape lagy dari aku ah ? kau nak brainwash aku lagy ? LOL sorry i dont give a damn shit about wat ur going to say . Ape hypnotize aku then aku percaye , blahh lah ! Ape lagy smpai kau nk mintak nombor aku bih nak step " i really need to talk to u " . WTF ? kau nak ckp bkan2 psl shafiq ? Ckp sebnyk2 kaau nak kae , aku cume nak dengar n nak tawu brape besar kau peyy world park kau . Kau maybe tua dari aku , lawa dari aku .. tapy dont take advantage of me . Takde jantan laen pe sial kau nak rampas ? Mataey aku jugak kau nak kebas ? Aku tawu lahh die hot , cute , handsome  . Tapy tak tawu pikir ke die dah ade mataey ? Saje mulot kau berjalan stakat nak buat aku tinggalkan shafiq ? UNTOK KAU ? sorry ah babe sedar sikit ye . Kau dah kwn ngan shafiq buat hal kawan ah sial . Kau siape nak panggil mataey aku SAYANG ? Kau nak jumpe aku , silekan ah . Gua tak heran ah ape lu mau bobal . Jgn smpai tangan aku melayang kat muke kau . Klau kau nak bobal psl shafiq , slow talk ngan gua . klau tangan kau melayang , tngan gua pon melayang ehk . Tengok sape yg bersalah , kau atao Shafiq . Tapy pendapat aku , hati aku lagy percaye shafiq dari kau .

Sayaaaaang , sorry i tk msg atao kol tao . Pp8 maseh low . I tngah btol2 cube untk tepi kan mase i untk u . Tapy this week tak bole . Maybe i tkleh jumpe u for 3 weeks . Sorry kae . Kan i dah ckp , i mmg tknak lepaskan u tapy i terpakse . I taknak u risau pasal i bile i dah lame tak jumpe u . N i taknak pikir bkan2 bile kite tak jumpe . But sbbkan u btol2 taknak , then jgn mrh i klao i tak kol atao msg .

Asl ehk kau peyy bodoh sngat ahh ?? Kesian aku tngok TIMER kau tuu . Psl kau , Riyaaah menanges kerane kau . N psl kau jugak , die snggop slash tngah die dngan name kau . Walaopon die timer kau , Pikir aku suke tngok pompuan innocent mcm riyahh diperbodohkan oleh kau ? Pikir aku suke tngok pompuan kene bodoh oleh jantan sendiri ? Ape jantan keparat sia kau ? CB  die sanggop dtng dari pasir ris ke bukit batok , abih kite tnggu kau dtng mcm orng cb dudok kt rc , cari kau satu bb check2 kau paitao . sialan peyy jantan keparat . Kecot pe sial bobal ngan timer sendiri face 2 face ? Bih kau maseh leyyy tnyer siape suhaida dngan ... CB msg mcm tak puas hati face 2 face ape peyy kecot sia kau ? Mmg suhaida ngan riyahh , aku , ierah , indra ngan dibo . Abih kau nak buat ape ? rembat kite satu2 ? Sundal tngan ngan kaki kau gerak aku make sure kaki aku melayang pat konek kecot kau . Pikir aku tk brani ngan lelaki sundal mcm kau ? silekan kau gerak dulu . Skrng niy aku 100% tak puas hati ngan kau . Riyaahh mintak break kau tknk accept bih apesal gy maen timer kan bodoh . Kau mmg sundal nbcb SWEET TALKER MOTHER FCUKER .  Brambos kau dari hidop suhaida . Aku tknk pandang muke kau lagy . Jgn smpai aku masok campor hal kau ngan suhaida .

Tady Sports day , tak buat ape . Stakat jerit sane jerit sini . Dudok diam2 kat tempat dudok , dngar lagu , minom , jln sane jln sini . Haaaish mcm tkde life gytu . Bih aku dudok diam hawa diri tunggu suhaida , ierah ngan efah dtng . dorng gy support kat dpan2 seyy . BIH PSL AIMAN KIPAS ANGIN AKU HILANG . soyyal tu bdak . DAH BAGOS AKU BAWAK DUE KIPAS UNTOK AKU NGAN KWN SHARE . BKAN PASS2 KAT ORNG BIH HILANG TIBE2 .BIH KIPAS ANGIN YG AKU BAGY IERAH SATU SIDE DAH PECAH . Puki tiang .
Bih gy Vivo lepas tu sbb takde pape nak buat . Gy mcm2 kedai baju tngok harge . Then lepak kat stadium kejap baring2 . Bobal psl mataey . Tngah bobal , tibe2 dpt msg dari Fiq . Awwwww he really brings a wide smile to my face .talking psl Shafiq , Parvhen n Shah . Hmmmmmmm lagy nothing to do then balek . Tido dlm bus . Haha penaaaaaaaaat sheeey :<
Then jln2 pat Lot 1 ngan ierah n hawa . HAWA AKU SERIOUSLY TAK KENAL KAU . KAU MALUKAN AKU DPN PUBLIC SIAL . KAU KENE JUGAK DARI AKU . SATU HARI AKU KENE BULLY DARI KAU . MAKE SURE AKU BUAT YG SAME KAT KAU . KAU JAGE JE HAWA . GILE PEYY ORNG . HAHA

Okae , i miss my boyfriend alot . atlast dpt kol die jugak :) hehe happy !
One thing missing , I NEED A HUG :<
Can i pweeeeeeaaaaaash ?
*sobsob

Can i just PLS be my old self again ? Im miss being happy . I miss all the hard laughters .
I MISS BEING ME WHEN IM SINGLE );

Just somebody knows me

I told them . I told YOU before .
NO COULD UNDERSTAND ME & MY HEART .
If you say you could , they you're definitely wrong .Im  a person people hardly understands .
Ppl just say anything they want even jokes . But yknow , If that somebody knows me very well ,
He or she would never fail to make my heart no hurts and scars . Not even one time .
I can be very sensetive , TOO sensetive or Not even .Im just a human but having a very different heart from others . Even the slightest jokes , i could take it to heart . Im sorry this is how i am . My hearts tooo fragile . I cant take pain mostly .

To Suhaida , Ierah , Efah , Hanis and Apiz ,
Thankyou for being there for me when i needed you most .You guys never fail to make me smile and filled with laughters . You guys really never give up on me . I love you guys the most <3 Lovee ya .

Monkey D. Luffy

Haha !
Just watch One Piece . and edits my blog . Haissssh got nothing much to do .
See ya later . Off to Study ! Byebye :>

Stay close pls

OMG he's going tomorrow ?? Hmmmm . Pls pls PLS dont let him go in .
If he goes in , i just dont noe how my life would be without him .
Going to school not getting txt msges from him ,
Gdmorning or night msges ,
No late night calls ,
No hugs n kisses ,
No meeting up until late nights ,
No holding hands ,
n more more lahhh .
Hmmm when he ask me if im waiting for him or not .. I went blank .
Yes or no ??
Think it all over , if he goes in .. Im willing to wait n im ready :)
Im ready to be solo for a while he's gone . If i can wait him for 7 weeks ,
why cant i wait longer ? , even if it takes alot of tears missing him .. still i will be there to wait him comes back .
If i could , i wont wanna let him go eventhough he's gone for months or years .
Of course alot of challenges will strt coming to me , but no matter what happens to me ,
i wouldnt care and my heart will always be with him .
The time he went in last year , yeah i cried alot . Everyday nonstop sitting in front of the comp waiting for him to online .
Hmm . Cause that time i wasnt ready to be solo without him . All i ever think was " am i having a break session with him since he's gone ? it feels like we're breaking down .. " Thats me .
If he's going in , yeah he'll always in my dreams :) Missing him soo much .
Dear , if you goes in , dont worry i keep my promise . I'll study even more harder now . but yeah when you comes back someday .. alot of differences in me . You may not know . But no matter how my looks or attitude changes from good to bad or bad to good ( i wont be worse like a bitch ) , still my heart is on you . I will be waiting for your return someday . I'll pray harder just for you . ;)

But if he isnt , then i'll be more happier than i couldnt imagine :)

Bestfriends :)

Suhaida ;
Why the sudden message ? Why are you saying sorry ?
It doesnt matter suhaida . There's not a need to say sorry or thankyou .
Even if someone stole you away from me or us , my concerns are still there for you .
Remember the past , soo hurtful yet memorable .. We may not be like we used to last time .
Having fun together , laughing like bitches in school , study together and we made new memories everyday .
But no matter what , im still there for you . Even if im mad or upset about you , still there will be one time i will forgive you all your mistakes . Just so you know , there will always be one time you will far away from me and miss our 'us' . Remember i gave you my shoulder to cry on , i wipe your tears away with my bear hands , i tried my best to give you everything that you needed most , i gave you support in everything you do and mostly , i was always there beside you when you needed me . I gave my very best to be the best of you . and therefore , i not need any surprise or anything to reward my kindness . I dont need anything in return from you . I gave you all my trust to you and i hope you wouldnt let me down . Love yaaa Sista <3
-Huda

SuperMoon

FULL MOON :)
fULL MOON ! FULL MOON ! Awww this universe is just soo enchanting <3 hehe .
Okae . Every Full moon , i'd always wish fer something .
My wish ;
Supermoon , Let my love ones be united together like we used to . No more fightings and misunderstoods . Let this year be a sweet , memorable and fun year i could enjoy with em . Let them stay close to me and i dont wanna let em go out of my life forever .

Hehehe .

Heartbroken

Heylo . See the word above , thats what made me moody today . Yeah i went out with my friends . PHOTOSHOT . Went out with Syamir ( camera man ) , Siti Muliani ( his current model ) , Ierah ( model 2 ) and me ( kekek model ) . I was suppose to see my boify but everything got messed up and they wanted me to tag along . Its not that i put my boyfriend aside but , if he can NOT meet me and lepak with his friends in school , y cant i not meet him and go out with my friends ? Its not revenge , but maybe Karma . U did it to me , so just accept it happens to u back cause u did it . Of course i soo damn tired of fighting with him . I may have a little or even a huge amount of anger in me bcoz of him , but no matter wat .. i wanted him to msg me like we used to . I wanted him to call me like we otp always . I wanted things to be back normally . Dont noe wats happening to my life . Feels as if its breaking down inside .

Ynoe dear , I'd always wish u were the old u like last time . Just something hasnt been spoken yet . I felt as if im just being used . As if im not important anymore . To me , i dont care we've been gone through how many months already in our relationship , but its how we handle things together and made each other feel right and be treated right . But , i dont even see that now .  I dont wanna say more things in here . Im saving it . I've been observing u . Even if im mad or upset , I always still wanted u to message me or call me . I dont care if we are fighting or not . I dont care how angry or upset i am to you . But still , i wanted things to go normally and act nothing is happening between us . i hate fighting my boyfriend . I JUST HATE FIGHTING . Due to tis matter , i think i need time to chill . Everything is rushing to me . Everything blames me . Im sorry but , i need time to think this all over again . All i can say Treat me right , before somebody else does .  Treat me right before someone comes to me and kidnap my heart . Ynoe , i gave you all my heart but you play it like a toy . Its seriously hurtful )); Give me time to cool down . I need some time to make me figured out  .

Whats the best of boy can do for a girl ?

4months of Love

Got nothing to do at home . Sooo sad i cant go out today

When i was 12 , i never knew what was Love meant . Didnt know how Love feels and how Love overcomes . To me , Love was suffer . All my 3 exs doesnt teach me what Love was . All was Bullshits and suck ass . But each year im going through a relationships , It tought me a bit by bit of it . Not from my exs i learn , but by the way i'm going through with them .

Since 13 October 2010 came ,
I met this one guy . I learn alot from him . All about Love . Yeah , most of me i gone through with him , was my First Time . But day by day , he teach me slowly 'til im fine with it . Sometimes im shy of him , but really months had past .. im really getting used to it slowly . He's the only one who knows my true attitude , true feelings my true heart :) He had been there for me for 4 months and everytime we met , is always a day to remember . Each day , he watch me does something he never saw before . Even if its just 4 months , alot of things we did together are soo memorable . Gone through all the pain & suffers , still we're just soo unbreakable . He knew alot about me and therefore still alot of things he doesnt know . Yknow , its really worth waiting for him for 7 weeks ,and what i most missed is ; met him and hug him like its out first time met . Almost cry infront of him but i hold on to it . I missed him spending our own time together side by side , missed seeing his laughters and smiles , missed the way we used to be , missed everything was fine . Now , Everything just went incredible . Day by day , it went stonger and deeper . But no one knows even us , how deep and strong it is . We can only tell , we love each other the same . The past was our History and it was a Legend . He told me things i would always wanna hear each day we met .He hugs me tight and close 'til im out of breath like his own teddy bear . Kiss me continuously made me full of fantasies . He tickles me 'til im going insane . Wrestle me like his own punching bag . Even if i does digusting things like burping loud , still he just love me the way i am .
Hehe Happy 4months Monthsary Dear . I'll always love u no matter what . Love sooooo much :D Meet ya soon ^^

Happy 4months Monthsary Dear ! Wishing us that we last 'til the end :D

i need someone to hug me close and tight & not letting me go 4eva n evaaa .. I just miss that person who always does this everytime we met :)

Punishment of Love

I didnt come to school today . Wake up late :(
Nvrmnd soo i meet up Shafiq .
Go lepak  with shafiq , elly , wan n shahrul .
Wahhh ! soo the kekek nak mamps .. Laugh til my stomach hurts alot .
Raining VERY HEAVILY at Bukit Batok  . Yahhh , and i started shivering when i saw lightinings .
Sooo seram :(
Then all cao except for me n Fiq .
then Sam come .
Haiyaaaaa go teman sam to police station .
Soo hungry , i blanje the boys Macdonalds .
Hehe 2 double cheeseburger each for me n Fiq and Milo for sam .
Got call from Mum , she went screaming in the phone .
In the bus , crying .. i don noe wht to do .
Got home call Fiq , and told him not to say a thing and hear what mum screams at me .
He heard everything mum says .

Got whacked by mum again . Twice .

Romeo

Made this my own . Took like 45 minutes . Haha of course i did it from my heart . Nothing is this passage tell me fake stories . This i made by my own feelings and sayings  :)

Romeo ,


This night is flawless , Dont you let it go .
Holding me close , watching the fireworks burst .
Kiss me under the sky , hold my hands tight , bring on the light ..
Let everything past go fading as it flies high .

Recapping back those days ,
Missed , tears , waiting , pain .
Waiting is the hardest part for me ,
asking my own heart ,
"Will he be there and still accompany me when he's release ?"
Cause all i ever felt was my world is breaking apart .
Im used to be shy ,
making everything go figured out if its alright
You made everything go strongerly
Everytime you laugh n smile , you gave me full fantasies

I missed you everynight and time
Thinking " would you always be mine ? "
Wishing every 11.11 pm
qouting somethings between u and me
You hug me like a teddy bear ,
wrestle me like your one punching bag
Saying sweet qoutes making me melts
calling me sweet cuddly names
Treat me like your only princess
and of course ,
Loving me like " you're the best thing thats ever been mine "

Nothings gonna change my love for You

Today got soo sleepy in Social Studies class . Sleepy much -.-
Meet Ierah at canteen cause ermmmm ...... ( cabot my History ASP )
Jun accompany me as she also waiting for the same person as me . Hear songs .. Did homeworks .
Meet ierah then got nothing to do we ..... KARAOKE !
We karaoke the One in a Million song by Neyo .
Ppl looking at us sia .. sooo malu malu .
Soo i got out of school meet my Boify .
IM BATHING MY OWN SWEAT -.-
then hehe meet Sam , Shahrul and Ierah .
OMG ! im having period same as her and the same day we started having it .
STOMACH CRAMPS all the way .
I just vomit soo not awesome .
Shahrul go , left me n boify .
Soooooooooo tired he ly onto me , im the one sleeping not him -.-
sooo change position . haha !
i sleep very the SHIOK . okae i lyke !
Sent him to wall and saw my EX .
Omg , soo the sombong maot .
kae got home . eat eat , dont stop ....
TIL I DROP . byebye ! :D
 
THATS ALL FOLKS .

Mum , stop threatening me by using violence towards me pls !
What ever happens to me , still you cant force me and no one can stop me .
Yeah , i noe his aunty say bad things abt him . He go Boys Home lahhh , what lahhh . But that doesnt mean he IS a bad person . So what ? Do i care ? Whats the past is already the past . That doesnt mean he's forever a Bad person . Everybody can change . So you mean that after boys home , they will still be doing bad things by now ? Sorry mum , you describe me the wrong person . Even if you told me that once you've got to noe that im still with him , i will still keep my relationship a long distance one . I wont ever give in my love . You've beaten me once , now you say you wanna beat me even more violence if you find out ? sorry mum , i rather be beaten up than be breaking my relationship . Dont you ever go through teenage life ? Mum , im just asking you to STOP USING YOUR VIOLENCE AGAINST ME . BEAT ME UP IF YOU WANT . BEAT ME UP 'TIL I DIE .

STOP CALLING ME NURUL );
i dont like seriously .
Pls dont call me NURUL . I'll cry cause it hurts too much );
Nurul is the name whom my late father used to call me last time . N now he's gone , ppl call me NURUL is like you guys are haunting my life as if my father is really calling me then .
IM SORRY . PPL CALL ME NURUL is my own personal Phobia . Only my family understands me , why certain ppl can call me nurul . Like my own family n cousins .
You guys out there call me NURUL , im sorry if i walk away . only CERTAIN PPL UNDERSTANDS ME .

Happy Belated Birthday my 4 years friendship buddy !
Sorry if i never attend your Private Birthday celebration on Saturday . Hehe
But still no matter what , you used to cheer me up when im down , you're always there if im in need , you tear away my tears when im down , you surprised me with anything you could n lastly , Thankyou for what you've done for me . Thankyou soo much buddy !
Anything happens , We're one buddy partners for 4 years . Once again Happy Birthday Buddy !
You ROCK ON !

Shopping Spree
All the CLOTHES at Bugis dont give me enough attention man ! Like seriously i dont even like one dress there . Except for the one i bought it just now . Woooow sooo pwettty ! the dress is like Marriage dress -.- But still i like it . Nevermind , still got some things to buy .

I miss my boyfriend soo much 'til i cried .
Pls let him be close to me .
I need him rite now .

Nothing but my heart

2 pm to 9 pm ; WORKING MCM BUDAK SIALAN KAT MACDONALDS . BROTHER2 AKU SMUE BUAT AKU SOT SMCM SIA . MAKIN KECOH SIA MACDONALDS HAIYAAAA .

Qoutations for my belove brothers :) Sedih pe . Kene bully ngan brother sendiri seyyy . Ishhh takpe still i love them <3 Stories during kerje . Kecoh smcm takbole angs !

Hairi :
HAHA sejak bile kau panggil aku syg sia ? stakat mintak satu cawan plain water nak menggatal . Naughty ehk kau . Sorry kau gy gym mane nk naik badan , tetap aku tinggi dari kau . MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA >:D andand sorry aku ketawe kan kau tady rabak2. HAHAHAHA kekek sia ! aku suke !

Danial :
Sialan bodoh kau ! Stop it ehk . Asyik panggil aku LG . Haiyaaaa kau kene jugak ngan aku satu hari nanti . Biar aku ketawe kan kau one whole day nonstop . suke bully aku aye ? REVENGE TIME .

Yan :
Kau nak aku buat ape sia ngan budak tu ? Pikir aku ade mase nak layan die punyer flirts sngat sorry . NOT MY TYPE .

Sal :
Kau maseh leh tanyer aku ape aku akan buat ? Kimaaaaak . Fikir lahh dlm2 .

Fir :
HEHE yay ! kite dah okae . I tot u would never want to talk to me anymore . Still u hav the courage to come to me and say " huda amcm ? " . I blush when you said it . Okae . Still i miss having fun with ya . Fun talking with ya in the crew room when having break together unexpected .


Ade satu budak aku nak post , sound rabak2 ah . Tapy taknak lahh . Die bukan brother aku pon . Sialan punyer jantan keparat . Jgn smpai tngan aku melayang pat muke kau ehk . Takpe lahh bagy kasihan ehk .

At facebook , sam got link tis one song to fiq . OMG i miss hearing that song . I heard it , i cry soo rabak2 seyy . Dunnoe y but maybe i just feel i get hurt alot deeply inside everyday . Just no one knows . Yeah , forcing laughters n faking smiles is all i ever did just to prevent ppl asking me if im okae .
I get hurt alot everyday n everytime . My heart is fragile . Even abit of pain , kills me soo hard n deeply . Now , the pain is making me suffering 'til im crying rite now . I just dunnoe y . Im sorry , im used to doing this way .

kae aku lapar .. nak gy mkn :(

What did cha' say Playgirl ?

Who are you calling my bestfriend a SLUT ?
Tak terfikir ke kalau orng panggil kau pelacor murahan ? kau suke ?
OF COURSE U DONT !
So stop calling her a SLUT UNLESS u really want me to call u SLUT in school :) THANKYOU PLAYGIRL .
If you try to make one single movement onto her , dont stop us . Dont think she's alone . She still have us . N dont u ever think that YOUR GIRLFRIEND just stolen MY BESTFRIEND'S lover ?
GO DIE ! U n your girlfriends are all the same !
ATTENTION SEEKERS , FLIRTS n of course PERAMPAS :) thankyou very much playgirl . You really made my day a wonderful one . * roll eyes *

Yknow its the last time since i laugh hardly n continuously when im with my bestfriend , suhaida . I miss those times when she made me laugh like a clown n i made her go sot everywhere n anytime . Haha . Wish things never change from the starting . Wish our almost 2 years of friendship never ends . Although its just almost 2 years , but really we had alot of memories . And that memories is always written in my Diary :) She protects me but I protect her more . Even if we had big fights like we used to and those misunderstandings , i will definitely go on forgive n forget . If only she knew how joyfully my life was when she first came to my world .Although she made me miserable last time , but still shes most important to me .  She make a big difference in me . For this , Thankyou for making me laugh when i'd almost forgotten how to . Thankyou Dearest <3

Daddy dearest ,
I miss you );
I miss having u around . I miss those times u cuddle me like a pillow .
Wish u were still around . Wish u were right next to me . Wish u were talking to me now . Wish u were still here to listen to my problems . Wish u were here to complete the family . Wish u were here to have fun with us before u go );

Today ;
Never go to school . Sorry 4N1 i let u down . I used to like running , but now its not my all time hobby anymore . CROSS COUNTRY n SPORTS DAY, U SUCK IT . Im not gonna run anymore , only if im doing joggings or work out .
Go meet Boify . n he's late for 35 mins . WOW so best waiting for him ayeee . But nevermind . I forgive him :)
He told me if he could , he would teach me how to play pool . Okae !
tady tu security guard punyer lahh bnyk colok ! haiyaaaa . security guad buat hal security guard lahhh . Maen pool pulak .. Gy buat kerje ! haha

Kae , abng on movie cerite " Charlie n what ?" i dunnoe . Tapy Zac Efron Hot ! okae dah cukop -.- cerite die sungguh sedih :(

Its me , Its you

 Boyfriend is missed :(

Cross country is coming :< alaaaaaaa , pls hujan . Rain rain come again . Pls take over this day !

Febuary 2011 ,
Please be good to me . Please give me more patience . I donwan any bad times again .
Im tired okae . Give me time to rest more then January . I can say , January is SOOOOOO being bad to me . Sooo many homeworks , personal family problems , not enough rest , fights .... Fuck u ! Go die >:(
Fade from my mind pls , its sooo damn sour to recall back .
Yknow why im happy ?
This month has events going on .
1. Thursday - Sunday , working at Fajar Mac . Seeing my Brothers !
2. 4th Monthsary :)
3. First time celebrating Valentines Day
4. My ex birthday :P

" You're the one I want and I'ma continue lovin' "

Siti Muliani , together we're going through the same situation . You are not alone :)

Boy , You're my Addiction

Currently chatting with Suhaida and my boyfriend .
" Sorry ehk Helmi . Kau nak suhaida balek jgn harap ah . Kau belom sedar ape yg kau dah saketkan hati bestfriend aku ? Kau pikir aku suke tngok bestfriend aku merane ? Aku maybe bilang suhaida  ' sape2 kau nak pegy , aku tak kesah , tapy jgn sampai dorng pinjak kepale kau ' .
Kau nak katekan I Love You Suhaida ape2 pon aku tak kesah ah . Tapy do you really mean it ? Suhaida can be single skrng , tapy kau tak tawu ade orng laen die tngah tunggu ? think first ah Helmi , say anything u want . But dont make your second chance a wasteful one . "

Chatting with my boyfriend making me more ever SOT then now . Hahaha i like ! Kay i ask him one random question ; " If we break up someday , what will u do ? "

He says :
I will find u n patch back wid u

i say : 
But why me ?

He says :
u are the one i love the most n we have many great n swite memory
Aww soo swite . So his turn to ask me but he ask the same question to me back .

i say :

haha . hmmm , i wont find anyone else . Cause i told u before ur my first n the last . Whatever happens my door is always open for u to enter :) cause ur the best thing thats ever been mine n i cant forget the times we had together . its the sweetest n memorable ones . You're the one who always makes me happy and i wont ever regret having u as my boyfriend . My heart is only meant for you and theres no other person who has the same identity to replace u in this world n inside my heart :D

PANJANG KAN PANJANG KAN ?

haha . long rite ?? But to me i lot of things to say . Soo im extending it .

If we we're to break up , its okay . Its fine with me . Cause theres onli one person who only fits into my heart . He can be the one to ask for break or even me , but anything happens , the door inside me is always open for him . Theres always a chance to be given to the person who gave me a lot of memories and love to me  rite ?  He's the one who repairs my heart  when its broken . He's the one who accompanies me when im alone . He's the teddy bear i wanna hug tightly when im missing him .  And mostly , he's the star thats shines brightly in the night without fail . He's my everything , my joy , my luck , my life , my love . Anything happens , i dont have the heart to leave him alone and hurt him .  He blast my life like a firework show .  I can never regret him as my boyfriend cause he's worth my heart n love . Even truthfully , there's just no one else in this world the same identity as him to replace him in  this world n in my heart . If he does things makes me mad or sad  , still forgiving him is the best way to keep us going . Im never have the hard feelings  to give up on him . He's just the best thing in my entire life . He's that star shining brightly in the night missing me soo right :)

There i said it . From my whole heart .
Dear , if you're reading this , for what i said it above , thankyou soo much .  always make me smile . Thankyou . Love yaa soooooooo much <3 .Valentines day n our monthsary is coming , Looking forward the best day together :)

13January2011

You were there for me all along
Pls be right next to me tonight
All i can say is dont let go and hold on
Im asure everythings gonna be alright.
If there were to have a shooting star shooting across the night ,
take my hand and hold it tight .
How i strongly wish you'll always in my sight .
Nothings gonna make me breakdown as i were to cherish this moment with full of pride .

13January2011 <3

Happy 3months Anniversary Dear ! Hehe . Got soo many things to say just dont know where to start . Hmmm , first thing im gonna say is Thankyou . What i meant , Thankyou for your sacrifices , your care towards me , Your truthful to me , your faithfulness n lastly your Love . Thankyou for what you've done for me  Andand thankyou for the kisses n hugs :) i like ! Teehee . Just dont know how am i gonna repay you back accept for my heart . I nvr thought we could go through 3 months this far . Well , my first time relationship til this far without any fake promises . Hehe kae i kembang :D . Second thing , sorry for what i've made u down . I nvr meant to hurt u . i nvr meant to play your feelings . Especially sorry for what i said that made u change . All i said that just to let you know your mistake . Yknow i nvr before ask you to change . And im never expecting you to change cause I Love You Just the Way You Are . Kae whats past is past . Im never gonna repeat the past . Third thing , although we never go out celebrate this day 3 times already , but its okae . I dont mind . As long as youre with me , im gonna love our anniversary . It doesnt matter where we celebrate it , and how we plan it . The only matters for me is youre with me and why we're doing this cause we are meant to be together . Thats the only thing it matters . We have gone through ups n downs together and i hope we could go further more :) All the random questions i ask , it means im observing ur love towards me . Although its kinda fun . Im sorry we're not meeting on this day .
My last wish : I wish we're doing this further more . Nothings gonna block our way .Yeah , i'll be yours forever more :) cause you've always be in my heart . Even if i show attitude , sad or what towards you , keep this in mind .. i'll always love you no matter what happens . Even if we fight and never talk , still im always here waiting for your one text . Always . Nothings gonna change in me and nobody is gonna chnge my love to you . Im nvr letting other guys kidnap my heart cause you're the only key to my heart . Once again , Happy 3 months Anniversary ! :D Thankyou n Love ya alooooootz !! <3

Prince Charming of mine

True true . This one's for Efah . You know what i mean rite ? Hehehe .

WhatTheFuck , im scared & speechless . Its not about my family , friends , problems or stress . Its about Him . You noe what i mean rite dear ? u should really noe whats gonna happen . Just i cant believe what his lawyer just told em .

Dear , i dont noe what to say . Im scared ); Cant imagine my life would be if ur not around for the 2nd time . Even if ur in Hostel , still it aint enough for me to get through weeks without u . Even when ur gone , i dont have the heart to hurt ya . I cant give up waiting for u n i cant give it up on u . Every teardrops i cry , its u . I dont ever want to lose u again like i used to . i noe u dont like to see me sad rite like the one cry at the phone with u . Hoping soooo much u nvr go . I'll missed the days we spend time together . I'll never forget them . Although im in a free world , i noe i cant be free for certain things ; Boys . Youre the only one i earn . Youre the only one i love .

48 hours of ton . Wow i can say its my first time ton with friends . Didnt expect to be soo gerekk ! Mum didnt know with who i went or where i go when shes out of singapore with my little sister . When they went out , i went out meeting my Boifee . yeah , im world . I say that i sleepover at my friends house at Clementi . and then bring us to Marina to watch fireworks for New Year's Countdown ! haha im such a world .Talking about fireworks , those colours were greatly awesome ! Haha most funny part , all the bangladeshes record videos of the fireworkds like ' jakon ' . seriously irritating much .Then , Mum call me like 9 times  and all i did was ignore her calls  . Of course i know whats shes going to say , All i get from her is lecture lecture lecture . So the one night at Marina with Boifee , Shahrul , Boi , Khai n Raj . Really i had fun though it was damn tiring . We walk the whole Town  in rounds just to catch a 6/7 seater taxi . Walao ! 4 hours of catching taxis really boils my blood up . Fucking bastards those taxi drivers . And at 3+ am , atlast we caught a 6/7 seater taxi to Geylang . Okae , my eyes got steam already . Got sleepy n tired . Go rest for a while leaning on my boifee's body . About that Geylang place , it felt soo creepy walking infront of Hotel 101 n Hotel 81 . Got scared when a bangla stare me n watched me walk pass him .. n he follow behind me . Luckily boifee secure me :) Go one coffee shop and they drink accept for me n boifee .

Just wanna say Happy New Year to all . Hope i get along with 2011 life this year . I wished for that i wanna be with my one n only guy forever